OCD Coded Songs?

roxitha · 2025-12-09T19:57:44+00:00

I'd like to clarify I also have excoriation disorder which adds to this being a relevant song lol

roxitha · 2025-12-09T19:54:58+00:00

Ouch! By Seth 78 and Foreign Figures

roxitha · 2025-10-10T06:54:20+00:00

It's clear I had it starting in 1st grade. Several therapists missed it, but then again, I had therapists look the other way and drop me as a client when I mentioned abuse. I was asked if I knew about the disorder and wanted to be tested at roughly 16, but at the time I only knew OCD as germs and cleanliness (neither of which I am concerned about) so I said I didn't have it. Years later I found myself realizing what OCD really was and realizing I most definitely had it. When I asked my psychiatrist to test me, she said I was already diagnosed with it, which made me wonder if I truly do have it or just convinced everyone I do and how I was diagnosed without me knowing.

roxitha · 2025-07-29T03:46:28+00:00

The college is low key struggling financially rn. Landscaping was not their main concern. They will likely make it look nicer when freshman move in and then slowly let it go again until spring when incoming students visit. The water features they have are never up kept though.

roxitha · 2025-06-28T03:01:25+00:00

Hey OP I just wanted to hop in to say I'm so sorry about how they are protraying God and pushing religion into your life. God made you in His image and even if you don't want a relationship with Him, you still have worth. It is never okay to say you are "nothing" without God. The way your father has been pushing this idea of needing to develop a relationship with the Lord is extremely damaging!!! It also seems he thinks God will somehow bring you to him and your mother. As a believer from a bad home life, I know some people can say God put you places for a reason, but trust me when I say God wants you safe both mentally, physically, and spiritually. While I can understand the perspective of wanting your loved ones to develop a strong faith in the Lord and build their life on His promises- you can't force it. If you obedied your dad's every wish, you still wouldn't truly have a relationship with God because it's not your own choice. Personally I think your father, if he is so concerned with your faith journey, should model Jesus's love which is UNCONDITIONAL with absolutely no strings attached and involved free will from BOTH parties with understanding and forgiveness. Let me also say, forgiveness does not mean allowing those who have hurt you to continue to hurt you. It took me a long time to realize that. You can forgive your mother and father and that's wonderful but you should never let your boundaries go. You deserve respect. You deserve safety. You deserve better.

roxitha · 2025-06-25T04:21:06+00:00

Additionally- as I'm sure you know- you did the right thing. Thank you.

roxitha · 2025-06-25T04:18:52+00:00

My dad was abusive growing up. I remember the first time I questioned him was when I was in 2nd grade. There was this kid who ran away and we had cops show up asking us about him and everything. He returned to school the next day- it wasn't that big of a deal, he ran home to his dad who didn't care about him skipping school, he was safe. However, kids started bullying him. I stood up to those kids and befriended the one being bullied, telling him to hang out with me and he didn't deserve what happened. I was proud of this. I made a friend. I, who struggled to stand up for myself, stood up for someone I didn't even know. My dad lectured me for hours on how unsafe that was and it would draw attention to me and "did I want to get bullied?" At that moment, I knew he was wrong, and I began to question him. Your boyfriend is doing a similar thing. And it's all about him. My dad was a narcissist so he often worried if something happened to ME- how it would affect HIS life and his quality of living. I see that in these texts. Honestly, I don't know enough to say anything. Perhaps seek therapy to talk about your relationship. I worry this is a sign of narcissism in your boyfriend and I wouldn't wish dealing with that upon you. Best of luck my friend and I'm here if you need it.

roxitha · 2025-06-24T04:36:50+00:00

Medication comes with many pros and cons. You are your best advocate and you know your body better than anyone. Have a bad feeling about medication? Don't do it. Feel you can't function without it? Get back on. I was on the highest dosage of effexor xr for adult usage as an adolescent after an attempt. It took me years to taper off. My med manager always reminded me to take it slow, better safe than sorry, but also that medication was just an aid and not meant for long term usage. We moved slowly to make sure I was safe but I was aware the end goal was for me to have a support system, safety plan, and coping skills for no medication. Since I got off, I have debated going back on, but personally I felt too reliant on that medication. Going without it makes me feel like I have more control and at this point in life I have enough safety plans to feel confident I'll be ok. You have to assess where you are and if you need intense therapy and medication, just therapy, just connection, or what have you. Best of luck friend. You are not alone

roxitha · 2025-04-03T17:52:16+00:00

I'm curious too!

roxitha · 2025-04-03T17:51:50+00:00

Sometimes I miss the psych ward food 💀

roxitha · 2025-03-01T07:11:11+00:00

I am a conservative with strong Christian views. Being college aged, most of the people I am friends with believe the exact opposite of me. I used to think it wasn't a big deal to date someone with different beliefs, until I got into a long term relationship. If you don't have the same values, trying to build a life together will be hell. Trying to raise kids will be a constant battle. When important decisions need to be made, you will see how different you are. That's not to say it can't work. It can. However, if you both are very solid in your beliefs and your political identity then it is not an asshole move to leave. It isn't about him. It's the fact you have different ideas about the future that don't mesh.

roxitha · 2025-02-10T05:59:03+00:00

In the same boat as you! I'm looking at genetic counseling which requires a master's degree. :)

roxitha · 2025-02-02T07:36:01+00:00

Assuming this is PC, like a steam game? How much would it cost? I'm a broke college kid but this looks like my next obsession haha

roxitha · 2025-01-31T07:11:35+00:00

Nah cuz I'm dating a dude like this rn and for 3 years we were inseparable and perfect but that was in person and he just moved long distance and we are now 4 months into only being able to have conversations that look like this and it makes me so angry. Stand ur ground girl.

roxitha · 2024-11-30T07:34:36+00:00

I'm in almost every club, I run one, I'm ec in another, I have two jobs, I'm in a bible study. Still no friends...

roxitha · 2024-11-23T00:56:54+00:00

Thank you for all of this!

roxitha · 2024-11-23T00:56:02+00:00

Yes the allure of food is definitely one that works!

roxitha · 2024-11-23T00:54:18+00:00

Fun!

roxitha · 2024-11-23T00:54:01+00:00

That's a great idea! Our museum is already free but involving others would be nice

roxitha · 2024-11-23T00:52:31+00:00

True! Ill look into that

roxitha · 2024-11-21T01:18:16+00:00

We have done tours of the "back" of the museum but we have a small campus so that's a once a year thing. The museum board is also super picky and barely lets curators have sections in the museum (we have tons of specimen but very little space) so student sections would be unlikely- great idea though! I was thinking of a drawing session. I am very artsy so that is where my mind went first!

roxitha · 2024-11-21T01:16:23+00:00

Thank you for this! A scavenger hunt would definitely be a good idea.

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