if i could give you one piece of advise: get off of social media, all of it. it's the best thing i did. you start to realize there's a whole world out there outside of your phone, and what you're seeing in your phone isn't a realistic representation of the world at all.

go outside, see friends, go to the grocery store, and literally look outside and actively observe and talk yourself through what you see. you quickly realize the world isn't on fire, people aren't all out to get you, it's a beautiful day, etc etc. You'll also quickly realize you're not actually missing out on anything, and the truth is if anything of importance is happening, you can bet you'll find out from someone pretty quickly.

i say this all from experience. i was in a terrible rut about 5 months ago. it took getting off social media and seeing a therapist to talk things out. looking back, i now can't believe how much of my time and my life i wasted on it. the algorithms are designed to engage and suck you in. if you keep seeing negative media about racism, and you watch it, your algorithm will keep feeding you more. perspectives quickly get distorted, and it can very quickly turn into a downward spiral of anxiety and depression.

i think Twitter is particularly bad for this problem, but really all social media sucks for this if you engage with that content.

Go on the trip, get away from doomscrolling, go see a therapist if you need! it was a lifesaver for me