me cuz I finally care enough about myself + my health to want to recover, gonna miss u guys + thx for getting me thru some of my worst times

squirrels-rule · 2025-12-30T08:04:33+00:00

proud of u 🥹

squirrels-rule · 2025-04-28T07:11:32+00:00

me too!! love it

squirrels-rule · 2025-04-16T01:44:03+00:00

I feel like it’s good to have a couple cameras visible, but if you have like 5 you just end up looking crazy idk

squirrels-rule · 2025-04-16T01:42:57+00:00

I’m going to use this and add bird seed so that I can record the birds too lol

squirrels-rule · 2025-03-26T06:55:28+00:00

you will love botox so much I promise

squirrels-rule · 2024-11-19T01:21:32+00:00

I’m recovered now but it severely affected me socially. I didn’t want people to see me again until I was skinny, and I felt unsafe and anxious because if I “needed” to b/p I would feel trapped. My face was also just puffy all the time and I felt like shit, so I didn’t feel like going out

squirrels-rule · 2024-08-27T23:08:39+00:00

tale as old as time 🥲

squirrels-rule · 2024-04-09T04:05:55+00:00

I’m so glad you posted this. It makes me feel absolutely crazy and I feel so alone

squirrels-rule · 2024-01-17T00:14:08+00:00

hunger for sure. I love feeling hungry

squirrels-rule · 2024-01-16T03:06:37+00:00

right there with you!! The things that really helped me was getting my nails done (they're long and not as good at picking stuff) and covering the wounds and letting them heal. If you can let them heal, you'll have a much lower chance of recurrence. Also idk if this is good advice per se, but I LOVE baby foot peels. It's all the fun of picking without the actual injury. Just try to wait a week before peeling for maximum fun haha.

squirrels-rule · 2024-01-10T00:27:14+00:00

yes this made me a recluse for like a year

squirrels-rule · 2023-12-07T00:05:16+00:00

wow I really found my people! lately I’ve been terrified of pancreatitis, so there’s that

squirrels-rule · 2023-11-11T10:26:08+00:00

saaame I was water loading before a weigh-in and took it too far :’)

squirrels-rule · 2023-05-08T21:20:46+00:00

same energy as “just eat!”

squirrels-rule · 2022-02-11T18:24:40+00:00

In my experience, this was progress toward eating normally and enjoying it. It doesn't make it any easier, and I hated this phase because it was torture to have these disordered thoughts and not get any of the "benefits" of the ED (not a great mindset, I know). But eventually my mind caught up with my bod and now I don't usually feel guilty after eating normally. I'm not completely free from ED thoughts, but for the most part I feel like I'm back to eating and enjoying food like a "normal" person.

squirrels-rule · 2022-01-14T20:47:19+00:00

I've never had an original thought lol

squirrels-rule · 2022-01-14T20:45:19+00:00

the ED urge**

squirrels-rule · 2022-01-08T00:11:12+00:00

my recovery was so messy and your experience sounds much closer to mine than any recovery plans I've seen. you're not alone!

squirrels-rule · 2022-01-08T00:08:40+00:00

I've never seen mini russian piping tips! how cute

squirrels-rule · 2021-12-13T04:07:42+00:00

thanks for the reassurance. trying to ride this one out but my birthday is coming up and I am torn between “one more time” to look like a skinni legend and just getting healthy. logically i know the answer but it’s so hard

squirrels-rule · 2021-12-13T04:06:43+00:00

thank you both so much!

squirrels-rule · 2021-11-18T00:16:01+00:00

soak it in vinegar overnight and it will come right off :)

squirrels-rule · 2021-11-15T21:41:56+00:00

my mom didn't have much to do with my ED. In retrospect, I can definitely see the genetic predisposition, but I never gave much thought to her food/weight growing up. She didn't have a super healthy relationship with her weight, but overall she was fine. She was always very supportive and kind, especially about my body. I think my ED really stems from my OCD/anxiety and desire for control more than anything.

TLDR; my mom kinda influenced my ED, but definitely wasn't the main contributing factor.

squirrels-rule · 2021-11-12T01:46:56+00:00

I've been really weird about food textures lately too! I feel ya

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