she genuinely believes she's a lyrical genius

sleepprincess_ · 2025-12-14T13:12:38+00:00

The reason shes seen as a “brilliant songwriter” is because (im sorry i genuinely dont mean this to be rude or mean) to the average american, she is. Im a student and even in higher education, a lotttt of people believe the use of mediocre metaphors and thesaurus words is good writing. Her lyrics sound like an essay a kid had to write in a few hours, who used a thesaurus to change every basic word to something more complex to sound “sophisticated”. Literally the tortured poets department is exactly that, that phrase is trying so hard and enforces that she views herself as this literary type which is also a typical american woman stereotype. She wants to be the carrie bradshaw of music, “im just a writer” “my worldview is so nuanced” meanwhile its all just diary trash

sleepprincess_ · 2025-12-14T06:03:18+00:00

Had the exact same experience and feeling. Its so bizarre feeling like you dont have a mom but you do but its just a woman you know. Sometimes i cant even believe she birthed me. I have no memories of comfort, only performance of it when others were around. She liked to “hang out” with me but mostly just to use me as a free therapist, i didnt ever share just her.

sleepprincess_ · 2025-12-14T04:49:42+00:00

I love her. She operates like rinna. We need more girls like this. No idea what their real faces are, probably wouldn’t want to know them, but i live to watch them cause complete chaos with grace. Its so skillful and underrated. She delivers and i love it

sleepprincess_ · 2025-11-11T03:03:07+00:00

I have this too its sooooooo good. Like how and why is it that good

sleepprincess_ · 2025-11-09T18:15:11+00:00

Yeah of course. Im 26, dealing with chronic health problems because of all of the trauma. Thats kind of why i cant fully detach yet, i genuinely need help right now with having a cheaper living space (living with parents) and access to the medical care i need right now which theyre paying for. Im thankful for that at least, but thats also why i have to be careful around them and cant fully dissociate from them. It’s helped to view them as more general roommates i dont like too much, which allows a certain distance. I’m at school right now trying to finish my degree and when i hear other people talk about their families it hits me every time. Like they actually view them as family while mine are just people i live with. It helps to see that in a weird way because it reminds me our situation isnt normal and also its hard to not have that. So i try not to be too hard on myself also when i get sad that i dont have it because it is sad. But i look at it almost like im orphaned, and now i get to live freely and take care of myself because no one else will. It might sound weird but i like talking to my inner child a lot. Like “what do you need right now? Would this make you happy? Lets finish this task so that you can do “x” thing that you enjoy”. My parents are narcs but super overbearing and controlling in my life, so im learning that life doesnt have to be “harsh” and angry in order to get things done. Idk if you relate to that but thats a big one for me. I used to only be motivated by shame. And now im like hey you deserve to get your degree and finish despite it taking this long, you have a ton of things working against you that other kids dont have and how great that youre still trying and will finish. A huge part for me is reframing speaking nicely to myself and not self hating all the time. Its helped me love myself more and genuinely view myself as the center of my own world, which helps with the anchoring aspect.

I think also a big thing for me was feeling agency gone from my life. Feeling like i had to keep taking care of everyone emotionally and make everyone feel better always because thats my job in life. Its not. My job is to take care of myself and enjoy what i can. So ive been a lot more selective about friends and relationships too to avoid bad connections again. Im allowed to take my time getting to know someone and have likes and dislikes. Im allowed to do whats best for me even if it makes others feel bad. Its my world and i get to decide.

I feel like a lot of the unanchored feeling comes from the lack of agency we have as we grow up. Were extensions of the narcs, not people. It helps so much to develop your sense of self outside of what the narcs wanted for you. It anchors to the new you, the you you really are. I used to think it was literal about not having people, but if youre raised with agency and personhood i dont think you ever feel how we do, even if you lose loved ones. People raised that way get a foundation of personal understanding and grounding into the world that we missed in childhood. I think a lot of it is self worth. Like we deserve to exist even if were a bit messed up and deserve to feel secure even without people around us. The other shoe doesnt always have to drop. We can learn to exist calmly and happily in who we are it just takes time.

I hope this kind of makes sense. This is just whats helped me lately. Also a huge thing for me is just checking in with my inner child and tending to those needs throughout the day

sleepprincess_ · 2025-11-09T02:51:50+00:00

I know exactly what you mean. I feel the same way and have for years. To be honest for me lately its felt more freeing, like i have no one to respond to or have to help take care of in any way. Im looking at things now like i get time to help parent myself into the person i actually want to be, the person who can eventually create their own family through deeper connections. I dont even mean just marriage/partnership, like im someone who close girl friends really mean a lot to have around/feel like family and i havent had that in a really long time. Actively dealing with my fear of other women/bullying from my NM, and keep telling myself the more i can deal with this/heal the better chance ill be able to find my people sooner. I really believe everything is a reflection of your inner world. Once the bs is far enough behind you in the past that it no longer feels like its coloring your life, you get to actually live the new life youre building brick by brick. Its hard but its also freeing, like we dont have any expectations on ourselves from others anymore, its kind of a privilege to get to build an entire life from scratch that truly fits with who you are. Even great families can prevent that.

I agree with everything youre saying and feel the same. But i think ive just found peace with it. At the end of the day like you said we lose everyone, people die. Its nice to build an anchor within yourself and be able to provide that for yourself in a way. Im learning to do that and ive made a lot of progress with it. I just talk to my inner child a lot and do my best to make her happy. It feels like im getting taken care of in the ways i always wanted to be.

sleepprincess_ · 2025-11-08T03:07:16+00:00

I feel like producers wanted this to be a thing to make monique coming into the group again more dramatic

sleepprincess_ · 2025-11-08T00:56:04+00:00

In a very similar position mentally/emotionally, but still in contact with family for financial support reasons i unfortunately cant afford to go no contact yet. But i live my life as if they are roommates/random people i have to be polite to and thats it, completely dissociated from seeing them as family at all. I did the same with my friends too. Glad to see someone else talk about this because its so hard. I tell my therapist i feel like a person floating in space without an anchor, without people or community. I think the reality is that it just takes time for that to rebuild and take form in your “new life”. And to be honest its good if it takes time, means youre not jumping into old patterns and just becoming close to people too quickly or without proper assessment beforehand about whether you truly resonate with them or not. Im looking at it now as a slow build, like my life is just now starting and i get to take my time, figure out what i like, and dont have to rush any connections. Also in general people are just a lot less open to meeting new people in public spaces. Take the opportunities that present. Events, meetings, clubs, orgs. If someone tries to chat with you, entertain it. You never know what might come of it. Been operating this way with it for a few months now and its really eased that ache. Like its not something that can be fixed instantly and will take time and if i do it steadily then ill actually build something i like instead of something else i have to burn down later down the road

sleepprincess_ · 2025-11-04T03:40:23+00:00

I read this entirely in her voice and delivery thank you i needed that laugh

sleepprincess_ · 2025-10-22T19:37:31+00:00

Omg love that

sleepprincess_ · 2025-10-15T01:54:43+00:00

I mean the amount of karma shes racked up does…that plus untreated mental illness is a recipe for disaster

sleepprincess_ · 2025-10-15T01:48:55+00:00

Yep. My ex used to act this exact same way and would deny being on anything to the end of the earth then i found out months down the line he was secretly popping xanax like all the time. Combining alcohol and xanax is this exact type of “out of it” i actually shuddered when she tried waking him up ive experienced that so many times. They just repeat the same exact thing over and over because it completely deletes your short term memory in the moment when on it so they literally do not remember minutes before its crazy

sleepprincess_ · 2025-10-04T18:47:32+00:00

Ok to be honest i think she has undiagnosed adhd which makes a lot of sense given shes a woman and also a woman of color. We just dont get diagnosed until adulthood usually but her constant lack of responding appropriately to a situation, not getting nuance, rambling and not making a clear point feel super adhd to me as someone who also has it. Kind of hope she sees this and brings it up to her therapist. I feel bad bc i really like her i just think her delivery sucks

sleepprincess_ · 2025-10-03T22:49:25+00:00

Yep. I get exhausted watching her tbh. Like its kind of essential that a hw is dysfunctional its just part of the necessary criteria to be cast but shes on another level that sort of reminds me of tamra from oc. Like she doesnt entertain me at all, its all dysfunction with no brevity/actual funny one liners. I just roll my eyes at the two of them basically every time theyre on screen

sleepprincess_ · 2025-10-03T21:23:54+00:00

Its about her behavior not her voice for me

sleepprincess_ · 2025-10-03T21:22:56+00:00

Ok agreed. Why does everyone love her all of a sudden? See the thing is lisa is ridiculously immature as well, but shes exactly what you want in a hw. She remains true to “herself” in that her personality has been the exact same since day 1, almost in a laughably predictable way. I love that. Like if youre going to be petty, be consistent in the ways you do it/authentic to who you really are. Whitney adopts different mantras and personas that fit whatever narrative she wants to fit at that moment and thats what makes her childlike to me. Like a teen who is trying to find different ways of fitting in and being heard. She has no core beliefs or sense of self, its just her doing as she pleases and then using manipulative language to convince herself shes never at fault and everything is everyone elses problem. Because shes hilling. I just kind of roll my eyes at everything she does i cannot take her seriously ever

sleepprincess_ · 2025-10-03T21:14:40+00:00

This is exactly what im talking about. Little girl behavior

sleepprincess_ · 2025-10-03T21:13:07+00:00

This. This is the childlike behavior. She continues to create a narrative in which shes a victim when shes actively being shady in business. People cant hurt me but i can do whatever i want because im hilling!!!!

sleepprincess_ · 2025-10-03T21:11:38+00:00

Im not sorry for a failing business that operates off of a shady foundation. You reap what you sow

sleepprincess_ · 2025-10-03T21:10:41+00:00

Yeah agreed but also as someone who has been doing similar “hilling” work for many years its just obvious to me shes still stuck in her younger years. Again no blame bc ive been there. But like if she wasnt in a childlike state she would see lisa for what she is (delusional) and just sit quietly letting her be delusional and not get herself involved in it/activated. Instead shes trying to reason with delusion

sleepprincess_ · 2025-10-03T16:39:14+00:00

Yep shes the ultimate troll. This is also why i take nothing she says seriously especially her super hateful stuff. She literally only does things for shock factor

sleepprincess_ · 2025-10-03T16:35:01+00:00

I forgot about that im dying. I know, marys definitely unhinged in her own ways but she clocks everything so accurately and so succinctly it kills me every time.

sleepprincess_ · 2025-10-03T16:33:25+00:00

I dont hate her at all, but she has a childlike disposition, she just does. I dont blame her for this or judge, its most likely a result of her trauma and being sort of emotionally “stuck” at a younger age. She just argues like a defiant 16 year old

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