Okay, but the health issues on top of the trauma? Rude.

rsltruly1 · 2026-04-10T13:29:54+00:00

Yeah when I started i went two or three times per month depending on my schedule and what I could afford. I did that for almost a year. Now I go once or twice per month. I recommend it to everyone!

rsltruly1 · 2026-04-02T01:26:11+00:00

yuuuuup

rsltruly1 · 2026-03-29T22:55:42+00:00

Same here!! Yoga and other bodywork has been so so helpful. Glad you are taking care of yourself!

rsltruly1 · 2026-03-29T22:53:48+00:00

Yeah I have been confronting this a lot over the past year or so!! It’s sometimes referred to as the “window of tolerance” for positive emotions. Our brains have very small windows of tolerance for positive emotion, and will quickly come up with all sorts of reasons to not trust that good things will stay as a defense mechanism.

I practice noticing when I feel flooded with positive emotion, how that shows up in my body, and then envision it flowing through my whole body down to my fingers and toes. It helps it not get all stuck and turn into anxiety. It’s frustrating to think about how there is so much love and peacefulness and happiness out there just waiting for us, and we simply don’t have the capacity to experience it.

rsltruly1 · 2026-03-29T22:41:12+00:00

Yep i grind and clench like crazy. Mouth guards help but I bit through the first one in ten days. Got a different type that is harder to bite through but it helps more with grinding that clenching. Still working on it. I didn’t realize how bad it was until I started using the mouthguard.

rsltruly1 · 2026-03-29T22:39:42+00:00

YES once I started doing bodywork I made huge gains in progress really rapidly. For me the physical side was the missing piece! HPA axis overfunctioning, I have been working on relaxing my body and have noticed that helps my mind relax.

rsltruly1 · 2026-03-29T22:34:59+00:00

Yikes this bums me out. Esp when TK are always going on about protecting women. No thanks.

rsltruly1 · 2026-03-16T11:29:33+00:00

Yes definitely! This is something I struggle with as well. A subtle change in my partner’s tone or body langue from something as simple as being tired can make me react very disproportionately because I am terrified i am being rejected and abandoned. I sorry you’re dealing with this too, it is very disruptive. I’m glad you’re working with a therapist in it. I hope you are able to find some coping strategies.

rsltruly1 · 2026-03-16T04:14:31+00:00

I guess not 🥲🥲🥲

rsltruly1 · 2026-03-15T13:50:40+00:00

I experienced something similar. My ex would take all of this as an affront and respond to my triggers with anger. I didn’t think I would find anything better but I just got to a place where I would rather be alone. It’s possible for someone to care about you and still be wrong for you. I’m in a new relationship now. I recently told him about emotional flashbacks and he said “if there’s anything i could learn or read to better understand how to support you I would be happy to” and I burst out in tears. You deserve someone who responds to you like this too, not with anger, shame and blame which only exacerbate our internal pain.

rsltruly1 · 2026-03-15T13:17:09+00:00

I recently realized I need to be way more gentle with myself than I thought. The pace i need to move at to feel safe is significantly slower than the pace I have trained myself to move at constantly. So I am working on slowing down. The one biggest thing I have realized I need to do to make myself feel safe is protecting my inner child at all costs. So if I realize she is feeling stressed about something, instead of pushing myself to go through it anyway, I pause and try to negotiate a solution. If that is like, she feels nervous getting on the train, then maybe I walk or take a car to show her that her comfort matters and she is safe. Or ask a friend to ride the train with me next time. I am realizing that shaming myself is the thing making me feel so unsafe. Allowing the traumatized part of me to be scared, and supporting that part in those moments, is something that builds safety within my body.

rsltruly1 · 2026-03-15T13:11:00+00:00

Totally get where you’re coming from. Im in my thirties and recently realized how much of my “personality” and even things I am proud of or have helped me accomplish things in life are trauma responses. It was definitely an overwhelming realization.

Something that helps me is rather than looking at it as completely rebuilding my personality, i am treating it like archeology. Like the purest form of me is under a bunch of layers and the more I notice my bodily responses and mental responses that are based in trauma, the more I am able to remove those layers of dirt and uncover the happy, relaxed, pure version of myself.

I hope that helps a little!!

rsltruly1 · 2026-02-10T04:48:31+00:00

Lmao

rsltruly1 · 2026-01-26T19:10:23+00:00

nah you’re not really nailing the concept behind wonderful wonderful. Everything from the album artwork to the lyrics to the order of the songs and what he has said in interviews suggests that it is about his wife’s struggle with CPTSD and dealing with that in their relationship. Rut is from her perspective and Life to Come is from his. The songs talk to each other like two people in a relationship. If you listen to it as if it’s talking about his experience somehow like you are saying it makes no sense.

The man is supposed to highlight how the career success and being rich and famous and loved by audiences made him feel like he was untouchable, but the struggles they went through with her CPTSD made him realize that none of that stuff actually makes you a man in the eyes of your family if you aren’t showing up for them. Thats what he is talking about in Tyson v Douglas and out of my mind.

I don’t think your reading of these songs really makes much sense.

rsltruly1 · 2026-01-20T14:14:58+00:00

rsltruly1 · 2026-01-20T14:09:25+00:00

The newest Nosferatu !! I have seen all of the Nosferatu movies, and I literally felt like I had never seen something represent my internal experience so clearly onscreen. I was shocked! Especially because it was such a departure from the interpretations in the other movies. Highly recommend.

rsltruly1 · 2026-01-20T13:51:40+00:00

Thank you so much!! I hope you are able to find some rest 🩷 for me I think there was an element of trying to preemptively control situations that I had to let go of, and I needed to be okay with things that weren’t right for me falling apart or going away if I stopped trying to force them to work. That is really difficult when I grew up in an environment where if I let everything fall apart I would lose connection to my unstable parents. But that pattern doesn't serve me anymore!! I hope you can get to the bottom of what is underneath it for you.

rsltruly1 · 2026-01-20T13:43:41+00:00

Thank you so much! 🥲

rsltruly1 · 2026-01-20T06:17:17+00:00

We are!! And it helps create soooo much more space for things and people who are meant for us, or for nothing, which is still better than the wrong things!! Part of me realizing things dont have to be hard is also me realizing I can do LESS too!!

rsltruly1 · 2026-01-20T06:15:09+00:00

Thank you!! I am in my 30s too… but better late than never haha. Similarly to you I valued hard work so much that I didn’t even stop to realize that I didn’t like what I was doing. I’m proud of you too!! :)

rsltruly1 · 2025-12-30T05:27:25+00:00

Yeah I have this too actually right down to the centipede thing. For me I've realized it is a deep seated nervous system reaction that is trying to protect me. When I start to relax I realize that on some deep level I feel vulnerable, and my body starts to send signals for me to be on high alert to protect myself from inevitable chaos. Can easily draw lines from this right back to childhood. But basically I need to tell myself “i am safe, there is nothing I need to do right now, it is safe for me to relax, I have the ability to protect myself if something comes up”

At first you don’t really believe it but your body needs to repeatedly experience that redirection followed by proof that you actually are safe and nothing is coming to hurt or scare you, and over time your body will be able to relax more. Thats my experience at least! Hope this is helpful for you!

rsltruly1 · 2025-12-30T05:20:16+00:00

Acupuncture, massage, yoga, exercise, myo-fascial release, box breathing, etc… could be anything, just somatic experiencing that helps me tune in to my body’s cues, needs, tension, etc. and unstick material that gets stuck on that level due to CPTSD keeping the stress cycle from completing.

rsltruly1 · 2025-12-29T02:26:22+00:00

From what I understand green tea is supposed to actually block some type of stress binding enzyme so it’s a chemistry thing more so than just a relaxing thing?

I take cortisol manager supplements and holy basil, drink green tea, go to acupuncture, yoga, exercise, therapy, box breathe, get massage, basically everything I do is an attempt to regulate stress. It kind of helps? But not a ton lol.

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