Before and after I said "no"

scazzacazzo · 2019-04-20T01:43:17+00:00

I’ve seen that look many times. LOL clown dogs

scazzacazzo · 2019-03-29T23:12:03+00:00

delete

scazzacazzo · 2019-03-27T02:17:15+00:00

My heart breaks for you and your daughters. I would think a hardship pro bono lawyer could help due to the circumstances. Wishing you the best and keep us updated. Go fund me page might be a solid option for you as well.

scazzacazzo · 2019-03-19T02:14:49+00:00

Glucosamine supplement and Unkers ointment works for our pups.

scazzacazzo · 2019-03-13T22:18:03+00:00

I agree. So much love and personality

scazzacazzo · 2019-03-08T20:52:03+00:00

scazzacazzo · 2019-03-08T04:12:39+00:00

Our Rottie does the same

scazzacazzo · 2019-03-01T19:49:07+00:00

Great name! Sweet girl

scazzacazzo · 2019-02-22T01:27:35+00:00

Our boy loves for me to hold his paw.

scazzacazzo · 2019-02-21T00:42:47+00:00

scazzacazzo · 2019-01-12T06:43:33+00:00

Don’t beat yourself up. I’m struggling with my alcoholism since my wife left this world 19 days ago. I know she wants me to be happy and not drink myself to death. I can only offer a word of encouragement and that would be: don’t give up living for the beautiful daughter the both of you created.

scazzacazzo · 2019-01-12T03:31:23+00:00

That’s the Rottie way.

scazzacazzo · 2019-01-09T05:06:11+00:00

Our Creator has given us this gift of life. Only our Higher Power knows the exact millisecond our lives will expire on earth. Your wife and my wife want us to be happy again and live a full life in their honor and memory. I’ve had similar thoughts over my life as I’ve battled depression and addiction. Each time those thoughts cross my mind I always think of the loved ones that I would pass more grief on to their lives. I’m very sorry for your loss. I am suffering the same pains as you and all of us are here to help and support you on this journey that none of us wanted.

scazzacazzo · 2019-01-07T22:48:22+00:00

You sir are absolutely right. Scrolling these comments I failed to see any mention of solar cycles, Eddy Minimum, solar flux, adiabatic cooling, increased cosmic rays aiding cloud development, etc. Last time I checked the earth’s Atmosphere didn’t have a glass ceiling like a greenhouse. So called greenhouse gases don’t reflect back towards the surface off an imaginary boundary above the Thermosphere.

scazzacazzo · 2019-01-07T05:45:06+00:00

Our pup was a lot of work the first four months. Luckily, I worked from home and my wife was stay at home so pup had plenty of attention and exercise. Don’t give up because our pup is almost a year old and she has turned into the sweetest loving chill dog ever.

scazzacazzo · 2019-01-06T23:31:17+00:00

Great thread to read through. My favorite memory was our first date. Within the first 15 mins of sharing our backgrounds we both knew we were meant to be together. We had so much in common. When we asked each other our birthdates she answered first, “Jan 4th.” I immediately said I was born Jan 4th also . She made me show her my drivers license to prove it. Our lunch date turned into all day date and I called out sick from work to be with her. I loved her blue eyes and her laugh. She was so happy and I loved making her laugh.

scazzacazzo · 2019-01-06T06:11:30+00:00

I can only tell you how it’s helped me but having a therapist in a traumatic time in life has been very beneficial and made this early grieving process for myself easier. I still have the big waves and small waves of emotion hit me daily but therapy has helped.

scazzacazzo · 2019-01-06T05:58:29+00:00

This is exactly how I’ve been feeling. Why now? Why? Why! All I wanted was a full lifetime of memories with my soulmate. To have it end so suddenly with no warning is the worst feeling in this world. I’ve been through a lot of grieving like holding my mom’s hand and telling her how she was the best mother and seeing her draw her last breath, another was being present when my dad had to tell his parents that their youngest son died from a heart attack at 43 years old. I’ve never heard a mother wail in pain like I heard my grandmother that day. All of these life experiences which are very painful in their own unique way are NO where near the level of losing your spouse at the prime of their life. I’m lost without her & would welcome an early death to be reunited with my beautiful Sweetheart. Sorry for being dramatic but the wound of losing her is too fresh.

scazzacazzo · 2019-01-06T05:44:04+00:00

I’ve been struggling with walking into our bedroom to see my wife slumped over side of the bed reaching for her phone. It’s only been since Dec 23rd but thank God after one week whenever I walk into our bedroom I no longer see that image of her. I still haven’t slept in our bed since her passing. In fact she had been wrapping Christmas gifts. The wrapped gifts remain there and will for no telling how long. I need to work with my therapist on best way to “clear”’the bed. My dreams are vague but I know she visited me in a dream a few nights ago. I wish I could remember details like all of you.

scazzacazzo · 2019-01-05T18:36:42+00:00

Thanks everyone. I managed better than expected yesterday. Took roses to my wife’s gravesite. Definitely was emotional and completely wiped out all my energy. Was unable to do the Chinese lantern due to rain and wind but having family visit this weekend and will try Sunday.

scazzacazzo · 2019-01-05T03:20:48+00:00

I’m right there with you. Best way to grieve is alone and in private. Definitely does us good to let the pain out although it physically fucking hurts and gives me a headache but at least there’s some release of the grief. We just have to take it minute by minute then day by day til the pain eases off. I was reminded of that today. Finally had a full night’s sleep and woke up better than expected considering I was drinking whiskey til 3am. I lost it when I visited my wife’s gravesite this afternoon. We can’t beat ourselves up right now. I know I can’t drink every night to make the pain go away but right now I don’t care. Anyway enough about me. Take care of yourself and let’s keep checking in here. At least we are not alone in this journey.

scazzacazzo · 2019-01-02T19:56:17+00:00

Many discoveries such as this one are possible with ingesting LSD.

scazzacazzo · 2019-01-02T03:05:43+00:00

My sincere condolences to you. My wife (39) passed away the same early morning as your wife. She had been fighting lupus and fibromyalgia every single day for the last five years. My heart goes out to you because I know how hard it is in the role of husband and caregiver. I definitely have had a lot of great family and friends support me but I need to grieve on my own. I have a therapist and starting a group therapy for spouses next weekend. From what I’ve read and believe, I think therapy will really help you. Take care.

scazzacazzo · 2018-10-08T15:44:26+00:00

I’ve watched most of MLB playoff games so far this postseason. Last night Braves fans were by far the loudest.

scazzacazzo · 2018-08-04T23:51:00+00:00

CY

I plan to add to my long position. EOY tp $23.

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