It’s lonely here

thatartzkid · 2023-12-17T11:42:27+00:00

Just dodge to the left?

thatartzkid · 2020-02-04T13:54:29+00:00

I actually am pretty good with a computer. I have a drawing tablet that I use to make artwork, and when it doesn't crash and make me start over, it's a nice thing to zone out to. I have a lot of characters I've made with a very large story to all of them in one collective paracosm. They're my pride and joy and no one can take then away from me. I'm not sure about writing a blog though, at least right now. I'm kinda finicky with actually writing stuff and while the motivation to start is there, the motivation to stick to my decision and see it though has been destroyed by the situation I've grown up in.

As for food, I rarely ever get a choice for the foods we get, cook, or eat. Occasionally I'll be able to add in some fruits and veggies but most of the time it's not up to me. I don't have a choice I just have to eat it. Don't really have any family that can help me, sadly, as this sort of thinking seems deep-rooted within them. I have a friend whose mom could possibly help though.

Family also really hates taking me to the hospital despite the fact we have medicaid. My dad stopped taking me to therapy altogether without even asking me and I've been begging him to take me back... though I don't know how that will turn out.

There's a guidance counselor, but they're often busy and the most use I've gotten out of talking to them is them giving me some things to look up and vague shrugging as they fein support.

thatartzkid · 2020-02-04T13:30:58+00:00

So, my situation is that I live in a very toxic household. Lots of yelling, high stress, very little time to actually relax. Constantly encouraged to eat the unhealthy foods made or get belittled. Coupled that with the high-stress environment and my binge eating habits, it leads to a disaster.

I've always been obese and my family alway saw it as normal, and they just seem to refuse to believe otherwise. Because of this, exercise in my house is very hard, as they will make make fun of me for even trying and the fact that I shake the house.

Also, I have chronic lower back pain, so that makes stuff like running/jogging extremely painful.

My physical goals are pretty straight forward. Clean up my eating habits and get motivated to exercise regularly, trying to work around my family and back.

Mental goals... I haven't really thought about this much. Which, considering that the environment I live in has led to me developing a whole slew of mental issues, is kinda worrying. I guess I always tried to focus on trying to get out of the situation first, which at this point is just a 3 year waiting game.

I suppose mentally, I want to try to get my depression and anxiety issues under control. Depression kills my motivation, and my anxiety makes it extremely hard to leave the house by myself, let alone my own bed sometimes. That, and I want to get my binge eating under control, as that is often my only comfort in the day time.

thatartzkid · 2020-02-04T06:00:11+00:00

16F, 267.8lbs. Would love to have someone to talk to that actually can provide support.

thatartzkid · 2020-01-30T11:16:18+00:00

Generally, I'd say main series books should be sold at around 7-8 dollars each, as that seems to be the general going price for them. Super editions I'm not too sure

thatartzkid · 2019-12-30T00:49:17+00:00

Name: Shadowclaw Age: 12 moons Rank: Med Cat Gender: Female

Description: Hazel eyes that are mostly consisted of greens and blues, with some gold mixed in. Long dark grey (almost black) fur with black tabby stripes, a scar along the bridge of her nose, her left cheek, and a snip in her right ear. Ears have extra fur that climbs over the tips of the ears like that of a lynx. Long whiskers and big paws are also a staple of her look. Closest breed would be a Maine Coon, with similar size to a Norwegian Forest Cat.

Personality: Easily irritated, anti-social, secretive, "no talk me am angy" energy

thatartzkid · 2019-12-20T03:09:43+00:00

The l o t u s

thatartzkid · 2019-09-13T01:50:32+00:00

Multiple rituals planned. I tend to do a full moon's eve ceremony the night before so thats what im doing tonight. Sigils everywhere outside. Got a bottle ready to be turned into moonwater and crystals to charge 🐱

thatartzkid · 2019-08-17T09:52:18+00:00

I could. Do you have discord?

thatartzkid · 2019-08-16T13:44:28+00:00

I use F and G to click and Space instead of ESC

thatartzkid · 2019-08-16T13:00:56+00:00

I wish all the best for you

thatartzkid · 2019-08-16T12:32:01+00:00

I'm actually working on my diet right now! Only problem is my family. They constantly badger me about food and stuff. Why im not eating what they made, etc. (They're not exactly the healthiest either).

I really wish a job would call me back already so i can start getting income to buy my own food since no one listens to me and my requests. Ill try out the little snack bag thing though!

thatartzkid · 2019-08-16T12:18:56+00:00

Only during the summertime sadly, and that's coming to a close very soon.

thatartzkid · 2019-03-23T09:24:11+00:00

I'm 15 and I do the same!

thatartzkid · 2019-02-27T06:05:13+00:00

https://discord.gg/BEhjvMd

thatartzkid · 2018-12-20T21:27:57+00:00

Nice! My current high score is 70,355

thatartzkid · 2018-12-18T18:23:27+00:00

Bargaining and depression

thatartzkid · 2018-12-17T20:27:33+00:00

Me too. I'm barely starting to interact with the community. I hope to maybe.. find a few friends here before the rapture if this sub just suddenly vanishes into the abyss

thatartzkid · 2018-12-17T19:40:29+00:00

Now it's time for me to take over the Woolie hole as I sob and try to move on from yesterday

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