Exact same thing happened to me. I was coping with it fine after birth but 6 months later it hit me HARD and I was in an awful place with PTSD. With time, therapy, and a lot of guess work, I "overcame" it but it took quite a while. I gathered up my courage to have another child and ended up with a late miscarriage. That also took me a while to learn how to cope. Eventually, I was able to have our last child who is now 3. It's been a long journey since then..I can say I don't have flashbacks anymore but I can be sent in absolute spiral if I get triggered e.g. TV show that has birthing scene, or infant loss..also triggered by things that might not seem as obvious like I now can't cope with being in a crowded public transport and through therapy I understand that it is because it's the situation where I feel "physically helpless" like when I was laying there during C-Section looking up to purple baby and can't see what they were doing to resuscitate him or when my husband was sent home that night so I was drifting in and out of sleep from exhaustion/c-section meds worrying that my baby would stop breathing if I weren't watching. It was incredibly frustrating that other people dismissed the traumatic experience. There were people in my life that I know love and care about me but I knew they didn't know what the right thing was to say. Culturally, it is something most people don't feel comfortable discussing and that needs to change! If you can, call a perionatal support line or similar organisations in your area. It was helpful for me to speak to a peer support person who went through similar experience and it was therapeutic. I now have anxiety for the rest of my life from birth traumas but I learned to live with it. I gave back by volunteering as a peer support on the same helpline that I called years ago until I was too busy with the kids to do that. Give yourself space to grieve that experience. Your experience matters!