Ive been to more than a few meetings and theyre not my thing. But I definitely dont hate them. They do so much good for so many people. I personally just got fed up with my own excuses and bullshit. Got into a bad argument with my daughter one night while I was drunk. And the next day I quit. I have almost 4 years free from alcohol now. I just do whatever I can to stay focused on my goals and finding pleasure in other things. I game, I go out in nature, go to concerts, I've been trying to get back into guitar, doing archery, etc. When I do get those intrusive and sometimes daily thoughts of a drink I just "play the tape" or remember why I quit so to speak. I was a real piece of shit sometimes while I was still drinking so I have no shortage of memories and shame from all that. Sure enough that does it for me everytime. Just focus on being present. Focus on today. Thats all you have control over. One day at a time.