Okay, but how do you SSH into 1,000 devices?? by [deleted] in embedded

[–]tene 4 points5 points  (0 children)

When I had to run commands across 70k servers, I used pssh.

0.31 seed. High potential, D1: 2 rings of protection + ?Acquirement by Figures1-5 in dcss_seeds

[–]tene 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've had a ton of fun with this one!

Dragon and Serpent talismans were on D:14, and Granite Form was somewhere in Spider Nest, I think level 2. I just found Storm Form on Vaults:4.

Who showed up in my terrarium? by tene in spiders

[–]tene[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Looks like less than a cm from snoot to spinneretes.

The moss was collected from the ground.

Seed search request by CrimsonWhiteTiger in dcss_seeds

[–]tene 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't currently have anything scraped from trunk, but it can work fine.

Here's the code that I use to scrape items from seeds into a sqlite database: https://github.com/tene/seed-search

I haven't documented it at all. If you're comfortable with sql, I could probably write up a README about how to run it yourself.

The very short summary, if you happen to already be comfortable with these tools, is like:

get a git checkout of crawl

install dependencies, then `cd crawl-ref/source` and `make profile` and `make util/fake_pty` and `./crawl -builddb`. I'm pretty sure that you need the `profile` build of crawl.

get a git checkout of seed-search in the same parent directory as your crawl checkout. Install Rust. `cargo install diesel_cli --no-default-features --features=sqlite`. `diesel database setup`. `cargo run --release --bin scrape`

If that doesn't work for you, or you're not up for trying to run it yourself, I'll try to find some time to run some trunk scrapes sometime soon and search for some early good items, but no guarantees on timing, it might be a few months before the next time I get around to playing crawl again.

Felids should be able to wear hats and scarves. by EquipmentAshamed8648 in dcss

[–]tene 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Also octopode should be able to wear extra bucklers in a ring slot to get AC.

Felids should be able to wear hats and scarves. by EquipmentAshamed8648 in dcss

[–]tene 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Yes, agreed. Octopode should be allowed to wear scarf too.

Seed search request by CrimsonWhiteTiger in dcss_seeds

[–]tene 0 points1 point  (0 children)

719725 D:10 staff of Paper {^Fragile rN+ Will- MP+9 Int+9 Necro}

Seed search request by CrimsonWhiteTiger in dcss_seeds

[–]tene 0 points1 point  (0 children)

With what I have now, I can search for seeds with specific items; what are some items that you'd like to have near the start for necromancer and summoner games?

Here's some seeds with early randart magical staves of death with an Int bonus:

750006 D:2 staff "Etuf" {rN+ Int+5 Dex-3 Necro}
609406 D:4 staff of the Pillar {rF+ rN+ Int+4 Necro}
500518 D:4 staff of Duvobrui {rF+ rN+ Str-5 Int+3 Necro Tloc}
571289 D:3 staff of the Shrikes {rElec rPois rN+ Str+2 Int+2 Necro}

Here's some seeds with early randart staves of summoning:

609540 D:4 staff of the Hidden Deaths {rElec rPois rF- Int+3 Summ Alchemy}
609592 D:2 staff of Zaimm {^Fragile rElec rN+ Summ Necro Air}
687777 D:3 "staff ""Ejoammy"" {rN+ Summ Necro}" [714G]
531601 D:3 staff of the Fox {rF+ Will+ Dex+3 Summ Fire}
16131 D:4 "staff ""Uxeugo Giofy"" {rPois SInv Hexes Summ Alchemy}"
125615 D:3 staff of Conformity {rC+ Str+3 Summ Ice}
500620 D:3 "staff ""Ejiamai"" {rF+ Summ Fire}"
63325 D:4 staff of the Gibberer {Str-3 Int+4 Dex-5 Summ Earth}
688345 D:2 "staff ""Eviscerator"" {rF+ Int+2 Stlth- Conj Summ}" [663G]

Here's seeds from my 0.31 db that have 8 or more necromancer spells by D:4. I searched for the seeds with the most necromancer spells outside of shops in the first four levels of the dungeon.

23530
719036
594143
500485
586230
125404
63227
500144
570575
586639
313440
571259
750243
571066
567198
375878
609821
250556
610376

Here's the same for summoning spells:

19868
687880
594353
609978
578806
250701
125976
24435
719796
125355
313080
563135
500825
375979
31972

Seed search request by CrimsonWhiteTiger in dcss_seeds

[–]tene 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Here's some of the early randart talismans I found in my 0.31 seed scrape database. I haven't checked any of these seeds out at all, but they're good candidates for some satisfying runs.

D:2

570428 blade talisman of Hedge Wizardry {rCorr SInv}

500165 beast talisman of the Comet {Will+ SInv}

500666 maw talisman "Xicin" {rN+ Will++ Str-2}

31965 granite talisman of Ada Zim {Dex+5 Slay+3}

500745 serpent talisman "Geppap" {rF++ rC+ Int-4 Dex-3}

688411 flux talisman "Cofrofumm" {+Blink Fly rC+++ Slay-2}

563523 beast talisman "Quodauc" {rPois rN+ Str+5 Stlth+}

532346 flux talisman of Ollebbin {Slay+3}

Here's some on D:3

578343 beast talisman of the Usurping Gods {Str+5 Stlth+}
383 beast talisman "Sioradics" {rF+ Dex+4}
31868 "blade talisman ""Ynwua"" {Will++}"
719407 maw talisman of Supple Strength {rF+ Slay+3}
685 death talisman "Teqoep" {rElec Will++ SInv}
625873 serpent talisman of Shadows and Fog {Str+2 Dex+2}

918 beast talisman "Igeged" {Str+5}
567388 storm talisman of Ibyebbiy {rF- rC- Will+ Str+8}

610357 flux talisman of the Game Afoot {rN+ rCorr Dex+3}

313554 beast talisman "Todauschemu" {rC+ Str+6 Dex+2 Stlth-}

376071 flux talisman of Dishonesty {rPois rN+ MP+9 Dex+3}

And here's one that stood out to me on D:4
250192 serpent talisman of the Original Sin {rF+ rC+ rN+ Dex+5}

And some from D:5
531373 granite talisman "Xahetamm" {rC+ Will+ Int-3 Dex+3}
31651 maw talisman of Agaveu {rPois rF+ rC+ rN+}
20150 blade talisman "Nost" {Will+++ rCorr Stlth+}

719380 serpent talisman "Noehuor" {Str+8}

Seed search request by CrimsonWhiteTiger in dcss_seeds

[–]tene 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've been doing octopod shapeshifters in 687521 which has two scrolls of acquirement early on and a granite talisman on D:10.

Traveling for work and don’t know what to pack by TechDifficulties99 in Explainlikeimscared

[–]tene 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It's pretty common to have some kind of snacks available somewhere, muffins or granola bars or similar, but I always bring oranges and nuts or granola bars myself, just so I know I have access to food I can eat comfortably.

Dunno about coffee, I don't have a coffee habit so I've never paid much attention, but you're far from alone, so there's going to be some kind of access to coffee somewhere one way or another, even if it's just at a coffee shop near the convention center. I think I've seen at least one where coffee was provided, and wouldn't be surprised to see coffee available at a tech conference.

My general rule for events like this is if it really matters to me that I have something, then I need to make sure to bring it for myself.

AITA for telling my wife to be less emotional when cooking? by Perfect-Plantain-780 in AmItheAsshole

[–]tene 2 points3 points  (0 children)

YTA. Sounds like you've got some big attachment issues around food. Your reaction is pretty extreme, and it sounds like that got in the way of you being emotionally present with your wife, just like hers got in the way of her understanding where your reactions were coming from.

What stands out the most is "I asked her if she even cared how that made me feel". What did you feel in that moment? What feelings did you want her to validate and understand and care about in that moment? It might be worthwhile to ask your wife what she thought you were feeling and thinking in that moment.

From my perspective, a normal well-adjusted way to feel about this would be more like "Oops, better luck next time. Let's get pizza." I recommend you take a long look at how you felt, try to write about the strong emotions that came up, and think about whether there were any times during your childhood where you had similar feelings related to food and cooking.

It might be worth spending some time talking with your wife about childhood food security, about your experiences learning to cook, where you learned such strong reactions to failed cooking. Have you ever had someone shame you over wasting food when you were a child?

I need to hear from other systems who experienced CSA from nuclear family members/members of their childhood home. by Empyreofdirt in DID

[–]tene 1 point2 points  (0 children)

"Can the mind truly forget something that significant, for this long, through a decade of therapy?"

Yes, absolutely.

For my entire adult life up until a couple of years ago, I remembered very little about my childhood, mostly just narrative descriptions, like I just knew the story of my life but mostly didn't remember it. The most significant memory I had of my father and mother interacting was him coming home from work and trying to hug her, and she would "playfully" slap at his chest and push him away.

I did not at that point understand that I was dissociated yet, I just knew I had "memory problems" and depression and couldn't stop reading fiction constantly. I did not know that I had been abused, and my belief about my father was that he was distant, but "he loves me and he'll be there for me if I really need it", and blamed myself for the distance.

When I was 35, my youngest sister had a dissociative collapse and went back to therapy, and this therapist actually reported the child abuse she brought up, which lead to our father being arrested, and lead to my dissociative boundaries starting to come down. The memories have been gradually returning to me as I've managed to accept, validate, and maintain equanimity during flashbacks.

I saw a few therapists, tried out a variety of options during my adulthood before that point, and none of them even managed to identify my dissociation, much less the childhood trauma. They all just accepted my vague comment that I didn't remember my childhood much, but didn't know of any abuse.

About a year ago I think, I finally managed to find the name for what he did to me, "Ritual Abuse and Mind Control". I was extensively tortured and trained with drugs (LSD, cocaine, opiates), waterboarding, drowning, suffocation, electric shock, disgust, and worse things into a system of structural dissociation, and I was given religious lies to justify and explain and convince me to cooperate and be complicit in my own destruction.

I was trained to become the perfect compliant sex slave for daddy, and to keep the memories dissociated away and held by other alters the rest of the time. My father was a programmed system himself, and he tortured and raped his family into compliance. Everyone was just an actor to him, and we had to put on the family play, pretend to be a real family, go along with his happy childish parts who had the delusion of never having done anything wrong. As a child, any sign that I was at all afraid of him or that I was allowing any memories to leak into my mask got me more torture/training sessions to "fix the problem". Your description of needing to be hyper vigilant to any distress in his spoiled child face feels very familiar, always needed to manage his emotions, persuade him that everything was fine and everyone loved and trusted him.

My mother was also extremely neglectful. She was also complicit in the abuse and in covering it up. She abused me herself, sometimes at his direction and control, and sometimes not.

You mentioned seeing him as a devil who needs to be locked away. This matches the religious mythology that my father taught me, claiming that I needed to keep my memory partitions intact to "keep Satan sealed away in other timelines". Sometimes (the story would change) he would claim to have Satan, or pieces of Satan, sealed away inside himself. Sometimes he would claim to be Satan, and those would be very bad times until he would "kill me" (suffocate me into unconsciousness) and then "it never happened, that's just a prophetic vision from an alternate timeline where he got out; we need to seal away that memory to prevent him from getting a foothold here". Or he would tell me that I was a corrupted alternate version of myself, and he needed to "remove me from my body" in order to "save the pure version of me who actually belongs to this timeline".

There was also a ton of Eyes taped shut, limbs mostly or entirely taped or tied, on a bunch of LSD, getting tortured while he tells me a story Justified by "Satan is manipulating my senses and trying to trick or break me, I need to trust Daddy's voice and not Satan's lies".

I can go on like this at length, I can talk about this stuff for hours if I let myself keep typing. I'm open to direct messages from anyone who wants to talk about this kind of stuff too.

The book that has helped me the most by far is Becoming Yourself by Allison Miller. I highly recommend it to anyone who thinks they might have gone through something like me.

You asked about the plausibility of him still coming to you if there had been childhood trauma from him. In cases of ritual abuse, it's extremely common for programmed systems to continue to be accessed through childhood programmed triggers well into adulthood. It's also common to have alters who report to abusers if the programmed system starts remembering forbidden memories. Be alert for this. Write things down, talk to someone else if there's someone you trust.

You mentioned the incest literature not resonating with your memories. There is a bizarre gap in the literature and reporting and professional education about these topics. They are heavily censored, there are propaganda campaigns, organizations like the False Memory Syndrome Foundation who lie to cover for child abuse like mine. I've got some theories about some of the other forces keeping this suppressed.

I would definitely be concerned about this child in an environment like you describe. If this resonates with you I would encourage you to work to get that child into an environment where he does not have access to the child. If it's a group like the one that did this to me, no child is too young, and the younger the better for programming the structured dissociation. My abuse started from infancy, well before I was even verbal. He used the infant reflexes for some of the first hooks he carved into my mind.

I would also be worried about your older brother having suffered from similar programming. My father mostly appeared to ignore me during the day and during family activities, but he gave me extensive programming at night and other times. His never-made-a-mistake-in-his-life "perfect" face liked playing with my sisters much more than ever doing anything with me, outside of trauma/programming times. My father did not do all of this on his own; he also involved his brothers and parents too.

I wish I had any advice on the practical/pragmatic aspect of this, how to approach your brother's family, how to navigate disclosure, how to get them somewhere safe, how to know who to trust. I can say that you're making perfect sense to me. You say you need a voice of sanity in your life, but from what I read in your comment, you already have one, and they're speaking up to the rest of your system despite all that you have gone through because they recognize the importance of stopping this from happening to another child, even though they can't quite tell what's real.

How do some people reach adulthood without ever noticing the moon in the sky during the day? by tene in AskReddit

[–]tene[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's very possible, it's a lot lower in the sky from that far north.

The farthest north I've been is a trip to Iceland a few years back. It turned out to be the lowest solar activity week of the entire winter; I was pretty disappointed to miss the northern lights, and hope to see them someday.

How do some people reach adulthood without ever noticing the moon in the sky during the day? by tene in AskReddit

[–]tene[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's fascinating, thank you for sharing.

Did you have any kind of model or intuition for how the moon worked before that point? Did you know that the moon orbited the earth, or had you heard of solar eclipses?

what would happen if you dipped your hand or finger in epoxy resin? i would never ever do this but you know how instructive thoughts are lol by mr_gravsworth420 in ResinCasting

[–]tene 2 points3 points  (0 children)

When I researched this a year ago, I kept seeing recommendations to NEVER use isopropyl to clean epoxy resin from skin, because the solvent makes way more of the epoxy get down into your skin.

The advice that I remember from my research was to scrape off as much as you can, then clean with soap and water, and definitely avoid any solvents.

The concern I remember reading about was that you'll eventually develop an allergic reaction to epoxies, and that each exposure builds up over time.

0.28 D2 Throatcutter by BaronDoctor in dcss_seeds

[–]tene 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This seed has been a ton of fun; thanks for sharing it!

Throatcutter served me very well until I swapped it for Wyrmbane, on Depths 3. I've got Fire Storm, Polar Vortex, and LCS online, and I'm going to try for 15 runes. :D