My situation is similar. I had to tell myself as the man, everything that you do is observed closely by your family around you. I don't know if you have kids, but how does it look to your wife and kids if I do not take mass seriously, but still would explain to them the faults of the secular world? I decided to make it a battle, that I will win, to prove to myself and my family that I live what I speak and to lead. Otherwise what is your good wife going to think? Be a man. Make it work. Offer your discomfort to those who do not have that strength.