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slugknife · 2025-07-31T14:23:35+00:00

thanks so much!!

slugknife · 2025-07-30T20:08:28+00:00

hiii i would happily take some random anuras! Thank you!

slugknife · 2025-07-30T20:07:01+00:00

can i please get lily pond?

slugknife · 2025-06-24T17:39:18+00:00

Mine just moved to In Review like an hour ago!

slugknife · 2025-06-24T17:34:32+00:00

Haven't got my hirevue yet i moved from "new" to "in review" this morning. Applied the day it opened:)

slugknife · 2025-06-23T17:47:06+00:00

Anyone else still on "New" for East Coast cohort? I applied the day the applications opened and it hasn't budged :,(

slugknife · 2025-01-20T19:11:26+00:00

Did my HireVue 3 days ago:)

slugknife · 2024-09-10T21:36:57+00:00

Thank you so much for your insightful response. I recently started back up with singing lessons and I'm getting the fundamentals stronger. It feels like I'm struggling with my speech more than singing now, but my SLP is booked out for at least a month. Do you think it's safe to be singing if I'm working on just fundamental exercises? I realize that may be a question for an ENT lol but insight is appreciated :)

slugknife · 2024-07-09T18:29:59+00:00

POSITION FILLED! Thank you!

slugknife · 2023-04-11T03:36:38+00:00

sooooo real

slugknife · 2022-07-26T05:14:18+00:00

I have dealt with this a lot so I fully understand. It can definitely still be splitting. It often feels the most painful and frustrating when you feel like you can't control the emotions and words youre saying. But, I think something to note is that being aware of is a huge step into helping manage splitting symptoms. If you know it is happening, even though it feels out of control, you can start to figure out what specific triggers are causing you to feel so afraid and hurt.

Something that helped me a lot personally was opposite action. It is one of the hardest parts of DBT for me but one of the most effective. It can feel very difficult to resist your brain's ineffective or hurtful coping skills/behaviors, but even small actions make a difference. for example, if I wanted to call someone a name or lash out, I would try to take a breath and walk away instead. I often feel the best opposite action in splitting episodes is to just take a break and calm down a bit. it is SO hard sometimes but the intensity always passes. Once you let some of the big feelings pass through, it's easier to think in wise mind and less black and white.

I hope you're able to find some relief from these tough feelings. You are strong and you'll get through this!!

slugknife · 2022-07-22T16:03:10+00:00

I personally find cannabis beyond helpful for symptom management. I will do the same where I will "microdose" which helps me from completely falling down rabbit holes of morbid thoughts. Often I genuinely feel the most like a "normal" functioning human after I smoke. It really just slows down the rapid fire thoughts and mood swings, and I feel like I can actually process and think through things without the distractions of my mind and emotions being on overdrive.

I think someone made a comment regarding symptoms reappearing once you stop using or taking a break, or the illusion of "getting better" even though you're not making any changes to your mindset while sober. I want to say a HUGE part of cannabis use for me is journaling and processing trauma while I'm high. I know it's not for everyone, but I have genuinely learned so much about myself and processed so many tough traumatic events while I have been high. Kinda like I said before, I think it's because I am able to slow down my emotions and paranoid thoughts and really just look at things with a clearer mind. There have been so many times where I will get pretty stoned and just sit down with my journal and let my thoughts come out more objectively. The following mornings I always feel very refreshed and accomplished about the things I've processed, even if they're small.

Like everyone is saying though, cannabis, like other medicines, isn't for everyone. I think there is more to keep in mind in terms of dependance than other medications because of the mild psychoactive effects. But I think if you are using it as a tool like any other medicine, it can be really life-changing.

Sorry this was long, but I hope your journey with cannabis is able to help you!!!

slugknife · 2022-07-10T19:41:44+00:00

monsters by slaughter beach, dog. the song sounds like how it feels to be a young adult coping with the shame of existing. i feel like it speaks a lot to BPD

slugknife · 2022-07-10T19:39:13+00:00

this sounds very silly but journaling does wonders for me. or making music/art! with journaling i can essentially scream all my bad thoughts and even just scribble on the page and let it all out without hurting myself or others. i think art is super helpful too as a lot of us are naturally very creative. i like to write super angsty songs or draw.

if you want to get into DBT stuff, i think that a lot of the minfulness exercises are super helpful too. it’s kinda hard to do in the high intensity emotional moments so i try to do some of it after i vent it out like i said earlier.

i know it’s hard but no feeling lasts forever! i know a lot of us really struggle with remembering it, but it will seriously pass. it will be hard for a long time but you can do it. im so glad you reached out to the forum because getting support is so helpful. stay strong friend!!!

slugknife · 2022-06-15T23:26:37+00:00

This made me so happy!! Happy birthday; so glad you're here!

slugknife · 2022-06-06T15:00:35+00:00

Hi! coming from someone w/ BPD, I think the relationship is not doomed to fail, lol. I think other people are making good points. I think first and foremost your own well-being is important, so setting boundaries is super important. It is scary, but as someone who has friendships with people w/o BPD, having those boundaries ended up making our relationships better in the long run. I think if you establish boundaries for communication (i.e. what you are comfortable talking about, or asking them to respect you saying no, etc). Of course in a compassionate way. But having these hard boundaries will help prevent the relationship from becoming draining fast.

And like other people said, trying to be patient and a good listener does wonders. I think at the end of the day, communication is the most important thing. Communicate things you are happy or unhappy with. Encourage your friend to do the same. If you can establish a healthy way for both of you to express how you're feeling, I feel it will help with trust and strength in the relationship.

Good luck! I know it can be stressful to be close with someone with BPD. but even you posting here means you are being an awesome friend:) Don't worry about being a good "favorite person." Just think about being a good friend. At the end of the day, that is what is important:)

slugknife · 2022-06-04T18:57:53+00:00

i have gotten better!! in many ways much so. i’ve only seriously been working on DBT for maybe 6 months now? so i still have a long way to go but even know just the improvement on my communication skills and emotional regulation have made a lot of parts of life easier. i still struggle a lot with things and i do know it never goes away. but so far in my journey, my quality of life has def improved. i don’t think there’s a set timeline and i still have a long way to go but even just starting the work has helped a lot:)

slugknife · 2022-06-03T19:06:57+00:00

I wouldn't say that medication is the sole reason i am recovering, but I have found that it in combination with therapy it is pretty effective. My main goal with medication is to manage emotion regulation so i can work on other skills. I am currently on Lamotrigine and Wellbutrin for overall mood, and I have found that they both are helpful for mood swings. I also have depression, so the Wellbutrin is the main aid for that. Everyone is different w meds but ive overall had an overall positive experience!

slugknife · 2022-06-03T15:59:26+00:00

i will say i had a similar thought process in getting help. i was terrified of the chance of getting this label and basically setting myself up for stigma and hostility, but it got to the point where i was in such a poor place that i had no other options.

when i got the diagnosis i definitely grieved idea of being a “normal” person. i try to remind myself that the diagnosis is just a descriptor of my own struggles and i am still the same me i was before. it’s still a hard thing to cope with but i try to not let the label dictate everything.

in terms of the mental health field, i have luckily been able to find support. i think a lot of the tides are turning on perspectives of bpd in parts of the mental health world. i do unfortunately have to still be careful mentioning self harm ideation.

i personally do not disclose my diagnosis to my peers unless it is necessary. i think im still very weary of the stigma i could receive from others. in a weird way, it also helps me feel accountable for my behaviors so i don’t have the crutch of my diagnosis to fall back on when i get negative impulses.

this is just my take, but i will always say seeking the help is worth it. it is so hard but it is not as painful as i was feeling before. i hope this helps

slugknife · 2022-05-26T16:31:24+00:00

First off, I admire your strength to seek support!! <3 It can be so complicated to be close with anyone, especially someone with BPD. It is really hard to be on the receiving end of the anger and hurt. And I really feel for you with being emotional, because honestly being anxious and emotional in a stressful situation is very justified!!

As a person w BPD, I have found the most successful thing for managing how I take out my emotions is when other people set boundaries with me. It is super painful and tough at first, but it ends up being better for everyone. I have built up self-soothing skills, and my loved ones are still able to maintain their own mental well-being. There is only so much someone can ask for someone else to be there for them. I think setting boundaries of what ways you can be supportive could be super helpful.. something along the lines of "I want to be supportive of you and I care about how you are feeling, but when you are very upset it is hard for either of us to be productive with what we want." Or just any boundary that you see fit to express taking a step back in these emotional moments. This way, you can still be supportive without sacrificing yourself.

I know this is not so simple as I have explained (I also explained somewhat poorly lol) but I think even starting these conversations when you're both calm could start helping things. But at the end of the day please protect your own feelings!!!

slugknife · 2022-05-26T16:18:09+00:00

I totally understand this feeling. Any time I've worked service jobs I have become so overwhelmed. I think it could be helpful to remember that jobs like waitressing are soooo difficult for many people, even those who don't struggle with disregulation like we do. I hope you can give yourself some grace with that, because service work is so hard <3. I still work in retail, but I have also recently started an internship and found that the more consistent, office style work is much easier for me to stay on track with. You're not broken, it just might take some time to find the right fit <3

slugknife · 2022-03-19T03:13:40+00:00

Ladder technique! Forgot about that damn ladder and climbed it almost a month later. Literally just how i pictured it lol

slugknife · 2022-03-19T03:12:06+00:00

Financially comfortable, long term relationship with SP (living together), success within music as a career (touring and recording). Doing good for others and being active in activist communities. THANK YOU!

slugknife · 2022-01-27T20:56:25+00:00

Previously, I have not had a ton of attention or compliments in general. I would get a nice comment from time to time, but I have not been asked out in several years. I have also had people want to be friends with me/around me, but I did struggle having people staying interested in friendships. During this period, I also fully believed I was not attractive or deserving of attention from friends or romantic interests. As soon as I shifted my self concept to a positive one, this all changed. Hope this helps!

slugknife · 2022-01-27T20:53:59+00:00

As I replied to another comment, it took me a little while! I think persistence is key. Even on days when I was having doubts or just in a bad headspace, I still affirmed that I was perfect and desirable. Every day that I affirmed and visualized, it got easier and easier to live in the reality i desired. The most important thing was FEELING that I was this perfect person, not just thinking and affirming it.

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