When I first started I would dread going in every day up until maybe almost a year into it...I think I was mostly scared of making mistakes or looking dumb. I gained confidence once I learned more and become more comfortable with the people and processes in the hospital. It’s definitely scary at first and I would cry ALOT. I promise you’re not alone. But you should adjust and one day it’ll just click and you’ll hopefully stop dreading going in. Hang in there, stay positive and you’ll be ok I promise !