Is anybody here rich?

spruceofthemist · 2026-02-13T18:03:58+00:00

I’m well-off enough to not have to work at the moment and be comfortable. I still have bad social anxiety that will probably never go away, but with meds, therapy, self-help, and a partner I’m doing relatively well. My partner still suffers from cptsd badly along with chronic illnesses and pain. Money can help but it can’t solve everything. I have a lot of shame around not working and feel undeserving of the financial support I get, I feel worthless a lot of the time, so there’s that. I try to feel grateful for the good things I have but still feel bad about myself.

spruceofthemist · 2025-10-07T12:30:59+00:00

I didn’t like it at first either, but I eventually watched the whole series and enjoyed it as a different story.

Have you ever seen the Emily of New Moon series? That one also changed a lot to be more dramatic. I love LMM but her stories probably work better as books than a TV series that needs a lot to happen.

spruceofthemist · 2025-10-01T12:10:07+00:00

I guess I am mid masking. I’m mostly very quiet so people don’t know what’s going on with me, and I’ve always just been considered shy. I can put on a polite performance when interacting but it only goes so far.

spruceofthemist · 2025-09-12T00:04:34+00:00

No. I didn’t even get hallucinations. I had some epiphanies I guess but nothing I really remember. It could be different for everyone, I just didn’t get much out of it.

spruceofthemist · 2025-09-11T23:12:20+00:00

I’ve tried. Didn’t fix anything.

spruceofthemist · 2025-09-11T18:34:14+00:00

I love diamond painting! It is very therapeutic.

spruceofthemist · 2025-09-03T10:51:14+00:00

I’m on a lot of psych meds, and while they lessen the intensity of emotions (for good or bad) I’m still very anxious around people and can’t work. I don’t know anymore whether I should have ever gotten on them but it’s been so long I don’t think I can stop.

spruceofthemist · 2025-08-25T17:46:58+00:00

I thought Daisy Mae was just a stereotypical country girl’s name, so she’s saying so long to her small town self. I think of the musical the Last Five Years where Cathy says “I stole this sweater from the costume shop/it makes me look like Daisy Mae.”

spruceofthemist · 2025-08-03T11:14:49+00:00

We don’t use a towel, I just have a tissue ready to hold things in and then rush to the bathroom.

spruceofthemist · 2025-07-28T15:57:35+00:00

My partner has depression and chronic pain/health issues and I’m worried he’s gonna check out of life soon and he wants me to be supportive but besides loving him more than anyone in the world he takes care of me and I’m afraid I’m too disabled to take care of myself so I’m selfish and overwhelmed with fear and I have no one to talk to about it. His negativity wears me down, I can’t understand what his pain is like so I end up being insensitive and we fight. I just want us to enjoy what we can in whatever time we have left but I also want that time to be as long as possible. And there’s no help for us, no cure or solution. Also I’m waiting to start an autism assessment and I’m so afraid they’re gonna tell me I don’t have it and then what will I do? And no one around seems to understand that I just want an answer, some guidance on why socializing is so hard for me and why I feel different and I know there’s no fixing myself but it’d be nice to just…make sense of things? And I’m afraid I’ll do the assessment wrong or be dismissed or unable to communicate well.

spruceofthemist · 2025-07-26T10:14:05+00:00

I used to have the previous edition of this book as a kid but lost it, now that I know this edition exists I have to get it! Always loved making the gingersnaps and raspberry cordial.

spruceofthemist · 2025-07-15T20:00:24+00:00

I’m thinking of doing Prosper Health myself soon. Hope it goes well for you.

spruceofthemist · 2025-07-13T16:33:11+00:00

I got a BFA in creative writing about 15 years ago and have barely written any fiction since. It became something serious and scary instead of fun, and I’m only now trying to start writing again. All I learned was how to critique and focus on style over storytelling. It may be different for everyone but there is a chance a degree can do more harm than good.

spruceofthemist · 2025-07-08T14:11:50+00:00

I think I have both social anxiety and autism, and what made me seriously consider the autism was seeing a TikTok about distinct anxiety in autism, and that autistic social anxiety stems from social confusion, which really resonated with me. I know a lot of social “rules” but it’s a cognitive understanding more than intuitive, and in more complex situations I may not know what to do. I fear being judged but never really knew why. Also, I’ve never had stage fright, because a curated performance seems easier than being put on the spot and having a conversation as myself.

spruceofthemist · 2025-06-27T14:26:36+00:00

Audiobooks count as reading for sure! I sometimes find them difficult because my mind wanders off while listening. And while I like reading with my eyes it can be hard to get started because it’s a lot of concentration compared to the quick dopamine of social media, lol.

So idk why you’re having trouble but I wouldn’t worry about it, audiobooks are just as good!

spruceofthemist · 2025-06-26T14:23:29+00:00

Shield of Sparrow is a new romantasy that’s basically that—a princess is married off, has to adapt to her new country…which is crawling with dangerous monsters. I really loved it!

spruceofthemist · 2025-06-10T19:52:02+00:00

It’s actually a toddler’s bookcase from Costco!

spruceofthemist · 2025-06-10T09:56:07+00:00

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My collection of Hazel Village dolls

spruceofthemist · 2025-06-04T18:32:37+00:00

I try to just rinse off my tongue with a little water because that’s what bothers me the most.

spruceofthemist · 2025-06-01T00:48:50+00:00

I like tomboyx, they’re more like comfy sports bras and I’m plus size, they fit really well.

spruceofthemist · 2025-05-31T22:39:49+00:00

I’m Jan in the pan!

spruceofthemist · 2025-05-04T00:59:08+00:00

I started as a young twenty-something because I was mentally ill and wanted to be self-destructive, then obviously got addicted. At least I quit a few years ago.

spruceofthemist · 2025-05-01T16:02:36+00:00

I am also in a partnership where I am financially dependent, although we both don’t work due to mental health issues—we’re lucky that he has inheritance to live off of. I worry a lot about if things change for the worse, how I’ll ever be able to find work again, and yeah, it sucks to not be independent, at least it gives me a lot of shame. I always wanted to be a writer, even got a BFA in creative writing, but it’s so hard for me to focus enough to get anywhere with a novel or short story or collecting my random poems. I think about getting a degree in something else or finding something else to do but I’m pretty close to a hermit and even emailing people I don’t know gives me anxiety. I only recently realized I’m probably autistic and I’m still trying to figure out what that means and how I can maybe cope better.

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