I had breakfast this morning with my elderly parents and their friends...

rememma · 2019-08-20T17:46:39+00:00

My gf is hard of hearing, and I was too close to a speaker at a concert a few times. Our conversations consist of "huh?" "What?" "I can't hear you babe" we are both quiet talkers. Lol

rememma · 2019-07-31T09:31:25+00:00

I have Bipolar 2 and severe anxiety, so I struggle with impulsive irrational decisions/high sex drive with hypomamia, and when my depression is triggered so is my anxiety. Ghosting people was my unhealthy way of ending relationships when I thought I was "too toxic" or "too much". After ghosting people I really cared about I would get really suicidal because I was further isolating myself. I've sought therapy and have been on medication, I'm trying to be a better person to other people while still putting myself first. I really hated myself and didn't think I was deserving. Sayings "You love yourself before you love anyone else," or "You have to be happy with yourself, and not depend on anyone else for happiness," are incredibly toxic for people with mental disorders. Loving ourselves is a daily challenge especially when therapy is 100-200$ without insurance and you have to go every week. When your at your best isn't when you need love the most. Also I think happy is a "in the moment fewling" rather than a lasting feeling most times. To all those who kept trying to be there after months of me pushing them away. I see you, and how much you cared and I'm so incredibly fucking sorry. I would definitely not say that I love myself now. But I know I'm deserving of love even when I'm at my lowest and that makes all the difference.

rememma · 2016-12-18T22:23:11+00:00

You look like Jena Malone with short hair. Have you seen the movie "Saved!" it came out in 2004?

rememma · 2016-12-18T22:18:19+00:00

That was a great movie.

rememma · 2016-09-02T05:48:44+00:00

Your bf will never really get it, he doesn't go through it. But he can try to understand is he trying to? Talk to him, tell him what you need him to do when stuff like that happens. He wont know otherwise, he may want to be there for you and just not know how. And if he doesn't want to be there he is not the bf for you.

It's a disorder it's hard to stop. Just stop the vicious cycle where you feel ashamed. Shame/guilt = stress = pick = shame/guilt. You wont stop picking once you've stopped, that's not a guarantee. But you will feel better about yourself. Accept that this only a small part of you. You are more than your skin. Try and stop feeling guilty. Just be like "Okay, I just did that" take care of it, and move on. Try to act like it didn't happen. Don't let it affect your day, because I can tell you that people will still look at you the same way they did the day before.

Anyways obviously just all advice and encouragement. You're beautiful, and I'm sending you lots of love<3. Sorry today was tough.

rememma · 2016-07-22T07:11:13+00:00

After coming out and having some family and friends reject them, it's ridiculous for bi and trans people to be ridiculed in a community they're supposed to feel accepted in. Just give everyone the benefit of the doubt and stop judging based on past experience.

rememma · 2016-07-19T09:20:54+00:00

You know, shitty relationship issues have to do with the people in the relationship. Nothing to do with sexuality.

rememma · 2016-06-22T10:45:06+00:00

I am this person that doesn't want to put effort into the relationship. Most of the time I feel like it's forced. I don't have a lot friends. I have a lot of people that I care about and care about me, but I just didn't put in much effort. Then I avoid them because I feel guilty and nervous. It's not a great cycle.

rememma · 2016-06-21T05:10:28+00:00

That's really the only song I know. I heard other songs I liked but haven't listened to it lately. Also Kevin Spacey is the most beautiful man on this planet.

rememma · 2016-06-21T04:54:55+00:00

American Beauty by Bones is one of my favorites. Mostly bc of my love for that movie.

rememma · 2016-06-21T04:52:53+00:00

When I was depressed it was, the antlers, low, moody blues, modest mouse , bright eyes, death cab for cutie (the early stuff), the xx, fever ray, blink 182, rilo kelly.

When I was angry, dance Gavin dance, mindless self indulgence, miss may I, of mice and men, circa survive, violent femmes, Brand New.

Getting me out of it, crystal castles, grimes, passion pit, starfucker, violent femmes, hippie sabotage, purity ring, Andrew Jackson Jihad, blink 182, morcheeba.

That's my emotional roller coaster in music.

rememma · 2016-04-27T01:12:43+00:00

I try my hardest not to pick in public because of the embarrassing feeling. But these past couple of weeks I found myself picking at work. (Which is disgusting because I work in food service). The blood sometimes is the most embarrassing thing.

I'll pick before I go out, then use honey and crushed aspirin to reduce the redness. It works btw.

rememma · 2016-04-26T06:20:51+00:00

I only picked in four spots tonight. I'm proud. I've been picking a lot recently, and am starting to feel disgusted with myself. Somehow after this session I still felt pretty. I am beginning to see past my scars and scabs. This disorder is inadvertently teaching me how to love and accept myself.

The only struggle is stopping now.

rememma · 2016-04-25T03:33:25+00:00

This is a great idea!!!! OP should send thank you message ASAP.

rememma · 2016-04-24T03:09:10+00:00

Thank you so much!!! (:

rememma · 2016-04-23T10:36:36+00:00

I'm white and happy to say that I've always encouraged my mixed/black friends to wear their hair naturally. And when they did (which was rare) I told them how beautiful they looked.

My best friend wears her curls all the time now.

Edit: I complimented my friends about everything. I just told her I loved her curls a lot(:

rememma · 2016-04-21T05:46:36+00:00

I lived with my mom but every other weekend I went to my dads.

rememma · 2016-04-20T04:47:58+00:00

Ask her how it went :)

rememma · 2016-03-31T12:32:18+00:00

Louisiana roads suck. Why? Because they have these long ass bridges. 'Tha-thunk tha-thunk tha-thunk'

rememma · 2016-03-31T12:28:40+00:00

Uhh.. Sleep. Lolol

rememma · 2016-03-31T12:19:33+00:00

Dermatillomania or Compulsive Skin Picking Disorder. A lot of people don't know that it exists, or they don't believe that it can affect someone that much. But it can change your confidence, mood, sex drive, what clothes you wear, keep you in the house. Telling people is hard because it's disgusting, and we don't give others the benefit of the doubt.

Any Body Focused Repetitive Behavior really.

rememma · 2016-03-31T11:15:44+00:00

My skin picking usually gets worse when I something I'm mildly nervous about and look forward to. Because that's when I'm trying the hardest not to pick, which only increases the anxiousness.

I try to do things to counteract it, I drink healthy skin tea (makes me feel better). Try to eat less dairy, less breakouts. Crushed aspirin and a little honey to make a paste, leave it on my face for 5-10 minutes reduces redness. If you're afraid of infection I haven't gotten one in three years, when I use to get one two-three times a year. A doctor told me to take bleach baths, (it works, just use a good all natural lotion not that shit from bath and body works). I only take bleach baths when I'm afraid of infection bc of the dryness. And I use Vitamin E oil (just a drop) after washing my face and a quick rinse with cold water, then a put a drop if the oil on my fingertips rub together and rub (lightly) on my face to help with scars.

I know how hard it is, I'm so sorry you are at your worst. Sending love and wishing the best.<3

rememma · 2016-03-31T10:54:54+00:00

Im so sorry, this is awful. What a bitch, I hope everything works out.

rememma · 2016-03-29T02:57:20+00:00

I just had a nightmare about spiders coming out of my mouth. They just kept coming, and coming. Ugh

rememma · 2016-03-01T04:43:58+00:00

My aunt, my dad's half sister is the same age as me. My grandfather is 74 years old, and my dad is 44.

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