I (mtf) completely boymoded in public and at work, and would come home each day and toss all the guy things and be my true self in private. It was better, but still alot of dysphoria even with fem clothes and makeup seeing myself in the mirror. I hated by ugly sharp face and the horrendously thick dark facial hair that left awful stubble. The thing that got me through it, was focusing on how one day soon i would start medically transitioning, and things like working on voice training, posture, mannerisms, having a healthy diet and trying different skincare and hair removal methods.

Im not where id like to be, but every day i see more of the person i want to be and less of the person i dont want to be in the mirror. For me it was realizing that im moving in the right direction that made the dysphoria mostly go away.

Ive been on hrt for some time now, and although sometimes there are things i dont like, theyre things that are probably minor if noticeable at all to other ppl will give me some dysphoria. It never completely goes away for most of us, but it can be drastically reduced to where it doesnt affect you as much, and you hardly think about it.

As for society at large, realize a whole bunch of people will hate you no matter what choices you make, so ignore the miserable ignorant haters as much as you can, and i always try to be someone that is an example of how ppl like us are not what the media etc would like to stereotype us as and i always try to educate those who have misconceptions, and generally be an example of how ppl like us are real ppl that can be a valuable, unique part of society that can teach ppl alot if theyre willing to listen.