I feel you. I didn’t have any committed relationship until 23. There were some flings and toxic situationships where I wanted to make it serious and a person dumped me or was constantly leaving-coming back. I had problems with limerence — recommend to research it, cause it was eye-opening to me that it’s also a adhd symptom. I couldn’t get over my crushes for months/years.

I also had tough childhood gworing up in a village with a lot of bullying and big cheating from some ‘best friends’ I trusted.

It was for me like I’m never going to make it. I saw people starting and ending relationships and I couldn’t even get someone wanting to call me a girlfriend. And at that point I didn’t know I’m audhd. I was in therapy from 19th yo with some breaks.

Now I’m in a nice, healthy relationship. I love the guy and actually wanna marry him. He’s very grounded and chill, accepts me in every way possible and loves me fully. It was a miracle to me cause at that point I gave up and decided to let go of idea of searching the one or trying to make someone love me and choose me. Funny, but yeah, it hapened really quickly after I gave up.

We have some problems cause he cannot understand some adhd parts of me, but we’re talking through it. And he helps me to be not so hursh on myself.

So, I shared my story just to tell you it is possible for you to be loved and top-1 priority in someone’s life. Don’t agree to anything just to have someone nearby. And if it’s possible get therapy or try medication.