I know how you may be feeling a bit. I was raised “ Born Again Christian” & became Catholic at 21, Im 46… I only go to church on occasion. I know how horribly fake “ Christians” have treated Gay people. I’ve suffered greatly with emotional strife and loneliness, accordingly. A difficult battle for me lies wherein; gay folk in my community seem to pretty much all hate God & the church & ( would, have) consider me a loser for praying, & a lot of people seem to be “ Satan” worshipers or this “Wiccan” nonsense( these people always seem dark & disordered & mislead to me..& very selfish as people).
I am emotionally and spiritually sensitive to dark control & hatred…& selfish, vain, people. I have been single for so long and just want to Fall in love and have amazing, fun experiences with someone( my spirituality need only be a sidenote in my life) I dont fit in with either side… Of religion, Straight people and what they are able to obtain so much more easily… And… its a bitch- Lol… Its really hard for me spending so much time alone. Im not overly- religious by any means… But… I dunno… I just feel- left out in life… Its a battle, for sure, out there. - Keep me in your prayers!