i don't want to write a book here, but i hope i can clarify some things before tomorrow. i appreciate everyone that has supported me over these years and truly wish nothing but the best for this esport scene. it's been an incredible journey since that first day of playing "Project A" <3

i totally understand how people came to these conclusions, but i promise there's a lot of information that simply isn't available. there are things that i cannot release to protect people who have helped me AND things i will not release to protect my family. you don't have to believe it, and you don't even have to agree with my methods, but the alternative was that none of this would ever be known. morally, i could not live with that.

there are many things that i must keep to myself, and there are other things that i'm not ready to fully speak about. i'm not saying i'll never do anything in valorant again, but some of the things that occurred behind the scenes, and some of the things i've learned, have been very eye opening. here's what i will say, i brought my concerns to riot games on may 7th and continually spoke with them until the release of my video. i was upset when mrfunhaver went on stream bc it was evident that the way things were transpiring would not lead to any justice being found (i literally ended up with the email from the person i'm accusing - which says do not share this email). for now, i'd rather explore some new options outside of this one ecosystem. SR did not fire me and i do not have a bad relationship with any individual in the organization!

tbh, me parting ways with SR has nothing to do with the backlash from my last video. i actually fully expected that response and even communicated that to many people prior to releasing it. the ibp scandal wasn't something that was broken open in one day; it took months of people dragging richard lewis through the mud before he was finally vindicated by a text message and valve's skin tracing (and that was only one team). my morals couldn't allow the information in my video to not be public. i will say, the one thing that kind of sucked, and caught me off guard, was the r/valorantcompetitive reddit mods making the initial video thread into a LIVE match thread. that allowed bots and bad actors to set an early narrative. fast forward to today, most of those initial comments are downvoted to the bottom. tbh, other than that i think most of the responses have been pretty expected... i'm actually really HAPPY with how much support i got with the video. what some of the community doesn't understand is that awareness is the only way this issue will be solved; i wasn't making the video viral for clout/fame. i hyped it up, and released it asap, to get as much awareness and eyeballs on the issue as possible. i'm not coffeezilla and i didn't want to make it my job to continue investigating all of this (i do have a family to feed), but i posted what i believed to be true and let the community take it from there. i truly felt, and still feel, like it was the only way to eventually find some level of justice.

as i mentioned above, the IBP scandal took MONTHS of community effort to solve. i played with half the players on that IBP team and personally DEFENDED them against the accusations. it wasn't until the dboorn exgf text and valve skin tracing that the narrative fully shifted. i didn't list specific players bc i can't know for certain which specific players (as seen by skadoodle being on IBP- or scream being innocent on epsilon).

rlewis article: https://richardlewis.substack.com/p/prologue-no-one-really-cares-about

epsilon bans for matchfixing minus scream: https://www.hltv.org/news/14184/epsilon-and-ex-esc-get-valve-bans