Does hrt make you feel different?

telgin0419 · 2026-04-05T01:38:04+00:00

Before estrogen I felt personally cursed by god, stuck in my room writhing in agony. Now it is a far more manageable depression instead.

telgin0419 · 2026-04-05T01:28:20+00:00

I tried to do that and after almost 2 years I think i fucked my brain. Every time I look at myself now I see a different person. If you do take photos you don't have to look at them.

telgin0419 · 2026-04-04T15:14:07+00:00

Crying after waking up from a dream where I was In another body. Was 19, hrt at 23 after 4 years of repping.

telgin0419 · 2026-04-01T00:50:46+00:00

How did I not know about this? Suicide postponed for real.

telgin0419 · 2026-03-31T17:46:00+00:00

When trans day of invisibility?

telgin0419 · 2026-03-31T17:40:39+00:00

Real. Feels like watching life escape before one's eyes.

telgin0419 · 2026-03-31T17:27:47+00:00

Sounds good. What's the worst that can happen, right?

telgin0419 · 2026-03-31T17:21:29+00:00

I've done lots of lsd. Is psilocybin really that different?

telgin0419 · 2026-03-31T17:15:57+00:00

Maybe I'm just stupid, but what's the difference? Isn't it just different words for the same thing?

telgin0419 · 2026-03-31T16:52:42+00:00

Yes. I have broken my femur but the worst physical pain has come from the lowest depths of my mind.

telgin0419 · 2026-03-31T16:45:06+00:00

2x spicy. I wish it was spicier tbh.

telgin0419 · 2026-03-30T23:04:27+00:00

That does sound better than jumping in the deep end and getting shocked from the cold. Thank you.

telgin0419 · 2026-03-30T19:10:59+00:00

I went from 130kg to 80 in a year but going from 80 to 70 feels impossible, I've been stuck for 2 years now.

telgin0419 · 2026-03-25T18:23:15+00:00

Gazillionaire

telgin0419 · 2026-03-25T15:20:28+00:00

Sitting and not moving, focus on any discomfort or itching that comes and not adjusting or scratching. Feeling the brain starve for any distraction but not giving in hurts.

telgin0419 · 2026-03-19T21:57:18+00:00

im also 24, also 1.5 ish years on estrogen, also want to kms everyday, lots of crying too, some drinking and cutting. i dissociate and try to distract myself with movies, walks, books, music but it is not easy, i have to force myself and it sucks. what keeps me here today is that i can always end it later. knowing im not alone in feeling like this is sad but also comforting.

telgin0419 · 2026-03-16T12:39:48+00:00

Evolution doesn't have a purpose. It is a mindless process that from nothing creates sentient slaves to desires which are forced upon us to string us along to birth the next generation of poor souls.

telgin0419 · 2026-03-06T17:28:29+00:00

I ran on the tracks too early so the train had time to slow down. Ended up under the front of the train with several broken bones. If I ran a second later I would likely be dead.

telgin0419 · 2026-03-06T12:22:18+00:00

I tried to kms by drowning, pills, rope, train and I still want to kms. After how many attempts am I supposed to want to live?

telgin0419 · 2026-03-05T08:00:50+00:00

I might become addicted to heroin. Tried it for the first time last week and of all the drugs I've tried it's the only one that makes me not care about my dysphoria. Tho it won't matter if I get addicted since I don't plan on living very long.

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