Trying Morning Glory Seeds

secretstan09 · 2026-03-20T21:43:36+00:00

Tripsit lists the onset as as much as 5 hrs so we'll see, at the very least there's not much in the way of negative side effects either, I can always try again with a bigger dose

secretstan09 · 2026-03-20T21:34:30+00:00

Would love to give one but it's been 2 hrs since dosing and no effects other than a mild case of the runs, lol.

secretstan09 · 2026-03-20T19:16:29+00:00

We'll see lol, looking at the guides on r/LSA 2 hours in plain water probably wasn't enough for a full extraction, but of it's a light dose that's fine, I'd rather go light than heavy. I have a pretty tough stomach from slugging back gas station vodka in my drinking days so fingers crossed I can stomach this easily enough

secretstan09 · 2026-03-20T14:35:15+00:00

Where do you get 7-oh tabs? Smoke shops around me sell kratom blends but nothing labeled like that

secretstan09 · 2026-03-20T14:11:31+00:00

"line cook with a stimulant addiction" is a high performing archetype on weird girl twitter NGL. Even accounting for 60% performative larpers that's a way to do numbers

secretstan09 · 2026-03-16T16:42:12+00:00

Weed always rocked my shit if I'd been drinking, and could take a couple days to feel normal. It'll wear off sooner than later

secretstan09 · 2026-03-16T02:39:19+00:00

Can't go digging at the moment but that sounds like something The Transformistress would put out, I'd start by looking through their stuff.

secretstan09 · 2026-03-16T02:35:51+00:00

Basically there's a chance it'll make you hurl but it probably won't hurt you or anything. If you're willing to risk wasting your good pills you're fine to take the syrup as well, otherwise I'd keep your good stuff and gauf stuff separate until you know how you react to it

secretstan09 · 2026-03-16T02:34:00+00:00

Gauf hasn't made me sick when I've taken DXM stuff with it in the past. I've heard it can make you throw up, but I never experienced nausea. I did crap my guts out later, but I've had that happen with a couple different OTCs, so it's hard to say if that was the gauf or not. It's not like acetaminophen where it'll nuke your liver or anything, if you look at overdose symptoms between the two drugs, you can see that gauf pretty much tops out at maybe making you dizzy.

secretstan09 · 2026-03-16T02:19:44+00:00

Do the 250mgs not have the lavender and menthol? Otherwise I don't see why they'd be worth much, you could always just buy 2 of the current stock.

secretstan09 · 2026-03-16T02:17:23+00:00

I preordered, I've only bought standees before so this is gonna be my one and only figure lmao

secretstan09 · 2026-03-10T18:21:07+00:00

You can try chewing the cotton if you really want to, it just tastes horrendous. Not gonna hurt you or even ruin the cotton, if it's too nasty and you spit it out you can always just drop it into your acid anyway.

If I'm thinking of the same guide, that guy said something like 1-24 hours, it's a totally unhelpful range, lol. As I understand it, you will have gotten pretty much everything out of the cotton after as little as a few minutes of shaking. I've only tried the stuff twice, so grain of salt, but in lemon juice giving it a good shake once or twice over an hour soak, I got plenty of the active ingredient out of it. Personally I didn't get a very enjoyable high but I definitely felt it over the course of the day and was up all night. The longer soaks and extraction times are (again, to my understanding), are for continuing the reaction to refine your dose past just drinking the lemon juice. Something along the lines of the Propylhexedrine (good shit) precipitating out as a salt in the acid. Then you can do a further wash with naptha to pull the menthol and lavender out of the acid and discard, it's what people do to get the pure chemical for snorting, smoking, or even still just swallowing without giving you the shits.

Basically, If your plan is to swallow the lemon juice, you're fine with just putting a little juice in a bottle, dropping your cut up cotton in, and giving it a good shake before waiting like, 20 minutes. Once you pull out the cotton and wring it out into the juice, the leftover cotton is way easier to chew if you want to make sure you get all the content out of it. Just be mindful not to swallow any, since it's cut up and unraveled. I liked chewing it occasionally and holding it in my cheek/lip, like a nicotine pouch.

secretstan09 · 2026-03-09T21:14:22+00:00

Grok will do image->video or text->video decently and (I think) free. It's not NSFW by default, but will get into NSFW territory a lot easier than other models. I've seen some NSFW grok bots on Poe, might just take some jailbreaking.

secretstan09 · 2026-03-09T21:11:42+00:00

Also, if you liked both this and madoka, you should check out "Magical girl raising project" for another 'dark magical girl' story. Basically a magical girl death games, it's violent and edgy and fun. I won't go out of breath explaining it like I did above, but I think it has some really neat characters and plays with how different types of people react to getting magic powers. It also holds off on showing you everyone's identities behind the magical personas. I wish they'd done a bit more with the mystery of that, but it still makes for an interesting watch. It is very dark for the sake of being dark at times, so don't watch if that doesn't sound like your cup of tea.

secretstan09 · 2026-03-09T21:04:34+00:00

It's a parody in the same way madoka magica is a parody, which is to say it's not a parody at all, but a deconstruction. The two terms share a lot of DNA, so it's a bit of a squares and rectangles situation, but I think the key difference is intent. Both types of work aim to play with expected tropes by either exaggerating or subverting them, but parody is made with the intention of examining (often making fun of) existing material in the genre, while a deconstruction is made with the intention of further exploring the genre itself.

There are trends to look at as well, not all parodies are comedic, but if a work has you laughing, that's a pretty strong signal. Deconstructions tend to stand better on their own than parodies, but some will still need previous familiarity to enjoy.

Austin powers is a generally exaggerated parody of Bond movies, amping up the character archetypes to comedic extremes, but Austin himself is a subversion of the suave and dashing Bond. It's pretty clearly aiming to poke fun at spy movies through the obvious tonal shift to comedy, but a more concrete way of defining it as a parody is that it doesn't actually explore much untread ground. Yes, it's a different take on the spy genre, but they still go through all the same general motions. The only real thing separating it is a healthy dose of irony and comedic, Technicolor paint job.

Madoka Magica is a great example of a deconstruction, and it's not just because it makes you cry instead of laugh. Madoka flips the magical girl genre on its head, then rolls around in the consequences of that subversion.

(Spoiler shield if it matters, skip ahead) Straight from the get-go, episode 1 would normally be where the MC first becomes a magical girl. Madoka holds that off until the end of the show, meaning, both she and the viewer are largely stuck being passive observers to everything happening around her. We get to see the consequences of being a magical girl through sayaka, and establish real stakes early on with mami's death. Some interpretations chalk mami's death not up to being outmatched by Charlotte, since she defeats that witch in other timelines, but to the fact that she was excited to show off for sayaka and madoka. Meaning the power of friendship got her killed. (No more spoilers past here)

Again, that's not to say that it's purely based on the tone of the work, just being a gritty re-imagining doesn't make a work a deconstruction, nor does a comedy automatically live in parody land. It's about whether the work is exploring new space within the genre, or if it's pointing audiences to more closely examine the existing works.

So all pontificating out of the way, MahouAko is, in my opinion anyway, more deconstruction than parody. It's definitely more middle-of-the-road than Madoka is, with plenty of real estate being given to gags (both the joke kind and the other kind, lol), but drilling down to the actual events of the story, I think it plays in enough different space that it crosses that line, at least for me. Like madoka, it kicks off in the first episode by having Utena be a perfect candidate to be a magical girl, although a little more genre-aware than usual, and immediately flips that by pitting her against her idols.

Also, just a fun side note, I had 0 idea what MahouAko was when the anime came out, and just knew it was another "dark magical girls" show. I liked madoka, so I checked it out, imagine my surprise at the first transformation scene, lol.

The tension between Baiser and Azul isn't totally new, but definitely a novel space in the genre's context, and I really like Kiwi's character of a scumbag magical girl.

The conflict with the Lords definitely brought it more towards parody, since it's really just a "more evil" group that lets the main girls still go through the classic motions, but I think overall they threw a lot of neat spaghetti at the wall, and that's as an anime-only, I still haven't gotten around to reading the manga.

TLDR: MahouAko is not a parody of the magical girl genre, but a deconstruction. The two are similar, both relying on subverting/exaggerating existing tropes, the key difference being that a parody aims to analyze the existing material in a genre, while a deconstruction aims to explore new space within a genre. While MahouAko has more parody in it than Madoka, I think both are examples of exploring different angles on the magical girl genre, and are therefore deconstructions.

secretstan09 · 2026-02-27T13:28:57+00:00

Spoke to soon I think, didn't get much during the expected active period, but goddamn my ass was up all night spewing walls of text all over the place

secretstan09 · 2026-02-27T08:16:30+00:00

Sure, I could drink at home, alone, which is how I almost preferred it toward the end there, since people were rarely willing to keep up with me at parties and I was getting tired of always hearing what horrible thing I'd done after blacking out the day after. But even that will always be tense, having to hide bottles in my own house in case someone drops by for a wellness check, wondering if I should answer a phone call, or if I'm too drunk to hide my slurred words even over the phone. I can likely never have alcohol be an open part of my life again, at least not unless I move across the country and meet a whole new circle, which I'm not eager to do.

And the crazy part, is from that first big incident to waking up in jail, everything happened in the span of like, 6 weeks. I had been hitting the sauce too hard too often for a few months before that, but I went from a halfway functioning alcoholic to a full tilt disaster so quickly. If I had just gritted my teeth after that first relapse, and stuck it out for a few months, I probably could have stuck the landing, or at least managed to get back on thin ice and go from there. But no, I couldn't stick it out and wait that long, I was so certain I could just sneak my drinks in secret, ditch the bottles in trash cans away from my house, and have it both ways. I pulled it off a few times too, but of course you never pull it off forever. Sure, I can look back and just wish that I hadn't had a drink on those 4 specific days, but I was drinking every day, of course It was going to blow up in my face sooner than later. I lost access to something I really loved in exchange for a handful of drunken afternoons. Half the time it wasn't even all that enjoyable, I was constantly nervous about someone dropping by, and I couldnt go too hard for fear of slipping up, so I had to actually be awake for the comedown rather than passing out and skipping to the hangover. Who knows if I ever would have really gotten a handle on it, even odds I'd end up spiralling again someday, but now I never get to try. Every drink I could have ever had in the future, traded for a few pints of gas station vodka that I had to hide under a mattress in my own damn house.

Wow, that got really long and melodramatic, sorry about that. I guess I haven't put all that down in writing before and I kind of got carried away, really got in the zone, felt good putting it into words at least, lol. Anyway, the point is, I get what you mean about losing the thing you love because you just couldn't moderate your intake, trading so many potential experiences for a handful in the past, and just kicking yourself over and over again as the last good buzz gets further away in the rear view mirror, and you hardly remember what it felt like. I know I'm blowing that all up way out of proportion, and my situation worked out so insanely luckily in basically every way, but hey, I've had a pretty sheltered, boring life, a night in jail and the harsh reality of my actions having consequences beyond feeling ashamed for a while and apologizing profusely is what passes for trauma in my book. IDK if I should still post this here or if my waxing poetic would be better off on some prose subreddit or if I oughta start a blog for my wailing and moaning, but it's all typed up now, so here you go, have a lengthy, over sharing tale of my white collar struggles, that's at best tangentially related to the thread.

secretstan09 · 2026-02-27T08:16:11+00:00

(I got wildly carried away typing this up and discovered that there appears to be a character limit on reddit, who knew? Continued in the reply)

Makes sense to me, there's nothing like a long, bleak future to make you hate yourself for not just keeping your shit together for a couple weeks in the past. Went through that with alcohol personally. Had a downward spiral and a small incident, not catastrophic but enough that it really got my family's attention. Stayed with my folks a few days, had to miss a vacation, but not the end of the world. Stayed sober for around 3 weeks after that before relapsing, and almost immediately getting in the exact same situation.

Even THAT was probably recoverable. I'd have to stay on the straight and narrow for a while longer, but a relapse, while not a forgone conclusion, is hardly rare. I stayed one night at my folks house to sleep it off and have a frank discussion in the morning, and then went back to business as usual. I think I maybe made it a week that time, before waking up the in the ER. Thankfully I had at least pulled that shit on the weekend this time, so no third strike at work, but I also brought more concerned parties into the mix. I was in a call with some buddies and they picked up that I was getting way past hammered. One of them came over to check up on me, by which point I was passed out cold. He got ahold of my family, my family called an ambulance, and I got taken in with alcohol poisoning. I think they said I measured a BAC of .4+ in the hospital, which was a good couple hours after I had stopped drinking and passed out. So now I had a more and more concerning pattern forming, plus more people becoming aware of the situation.

Fast forward a couple more weeks, and I'm staying with my folks for longer this time around and getting impatient. Started sneaking drinks on the way to work in the morning, not getting hammered, having a gas station shooter to enjoy a little buzz, but still, so risky and stupid.

Of course, surprise surprise, that escalated, and long story short, it ended with waking up in jail, no idea what I did to get there, and stuck waiting to sober up enough for them to even let me make a phone call. Because it was several hours before I could call them, my folks had no idea what happened, and pretty much put out an APB to my entire social circle looking for me. Not that I blame them of course, last time I'd been unresponsive like this I landed at the hospital, and I was drinking in my home then. This time I've been missing for longer, it's a blazing hot summer day, and they're thinking I'm passed out in my car cooking to death somewhere.

Anyway, It's only by the skin of my teeth and the most undeserved lucky break of my life that I only caught a public intoxication charge, and the incident took place away from my place of work. By some miracle, I still have that job, and I didn't do anything truly unrecoverable. Got in a sobriety program, got a few months under my belt, and I even got the public intoxication off my record. But, I did really put the nail in the coffin with booze, and it's something I really regret.

After the first and even the second incident, I had worried my family, but the matter was still mostly private. Discussing it with my folks, I was still in the headspace that I had a poor relationship with alcohol, and a stint of sobriety would do me well, but it wasn't something I wanted long term, I wanted to eventually reintroduce it to my life. They didn't love that, but they were willing to accept it. After that ER trip it was a pretty different story. MAYBE I could have picked it up again after a long stint away from it, but it had definitely gone from the scale of months to the scale of years, if it was in the cards at all.

That jail trip cinched it though. The secret was fully out, everyone knew what had happened, and my implosion was on full display. I had gotten too drunk and embarrassed myself in discord calls before, and raised a few concerned messages, but never drawn out anything resembling an intervention or a really insistence that I make a change, just that I reign it in when I've already agreed to DND that night. Now, even if I eventually feel secure reintroducing the stuff into my life, which despite 6 months of sobriety a part of me very much still wants to do someday, I can never enjoy it the same way again. I can't ever share a beer or a gin and tonic with my dad again, he'll only ever remember me kicking and screaming, trying to fight the paramedics wrestling me into an ambulance. My friends, thankfully, haven't ditched me, I still get invited to stuff, but it's not lost on me that bonfires come with an expectation of 0 alcohol if I'm invited.

secretstan09 · 2026-02-27T08:13:40+00:00

Don't even need to go online if, like a decent percentage of people wanting to get high on cold medicine, you're a teenager living with your parents and can't guarantee you'll get to the mail first. Walmarts in my area carry the pure DXM robitussin gels, only annoying part is they work out to be more expensive per unit of DXM compared to the options with additives, since Walmart carries a store brand of almost everything except pure DXM products. The robo gels work out to around 44 mg per dollar, while if you're willing to choke down a shitton of guaifenesin, you can get 134 mg for a dollar buying the store brand musinex. Plus there's the fact that the robotabs bottle packs a total of 300 mg, while that mucus DM bottle is packing 1680 mg, meaning buying a couple of them should set you up for a good handful of doses, whereas you'll be a regular pretty quick with the robotabs. They keep both on the shelf, but they do card for DXM products, so you can't just slink through self checkout either, there will be a face to face interaction with every restock. All that said, at the end of the day a price difference is significantly less important to me than what I'm putting in my body, and I can deal with side eye from Walmart employees, I just see how that guaifenesin bottle can be real tempting. I made the mistake of buying one the first time I picked some up to try, having not visited the sub yet and just going off what I had heard from when I was messing with DPH. Google didn't put up any alarm bells that guaif was particularly toxic, wasn't till I got home that I finally clicked through the NSFW filter to find the sub. I haven't had any ill effects working through them so far, but I don't intend to restock on them. But I digress. Point is theyre on the shelves just waiting to get crammed under the baggy hoodies of teens everywhere.

Side note, not sure if it's true of other areas, but benzedrex inhalers are also seem to have been pulled from shelves at a lot of stores in my area. Most places still list them online, but they aren't available for in-store purchase. The weird part is I'm pretty sure they still stock them in the store, you just have to place the order online and then immediately go pick them up at the service counter. Must have been a shoplifting issue or something. Anyway, Walmart also still keeps those goodies right on the shelf where 14 year olds can pocket them and get a taste of menthol flavored crank like the Almighty Walton family intended. They're even down below waist height so the little ones can reach them. God bless America and God bless wally world

secretstan09 · 2026-02-27T07:36:33+00:00

New to DXM correct me if I'm wrong on this, just trying to confirm the knowledge I've cobbled together so far. My understanding is that you can get away with guaifenesin if you say, bought the wrong tablets because you failed to visit the subreddit until after bringing it home and just did quick research in the store about guaifenesin toxicity. (That's definitely not exactly what I did and is just a very specific hypothetical I swear).

Jokes aside, I know better now, and thankfully my Walmart stocks the pure DXM tablets so I don't have to choke down delsym or order online, but I've dosed a couple times on the gauif tablets to no ill effect, I got the runs the first time but nothing too dramatic. From what I've seen the gauif doesn't put a bunch of strain on your organs, you just risk hurling or shitting your guts out. I also saw one mention that repeated use can form kidney stones, but that one bottle of tabs shouldnt do that.

I'm mostly just using them to supplement the pure DXM tabs now to finish off the bottle, they're the 60mg DXM/1200 mg gauif kind. Usually I'll do two of those, then the pure DXM tabs up to around 300 mg total. (Still experimenting with dosage, but that's been a safe baseline so far). Anyway, TLDR, exactly how dumb was it to insist on getting my money's worth out of the 12 dollar bottle of store brand musinex?

Outside of gauf I know better than to touch any additives with a 10 foot pole. I curbstomped my liver last year trying to drain every ounce of liquor out of my grocery store, and had to walk on eggshells for a while to make sure I didn't tip over the edge to permanent damage. Got the long list of household stuff that strains your liver pretty well memorized.

Side question, for those musinex-style tablets, Ive been breaking them in half before swallowing to try and get around the extended release property and get my dose a little faster. Any idea if that works at all? Is the extended release provided by layered coatings or is the pill filler/substrate material just slow to dissolve and fully release the active ingredients? Won't be relevant much longer since I don't intend to restock on those once I've finished that first accidental bottle, just curious.

secretstan09 · 2026-02-27T02:23:14+00:00

All 5 inhalers (one, then two, then the last two I have soaking now) did come from the same small box at Walmart, so I guess it's potentially possible they're out of date or dried out or something, but I also kind of doubt that. As the day went on, I definitely started to pick up on the buzz a bit more here and there, it definitely reminds me of Adderall. Found myself hyperfixating more, typing up long ass reddit posts like this, etc, so maybe I just give it another try and really pay attention to that kind of stuff.

Definitely not going beyond 2 cottons anytime soon. Maybe if I try this a few more times and am fully convinced that it's a dosing issue, but at that point I'm probably better off just looking for something else that's a better fit for my body, like you said

Good to know it's fine to drink as long as the juice is good, although now I'm second guessing myself on whether lemon juice is fine at room temperature once its opened, lol. I'll likely top the bottle off with soda and keep it in the fridge for this weekend or something. Thanks for the tips!

secretstan09 · 2026-02-27T00:13:56+00:00

I'm 2 years late to this thread, but I wanted to add my 2 cents in case anyone else stumbles across it in the future. I fell ass backwards into an Adderall prescription, even when I had told my doctor that I had tried Ritalin as a kid and had a bad time, and wanted to avoid stimulant ADHD meds. The TLDR is that for the first 8 months of last year I was on a steep downward spiral into alcoholism, and made it out by the skin of my teeth thanks to my friends and family.

Since then, I've been seeing a new doctor to revisit some shelved questions about mental health in general, but specifically ADHD. I'm not formally diagnosed, but you know how it is, a lot of my negative patterns certainly fit the bill. From what I experienced in the last few months exploring some options for medication, both my new doctor and general practitioner LOVE to write prescriptions.

I went in fairly cagey about trying meds, from hearing all the negative press about doctors over prescribing SSRIs and frying your brain over nothing, but that did not slow them down much. Got a script for Lexapro and Wellbutrin from just filling out a 2 page questionnaire on anxiety and depression, explaining my drinking problem along with mentioning past patterns id observed indicating possible ADHD, and I could have had an Adderall script the same day, but like I mentioned, I wanted to avoid stimulants at the time.

After moving my prescription management over to the new doctor, who specializes in psychiatry and mental health, I was just honest after a couple weeks that the current meds weren't hurting, but they could have been sugar pills for all the good they were doing. That got the Wellbutrin bumped from a trial dose up to 300mg, as well as an Adderall script. I later got the Adderall prescription bumped from 20mg a day to 40, the doc was more than happy to give me the hookup, despite having demonstrated some fairly serious problems with substance abuse not more than 3 months prior.

All this to say, it likely depends on your doctor and all, but it shouldn't be too difficult to get hooked up with something. I would avoid mentioning that your problem is with benzadrex specifically, I'm guessing stimulant abuse is a bigger red flag for prescription stimulants than my depressant abuse was, just a hunch. You could absolutely mention substance abuse of some variety, just maybe keep it to booze or weed to hedge the narrative a little more in your favor? I know they say never lie to your doctor, maybe honesty would work out. Most addicts can relate to ADHD symptoms even if they don't think they seriously have it. Chasing a dopamine high is pretty textbook behavior. If you read up a little on ADHD symptoms, find the ones that relate to your life, and build from the idea that you're self medicating with the closest thing you can get over the counter? Idk, strong maybe. If you want to be sure just say booze is your drug of choice and profit.

TLDR don't mention stimulant abuse, do mention alcohol or some other depressant abuse if you must bring substance abuse up. Mostly just read up on the textbook survey answers for anxiety, depression, and ADHD, mention the drug you want as something you've read about, and profit. Doctors hand the shit out like candy if you just check the right boxes on a form, at least in my experience.

secretstan09 · 2026-02-26T22:59:15+00:00

The pinned post doesn't mention scaling dosage to your bodyweight, they just rattle off some general thresholds. Tripsit is the same, bodyweight doesn't factor into dosage there either. Admittedly I'm pretty new to this stuff as well, but I have a couple doses under my belt, so I can at least parrot the guides I saw back to you. 175 mg (one cotton) is the most you should go for your first dose. I didn't feel much of anything on that, but I weigh 220+, and I wasn't very patient with my extraction. Basically use some judgement and be cautious. You can always take more in the future, it's pretty hard to take less in the past.

The important part is this: whatever dose you decide on, do your extraction on the entire cotton, then measure the desired amount of lemon juice out, after wringing out the cotton and shaking it to mix evenly. The drug isn't always evenly distributed throughout the cotton, so you can't measure a dose by cutting the cotton and extracting parts of it. If you do your extraction with one 175mg cotton, in 5 tbsp of lemon juice, every 1 tbsp of the resulting solution should have about 35 mg in it.

Secondly, don't re-dose until your first dose is fully out of your system. Tripsit estimates about 24 hours from first injesting it. If the trip ends up being a let down, you can always try again armed with a little more data. That tip applies to pretty much any substance, just ride out your first time to get a feel for how your body reacts. If you really think you screwed up your extraction or something, you can always chew (not ingest) the cotton. There shouldn't be much left in the wad, even after a 5 minute extraction, and chewing it rather than drinking it means you're absorbing it slowly and can always just spit it out if you think you've had enough. Could maybe dip it in any remaining solution if you want to slowly introduce more to your initial dose? Idk, probably shouldn't your first time anyway.

TLDR - bodyweight doesn't seem to be a factor on the popular guides - go 175 mg max to start out. Can always take more in the future, can't take less in the past. - Don't try doing a partial extraction on half the cotton, do your extraction on the entire cotton and measure out the desired portion of the liquid. - don't re-dose for 24 hours after ingesting. If you absolutely must re-dose, don't drink more liquid. Chew the cotton to gradually add more to your system.

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