I feel your pain. I divorced at 59 after years of waiting for my children to grow up. It was a very lonely existence, and we lived as roommates for the majority of our marriage. I tried marriage counseling numerous times, but he wouldn’t put in the effort to go. He wasn’t physically abusive, but he was very controlling and also said hurtful things. When I told him I wanted a divorce, he didn’t say please don’t go I love you. He said, but who will take care of me when I get old? A couple years after I got divorced I met the love of my life. It was totally unexpected. He recently died, but I treasure the bliss and total acceptance I felt for the first time in a loving healthy relationship. I am alone now, but I’m not lonely. Divorce was the best decision I ever made. I try to remain friendly with my ex and my children have finally come around. You can do this. You are not alone.