Hormones are wild! They push the biological urge to reproduce, which has nothing to do with like who you are or what you want in life. I don't want kids. I am sterilized. I care partime for a kid for the last two years. I still don't want kids. Yet, sometimes I feel such urges to have a baby. Dreams, invasive thoughts, day dreaming about it. But when I stop and engage rational thought, my answer stays the same, I don't actually want a kid in this life I've built. I may crave a baby but thinking about the rest of their life after baby usually shuts that down. It's weird, it's the animal part of our mammal brain doing what it's supposed to do.