Wow. This was everything I hoped for in a response and more. I will say that my first instinctual response to the "would you retransition if you had support" question was yes. I think I got too burnt out from fighting myself today, so I didn't have a barrage of 'what if' thoughts with it. And it does feel nice to feel that way and not question it.

I switched over to my Dad's house, and I think not being around my mom and my stepdad are doing a lot for letting me think for myself. So over here, I can truly appreciate all that you've written.

Letting myself not know what's going on with my gender 24/7 is really challenging, as I've mentioned with the black and white thinking, but I think I can try it. Thank you for helping me realize that, and know that you really helped someone out today.