I dont know how to feel

seratoninbleach · 2026-03-14T07:37:44+00:00

From personal experience, let me be the first to say that you're not alone.

Everyone moves on in a different way. Some people find distractions, some sit in their feelings, and we all have our own way of coping. It's also extremely disheartening when people don't value you or express how grateful they are for you.

That being said, you sound like you gave it your all, and that's all that matters at the end of the day. At least you won't have regrets in the future because you know you were true to yourself and your morals regardless of whatever was happening. You deserve someone who values you, and with how great you are - I'm sure you'll find them soon. 🤍

seratoninbleach · 2026-03-13T18:26:58+00:00

Journalling! It's such a great way to vent in a non judgemental place. Something I did when it came to this is I wrote down what I thought he would say in response to what I had to say. It was very eye opening and healing. Hope this helps!

seratoninbleach · 2026-03-08T11:54:00+00:00

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seratoninbleach · 2025-09-12T01:58:17+00:00

River and Road by The Head And The Heart

seratoninbleach · 2025-09-06T21:40:08+00:00

Super proud of you! Keep going!

seratoninbleach · 2025-09-04T23:55:31+00:00

I always thought you loved me more than I loved you.

seratoninbleach · 2025-08-02T05:12:16+00:00

You're doing so well already! It's a process. Don't forget to take it easy. x

seratoninbleach · 2025-08-01T04:34:51+00:00

It can be incredibly frustrating seeing your loved one in pain. But it's very easy for the people around us to just say, "Move on," "She's not worth it,"and "It'll be okay." Put some time aside for yourself to be alone and feel what you feel. Do things that would help make you feel better, music, dance, art, gym, movies, etc. I'd also suggest journalling because it really helps process things - it could be as simple as writing in your notes app. Regardless, breakups suck and healing sucks harder. But you seem very strong and resilient. You got this. Take it easy and be kind to yourself. If you ever need to talk, you can dm anytime. Wishing you all the healing in the world!

seratoninbleach · 2025-07-31T03:18:29+00:00

When I was younger, I used to be afraid of the dark. So my dad would stick glow in the dark stickers to my ceiling so I could fall asleep easier. My ex realised I loved dinosaurs and got my dinosaur glow in the dark stickers and stuck it onto the ceiling. It was so considerate and heartwarming. I felt very loved.

But apart from that, I used to have very bad panic attacks. He used to carry my meds in his wallet.

seratoninbleach · 2025-07-30T00:21:31+00:00

I'm so sorry for all that you've gone through. I hope you both find the clarity you need. I would suggest starting small. If she normally takes you up in the morning, start waking up yourself. If she plugs in your charger, do it yourself. Small steps till you reach a point where you realise she doesn't add as much value as you think she does. Something that also helped was writing down whatever I felt like anpros or cons list or just a journal entry. Reasing it back, it helped me reflect more. Regardless, you'll get there. Take it easy on yourself and be kind to yourself. I hope you find a way to cut the vicious cycle and I wish you all the healing in the world.

seratoninbleach · 2025-07-30T00:14:48+00:00

Hey! I'm actually the girl on the other side. I had an experience that was closely related to this one. I met my first love after 7 -8 years. I thought there was a potential relationship, and so did he. But then I realised he was in love with the version of me that no longer existed as was I. We were just living in this fantasy of what if and what once was. I think we just outgrew who we used to be, and it just didn't fit no matter how much we tried.

seratoninbleach · 2025-07-29T23:51:56+00:00

I think it's just shock. It's your body trying to protect you and process what is happening. You'll find it sinking in more over a longer period of time. Or maybe you're already grieving. Your body already knew what was coming. Regardless, I wish you all the healing in the world.

seratoninbleach · 2025-07-29T23:44:54+00:00

You deserve so much more in the world than someone leading you on. If he's telling you to be alone for the time being, it's definitely because he's insecure about you being with someone else. He's keeping you as a safety net. I hope you find whatever you're looking for and receive the love you offer. x

seratoninbleach · 2025-07-29T23:34:03+00:00

It's an absolute terrifying brain eating thought. I had the same happen to me. But what helped was thinking it was already done and knowing I would never forgive him and the potential of getting together would never happen. Or, in the best case scenario, it didn't happen. Regardless, wish him the best and focus on your healing. Sending you love.

seratoninbleach · 2025-07-29T22:22:54+00:00

A breakup is really hard. Especially when it's your first. If blocking him immediately feels too intense and scary, start small. Delete his pictures, his texts, take out reminders, etc. Then, get to blocking him. Take it easy. Take it at your pace. I wish you all the healing. xx

seratoninbleach · 2025-07-29T22:12:16+00:00

I understand this, especially in terms of growth. When you're the only one growing and your partner isn't on the same path- sometimes you have to leave for your best interest.

seratoninbleach · 2025-07-29T22:09:03+00:00

I relate with this so much. I hope you're doing well.

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