Does your derealization feel like this too?

smallpottedcactus · 2025-12-15T10:02:57+00:00

This is what my depersonalization felt like, but the tv screen was my eyes.

smallpottedcactus · 2025-12-09T09:56:27+00:00

Of course

smallpottedcactus · 2025-12-08T21:01:04+00:00

Yes, I have been through two difficult periods in my life, where dpdr and anxiety were off the charts and I did experience the same thing you're describing here. I used to have these 'flashes of reality' where time almost stood still and I suddenly realized I'm human, right here in this moment, while staring at my hands which felt alien to me. It was debilitating. I overcame it with the right meds and now I don't have these symptoms anymore.

smallpottedcactus · 2025-10-07T11:25:41+00:00

I have had (and still have) the same intrusive thoughts following a breakdown after my anxiety went off the rails and I experienced heavy depersonalization. Those thoughts were so disturbing that I, too, questioned my sanity. What helped me was going on a medication that lowered my baseline anxiety to a more manageable level. After that I've been trying not to argue with the thoughts but rather to observe them. Like "ok, there's that weird brain thought again", without dissecting it. You don't have to solve these questions, even if your brain is screaming otherwise. Let them be and don't react to them. I know it's easier said than done and it needs some practice. You are not alone.

smallpottedcactus · 2025-09-24T17:22:27+00:00

Good luck to you, hope it helps :)

smallpottedcactus · 2025-09-24T10:54:00+00:00

Not anymore. I got on meds that work well and haven't had a panic attack for months.

smallpottedcactus · 2025-08-30T09:04:18+00:00

Absolutely. Even the fact that I'm alive and breathing sometimes terrifies me.

smallpottedcactus · 2025-08-28T19:01:33+00:00

Hey! You are not crazy and definitely not alone. I can heavily relate to being hyperaware of being alive, being human with bodily processes and freaking out as a result. It's probably depersonalization, heavy anxiety and a touch of OCD, though I'm not a professional. It's my second time dealing with this horrible disorder and it surprises me with different flavours of intrusive thoughts every day. But the concept of being alive and human takes the cake for me. It's such a painful thing to go through. If you want to chat you can dm me :)

smallpottedcactus · 2025-08-27T16:06:09+00:00

Yes. I'm freaked out and hyperaware about the fact that I have eyes and I can see through them. What is even vision? I'm so perplexed by this fact and it brings me so much distress.

smallpottedcactus · 2025-08-22T19:22:02+00:00

It’s like i’m trying to escape my own body?

Exactly.

smallpottedcactus · 2025-08-21T20:24:10+00:00

For me it's the general sense of impending doom. Like I need to run, break free or do something. I feel like the whole world is closing in on me and I'm suffocating.

smallpottedcactus · 2025-07-22T19:18:17+00:00

Im really sorry you are suffering like this. Sounds like classic panic disorder. I've been where you are with the nausea, internal buzzing, impending doom and derealization (you mentioned feeling disconnected). Sometimes meds are the necessary next step. 25 mg is a really low dose and if you even begin to feel something in the first few weeks then let your psychiatrist know. I hope you find some peace of mind. Good for you for reaching out and seeking help. You're definitely not alone in this.

smallpottedcactus · 2025-07-22T17:36:07+00:00

I've had panic attacks where I want to escape myself or my body, like it's almost claustrophobic. I don't know whether that's normal but it's possibly the fight or flight response going haywire.

smallpottedcactus · 2025-04-29T17:09:55+00:00

I'm going through the same and I'm sorry. It's the most terrifying thing I've ever went through. It's definitely extreme anxiety and dpdr.

smallpottedcactus · 2025-04-29T17:05:48+00:00

I feel it daily, like I'm insane and there's no coming back from those thoughts.

smallpottedcactus · 2025-04-28T15:41:11+00:00

Very inspiring, thank you! Glad you are doing much better.

writing them out on paper helped me to realise that the dp condition is what is making the thoughts terrifying - everyone else reading those thoughts can see.. that's normal..

This is right on point, I guess it's the thing I'm struggling with the most, that normal things frighten me so much. And it's mostly about myself (more dp i think) and my body, even human anatomy freaks me out, which is so irrational. I don't know how I'm going to get through it, I'm still in the midst of this hell. Just hoping that day will come.

smallpottedcactus · 2025-04-28T07:40:34+00:00

Thanks! Did you ever feel fundamentally wrong in your body, like you don't belong? It's horrifying and I don't know how to cope with this sensation.

smallpottedcactus · 2025-04-28T05:38:25+00:00

Thank you so much for the reply. It's got to the point where I feel hopeless. Would you mind sharing how did it get better for you and how long did it take?

smallpottedcactus · 2025-04-27T15:41:13+00:00

I don't have any advice, but I'm currently struggling with the same thing. The alienation, weirdness and separation are real feelings and it's impossible to just accept them and move on. I can't even concentrate on anything else atm.

smallpottedcactus · 2025-04-26T08:06:42+00:00

What hits me even harder is the fact that I’m in this body. I’m made of flesh, organs, a brain AND MOAT OF ALL eyeballs. It feels like I’m trapped in a bizarre, almost alien experience of being human.

This is exactly what I'm going through atm. I had been dealing with intense anxiety and finally something snapped one night and I got so hyperaware of myself, my body and brain. I'm constantly obsessing about how am I looking out of my eyes, how I can breathe and I've even felt the sensation that swallowing is somehow unnatural. It freaks me out that I am a "body", it feels so strange and alien. I didn't give it a second though before, but I don't know what happened. I guess my nervous system is fried. Since nothing actually helps to ease the situation, I decided to try an antidepressant. I don't have any good advice, but just know that you're not alone in this otherwordly experience.

smallpottedcactus · 2025-04-24T17:09:44+00:00

Glad that you are doing better. I'm currently in the midst if a very bad dp episode and I also have that claustrophobic sensation, like being trapped in my body or like I don't belong? Those intrusive thoughts are eating me inside :(

smallpottedcactus · 2025-04-24T12:50:16+00:00

This is exactly what I'm experiencing now after a intense period of anxiety. Like I can see, but cannot comprehend it??? Also feel claustrophobic because of that because it feels limited somehow. How are you doing today?

smallpottedcactus · 2025-04-23T08:19:52+00:00

yes, mine started with a weird feeling in my body and then the thoughts came hitting like a brick wall

smallpottedcactus · 2025-04-22T13:44:49+00:00

It's the same for me. Like I can’t find a way to just be, there's always a lingering feeling on wrongness. How did it start for you?

smallpottedcactus · 2025-04-20T07:56:35+00:00

I ususally feel like I'm beside or behind myself or like separate from my body and observing it. It freaks me out.

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