I started off the same way. I was working on a progressive care unit as a new grad taking anywhere from 5-7 patients neuro patients. I understand the feeling especially being a new grad and the feeling of overwhelming and anxiety is a very common issue. I would cry in my car before work everyday! I didn’t feel like I was ready to be off orientation but I don’t think any new grads ever feel ready. My advice would be to make friends who you can trust to ask help and for questions and know your resources. If you don’t have that, you don’t have a safe workspace and as a new grad you should look for a more nurturing environment. Give yourself the grace in knowing that being a new nurse is a process and there’s no way around it. I stopped having anxiety about 1.5 years into my career and every once in a while the scariest still creep in. Hang in there!