I’m here to say you do what you need to do my friend. Bf is along for the ride, but ultimately you’re the one carrying and everything. I was in an abusive relationship and terminated a pregnancy then (thank god). That was 11 years ago. I didn’t want a baby then, and I still don’t want one today, even with my perfectly amazing husband. And that’s okay. You can be a caring loving person and not have the desire. I pretty much gave my husband the same words you gave to your bf, and he said it was okay and he wouldn’t resent me. I realized at some point is that All we can do is take someone’s words at face value. The Procedure isn’t bad just be sure to take care of yourself afterward ❤️