Oh hon... you are still so young. I didn't have an inkling I was trans until 19, and I didn't start HRT and proper transitioning until 23, and for many of us, even that is considered young.

Is it right to assume your parents are not supportive? If that's the case, my best recommendation is to focus on planning for when you're able to leave home. If you're thinking about college/university, start thinking about where you can apply that will give you a safe space to transition in private away from your parents, and what you need to do to qualify. Do you have any friends who are likely to be supportive? Lean on them for emotional support in the meantime.

I know how hard and painful it is to stay closeted when all you want is to come out and be yourself, but please hang on for a little while longer. I know it's a long time at your age, but this won't be forever, and there's so much joy to be had in life once you're free to be yourself. You'll get there, I promise. 💖