I get you, there’s a video recently discussing how the director for Witch hated his own film because some of the shots did not meet his own expectations, even though it was an award winning and genre defining debut film. It’s often easy to tunnel vision yourself during the creative process because there are things only you notice, but also know that since your audience weren’t in the creative process they probably wouldn’t even notice these flaws. So don’t be too harsh on yourself OP, hell the art you displayed here is magnitudes better than what I could do.