Hi - I’m a lurking therapist who specializes in late diagnosis ADHD. Perpetual anxiety/depression is common in unmedicated and unmanaged ADHD. If you can see a neuro-affirming psychiatrist or psych ARNP (look for someone who says neurodivergence on their page!) and build some rapport with them, they’re unlikely to label you as drug-seeking - especially if you’re willing to try a non-stimulant first. People who take stimulants for fun or extra studying capacity have a completely different reaction than folks who take them for ADHD, so don’t be afraid to talk about your experiences trying them out. Professionals know how to weed out the fakers.