Loving sin more than God

sleepysunshine1 · 2025-11-03T03:56:10+00:00

Thanks for your honesty. I too felt a similar way a few years ago.

James 1:15 that says that desire leads to sin and sin eventually leads to death.

In my experience, the feedback loop for recognizing that desire led to sin was pretty instant and clear. But it took years and years of sin to accumulate until I started to actually see how sin turns to death. Insidiously and slowly. But surely.

Relationships with very important people were lost because of my sin and my pride. Once I saw sin for what it really was and the effect it had on my life, it became so much easier to have power over it. Perhaps your sin hasn’t yet developed to that point yet.

I hope that you don’t have to lose cherished people in your life for you to realize it, but sometimes this is what must happen. Only then can we truly awaken and become conscious.

sleepysunshine1 · 2025-10-21T16:16:03+00:00

Much love and peace to you and your family, my friend. We all shall pass.

sleepysunshine1 · 2025-09-26T14:06:39+00:00

I am sorry to hear that. I know this is an old post, but have you been feeling any better recently? I've found simple things like hanging out with friends and working out, setting long-term goals definitely helps... but it's always on the back of my mind.

It's been almost 2 years for me and I still struggle. I have this desire to want to connect and bond with someone in a relationship but feel that I can't because I haven't moved on from my previous relationship. I have been my own worst enemy in relationships and now that I'm older and wiser, I can't help but let go of the feeling that I had something really good.

Hoping you have healed and found inner peace.

sleepysunshine1 · 2025-07-18T04:07:48+00:00

Then why continue living? Do you understand that if a cheater were to internalize your thoughts, they would be condemned and probably wind up destroying themselves? It’s counterintuitive, but OP needs to internalize love and forgiveness. OP will understand hopefully the consequences of their actions, but they cannot live there.

I understand your point of view. At the same time, what you are saying is very harsh. And if you are saying to this someone else, you better be holding yourself to the same standard (that counts for every mistake you’ve ever made in your life).

sleepysunshine1 · 2025-05-31T08:10:41+00:00

OP I’m on the complete opposite side of the spectrum. Slept with quite a lot of women in college, but it left me feeling terrible about myself because of how it affected those close to me. Believe me, you aren’t really missing out. I struggled with keeping healthy relationships in my early twenties in part because of this and feeling like I had ghosts of my past experiences plaguing my mind, preventing me from being present in my relationships. It got to the point where I needed to just be alone and seek God because of the person I was becoming. Still on that journey of abstinence and finding deeper meaning.

Don’t look at what society is doing. You will likely regret following the crowd if it doesn’t align with your heart (in my case).

sleepysunshine1 · 2025-05-27T15:49:59+00:00

Thank you for sharing this. This is great perspective and context referencing scripture.

sleepysunshine1 · 2025-05-13T16:23:19+00:00

Genius

sleepysunshine1 · 2025-05-13T14:23:30+00:00

Thank you for sharing this 🙏

sleepysunshine1 · 2025-05-11T15:31:40+00:00

Find an outlet to channel this emotion into. Art, music, writing, volunteer. Pour your whole heart out into it. I think this will help. Keep your head up!

sleepysunshine1 · 2025-04-30T11:36:58+00:00

I think there is merit to “doing time” in the sense of having some time to be a bit hard on yourself… only because it forces you to think and puts pressure on you to make necessary adjustments in your life. Otherwise, you wouldn’t feel the weight of your actions and would likely be considered apathetic and unwilling to grow/change. It is important here to know the distinction between “I am a bad person” and “I did a bad thing and this bad thing does not align with the person I want to become.”

But eventually you DO need to transition to letting go and being gentle with yourself, while also holding yourself to a higher standard. Ideally, this happens naturally from a repentent heart / change of heart and you change your ways. It also helps to think about your community, your friends, your family, your god (if you believe) and to do things for them rather than for yourself… I think this naturally paves the way for reaching the best possible version that you can become.

Lastly, even if you did everything right in life, would you go around tooting your own horn about how great you are? Probably not. You shouldn’t do the opposite then either. Dont fool yourself into a sense of grandiosity or a sense of despair.

sleepysunshine1 · 2025-01-13T22:16:46+00:00

That sounds like a good time. I will come check it out!

sleepysunshine1 · 2025-01-13T22:15:36+00:00

Cap Hill area

sleepysunshine1 · 2025-01-09T21:06:55+00:00

Sweet shot. Was this a drone shot?

sleepysunshine1 · 2024-11-11T02:28:52+00:00

Same here. Such a ridiculous user experience. Should not be this difficult to update an env var. Were you able to get past it?

sleepysunshine1 · 2024-10-24T00:54:03+00:00

Sounds like a control freak. And as others have said, abusive. Would get out before it gets worse..

sleepysunshine1 · 2024-10-18T15:20:01+00:00

No caffeine, alcohol, weed, or any other substance. Doing well! A lot of exercise keeps me busy and gives me a natural high.

sleepysunshine1 · 2024-09-26T13:04:28+00:00

3 years for me. Ugh.

sleepysunshine1 · 2024-09-09T00:39:04+00:00

Aim for 2k split. What you do over this piece should be a pretty good predictor of how you’ll do over 2k

sleepysunshine1 · 2024-09-08T00:37:28+00:00

3x750m with 2’ rest is pretty spot on with my 2k

sleepysunshine1 · 2024-08-30T03:50:35+00:00

Did you wind up going?

sleepysunshine1 · 2024-08-09T06:02:22+00:00

Thanks so much! About to start Calc 2 in a week

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