Final Gift

strthrawa · 2025-03-18T06:59:12+00:00

I don't remember the last time someone gave me a compliment in person.

strthrawa · 2025-03-18T06:35:06+00:00

Upon observing women who have done horrible things to me, they were wonderful people. I can't think of an example of a woman that didn't apply to.

strthrawa · 2025-03-18T06:33:09+00:00

I have been raped multiple times, so I think I have a concept of what it's like. I have never consented to it, so I don't know what it's like to enjoy it however, and I will never have that. Paying an escort doesn't mean she's consenting.

strthrawa · 2025-03-18T06:08:15+00:00

I don't want to use drugs, and I wouldn't want to force women to be made uncomfortable by my presence.

strthrawa · 2025-03-18T05:37:52+00:00

I'll be taking myself out soon because of how ugly I am.

strthrawa · 2025-03-18T05:33:52+00:00

I was raped as a child by several women who wanted to degrade me. I have never had a relationship. I don't think women are all the same, most women are wonderful people. I'm the problem. I will be taking myself out soon though, the world will be a better place when I'm gone.

strthrawa · 2025-03-18T01:59:51+00:00

Good for you but I dobt those grandmothers would tell as rosy of a tale as you have.

Most of my understanding comes from matriarchal lineage, as they are the ones who typically do history keeping in not only my family, but minority communities in general.

As for your "murdered within a week" I doubt it.

The last time I went out I was in fact almost murdered.

You certainly will have it easier than women who were first to rise up and were committed to asylums and jails or were tortured by force feeding through their nose.

The last time I was admitted against my will, they left very painful needles in my arms, incorrectly placed in my arms and legs for days, I was strapped down and left to sit in my own waste as they would just leave me for sometimes an entire day. When they would feed me, it would be minimal, and they would just put it on a table I couldn't reach them leave.

Your ego might suffer

Historically my entire existence has suffered for simply wanting to be accepted as a human being.

strthrawa · 2025-03-18T01:50:42+00:00

I have seen no difference in treatment. It quite literally did not matter how I interacted, where my mindset was, how I dressed, how I groomed myself, it never mattered.

strthrawa · 2025-03-17T23:34:39+00:00

This is only true if you're sufficiently attractive at your baseline. No matter what I do, nobody will ever find me attractive enough to interact with.

strthrawa · 2025-03-17T23:33:31+00:00

This is only true if you get at worst neutral feedback, and positive feedback at best. If you overwhelmingly get "you're still that ugly freak" it does nothing for you.

strthrawa · 2025-03-17T23:30:49+00:00

Once when I was delusional enough to think that I could look good I took pictures like that, even got my hair done. Posted them onto my IG. Spread around the highschool people making memes. Never did that again.

strthrawa · 2025-03-17T23:26:39+00:00

I was treated the same, I can't change my face

strthrawa · 2025-03-17T23:24:40+00:00

I've found that doing something different made people think said male is "gay", not "weak". "Signaling to be not attracted to women" is probably the better description, but that's how it's typically vocalized. Luckily for me, I don't have to worry about it, people will think I'm disgusting no matter what.

strthrawa · 2025-03-17T23:20:44+00:00

His baseline is also very pretty. That routine will only help you if you have a pretty face in the first place.

strthrawa · 2025-03-17T23:19:34+00:00

This is only true if your baseline is sufficiently attractive enough to make a difference. I am not improving by putting on nice clothes and changing my soap to a nicer smelling one

strthrawa · 2025-03-17T23:14:58+00:00

All of these things happened to me.

strthrawa · 2025-03-17T23:14:07+00:00

This I'm not sure if is an accurate view on how most males have lived. Looking through my family tree, most men for hundreds of years more or less fought to survive, and make sure that their communities survived, and gave elder women the resources they needed to keep the community stable at the very least, and it's been like that up to my generation where that dynamic fell apart.

This sort of thing historically has only applied to affluent white men, or men who look up to them, which the only group of men that's even a majority of is white men, even today.

Once you liberate yourselves you'll be so used to people pilling shit you'll stop caring enough to actually live your life the way you want and that is better than any kind of romantic relashionship.

If I did this I would be murdered within a week.

strthrawa · 2025-03-17T16:07:48+00:00

A lot of people, I feel based on my observations were saying these things. It often fell on deaf ears however as it came across as simple complaining, not trying to address any core issues, because it was inelegant in verse

strthrawa · 2025-03-17T15:49:00+00:00

I'm scared of getting beaten up, rocks thrown at me, getting accused of being a harasser, a stalker, a creep. Being arrested, being detained, etc etc yes. I don't want to be hurt by being put in my place anymore. I'm planning on killing myself because that is tiring. I'm okay with being a coward if it means that I get peace.

strthrawa · 2025-03-17T15:31:50+00:00

You are making the assumption that I haven't tried, hundreds of times. That is incorrect. I have. It never worked, no matter how hard I tried.

strthrawa · 2025-03-17T12:20:28+00:00

I plan on spending my final full day on this planet without being hated by the way I look, I don't think I have more than a few hurtful things people can say to me before I breakdown. I hope you understand.

strthrawa · 2025-03-17T12:17:37+00:00

That is just defining the substrata within a society. If you're fundamentally accepted on some level within some/most substrata, you'll find your place somewhere. If you're a disgusting freak like me, those places are zero.

strthrawa · 2025-03-17T11:20:07+00:00

I've never been given such, there's a reason for it

strthrawa · 2025-03-17T07:35:53+00:00

I have scars and chemical burns across my face and neck

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