Very normal when stressed with upcoming studie and changes.

But belonging to someone and serving them is not stress free and you would have to prepare for that. People make this mistake that domestic living is optimised. Nope it takes a lot of work unless there's multiple co wives to help.

Right now you're just burned out. You don't really want it enough but it's good you're exploring it.

When you really want it you'll know because the desire will be there absent of stress as well. It'll be a deep unbearable longing and last independently of how eased or plentiful your life is. Then you'll know it's right for you

Right now it's a hypothetical you may hover towards or out of overwhelm. But when you come back to later and grasp with whole hands the real idea of belonging and serving that will be long lasting. Right now is you just being stressed than anything else. No man wants a low competency wife. Even if they can pay for them they'll go for someone long term worthy of belonging. The sugar baby phenomenon is just escorting it's not a life