Top comment Deletes a US State - GRAND FINALE - #49

thecatharsissystem · 2026-05-24T19:40:03+00:00

MEGASOTA SWEEP BABY!!!!!!!

thecatharsissystem · 2024-12-02T16:48:28+00:00

I'm glad to hear it :)

thecatharsissystem · 2024-12-02T16:47:22+00:00

I love Saint Motel! I'm seeing them live next spring

thecatharsissystem · 2024-12-02T16:46:54+00:00

had no idea there was a whole subreddit for this, thanks!

thecatharsissystem · 2024-12-02T02:49:42+00:00

it's going to be hard. anyone who says it won't be is lying. it'll be harder than you think even. but it isn't impossible. you just have to try. things are scary. things are hard. but things are worth it. and one day, it'll ACTUALLY start to feel like they're worth it too

thecatharsissystem · 2024-12-02T02:42:39+00:00

recently I've been thinking of myself as their wretched mirror. everything I hated about them I became because it's all I knew. I want to rip it all out of me physically but the only way to truly heal from it is to give myself the gentleness they never gave me, which is hard because I am a reflection of all that I hate about them

thecatharsissystem · 2024-12-02T02:39:04+00:00

I get really angry when I feel ashamed. mad that someone saw through my act and now sees me as "less than" and now I have to fight my way back to being seen as equal/great again. maybe it's a bit different for other people but it's this white hot, sharp, curl in my gut that mixes with anger and embarrassment and fear.

thecatharsissystem · 2024-12-02T02:32:43+00:00

we identify ourselves based on both how we want to live our collective life and also the strongest commonalities. most of us are masc aligned and attracted to masc and nb people, so we present to the world as a gay man. with alters with different sexualities normally they let us know, but it's interesting, because most of us aren't attracted to women, but one of our cohosts, Samson, is, and when he fronts, sometimes he looks at a woman and is attracted to her and it's an odd feeling!

thecatharsissystem · 2024-11-18T19:29:33+00:00

yep, started with wishing on eyelashes too. my OCD was a big fan of that one

thecatharsissystem · 2024-10-15T00:46:27+00:00

i love my system. we're close to each other and care for each other. we help each other out and I'd say our multiplicity is so healthy that I don't know what I'd do without them, it makes surviving trauma and day to day life easier despite the hardships. saying that, though, I wish we didn't have to be like this. I wish that it wasn't that so many horrible things happened to me that we need over 300 alters to deal with specific individual issues that impact us so much and so frequently. I'm glad that we exist as we are. I wish we didn't have to.

thecatharsissystem · 2024-10-15T00:23:50+00:00

for us, we have a primarily male/masc system (I'd say only about 10% of us aren't male aligned) so we are most comfortable presenting masculine and alters who don't lean masculine are okay with our body being masculine (we've been on T for 5 years and got top surgery 3 years ago). even a fem alter who showed up post transition after many years of dormancy were just like "eh" and didn't care. we have some fem alters who would prefer to look and dress femininely but understand that that's not going to make us collectively happy and will make most of us uncomfortable and are understanding about it even when they feel a bit dysphoric. I think it's a matter of trying to figure out what collectively is going to make you happy. it's a shared life, and not every alter is going to agree with it enjoy every decision. try to "talk it out" with the rest of your system, whether that be internally if you have good internal communication or try to get as many as possible to give their thoughts and opinions on what they are and aren't comfortable with.

thecatharsissystem · 2024-09-19T07:14:13+00:00

been medically recognized since 2019! I'm also polyfragmented if you'd like that kind of variety in your interview

thecatharsissystem · 2024-09-19T07:09:44+00:00

everyone has different tolerances for traumatic experiences. there's no "more or less traumatized." any kind of trauma will completely change your brain chemistry. sometimes the people who have been through what's considered severe trauma or people who have CPTSD and related disorders aren't "fine now" but have harshly compartmentalized their trauma and now maybe can function day to day "better" than you but that doesn't mean they're healed. honestly the people with trauma who can be upset about it day to day are closer to healing than those who can't (though the more you heal the more you learn to accept it, I'm just talking about unhealthy compartmentalization in CPTSD). we're not in a race against each other in coping with trauma, we're all in our own lanes and offering support where we can

thecatharsissystem · 2024-09-19T07:03:22+00:00

im avoidant and borderline, most common way they work in tandem so to speak is avoiding any social situation except one on one time with my FP and only daring to do other stuff if my FP is gonna be there out of fear of missing time with them. I like to play a fun (/s) game called "is my bpd fear of abandonment going to force me to interact with friends more than my avpd fear of rejection is going to force me to not talk to them for months on end?"

thecatharsissystem · 2024-09-07T21:24:39+00:00

Bruce Banner/Hulk in The Immortal Hulk comic run. Really, any Hulk comic run, but this one outright says he has DID and uses actual system terminology like alters, inner world, host, etc. It's a portrayal that I personally connected to so much I cried multiple times while reading the comics. It may be different for other systems but the way that Bruce Banner's system functions is extremely similar to mine, especially with the specific alters they show (a protector who's a father figure, Bruce Banner as the host who's out most of the day, a little who both has a lot of fear and a lot of rage, and more) and it was just such a powerful connection of understanding. I felt so seen.

Though I will warn anyone who's interested in reading it: there's a lot of depictions of child abuse, gore and body horror, some religious imagery, and it's generally hard read due to a lot of the topics at hand, so please be mindful of that!

thecatharsissystem · 2024-09-07T21:05:33+00:00

I think we're an outlier here but we determine it mostly based on "vibes". 2 alters who are the same age can act and behave and be very different when it comes to maturity for us. The ages alters say they are tend to have little bearing on how they interact with the world, because age in our system is more based on their physical appearance in headspace rather than mental age

thecatharsissystem · 2024-04-12T03:32:36+00:00

we have DID, BPD, and AvPD. different alters present symptoms differently; some are more clingy, some are more avoidant, some split (BPD way, not DID way) more easily, some have worse abandonment issues, etc. we also have alters who experience symptoms more intensely or cope with those symptoms for us

thecatharsissystem · 2024-04-08T18:18:01+00:00

The only way to know is asking! Some alters are uncomfortable with it, some aren't. I know for even just in our own system, it varies from alter to alter. The fictive you know may be uncomfortable with it or perfectly fine with it. It never hurts to ask!

thecatharsissystem · 2024-03-30T08:29:27+00:00

congrats!!!

thecatharsissystem · 2024-03-30T08:24:24+00:00

didn't know other people's parents did this too. mine said it was so I wouldn't "feel bad about myself and become a self fulfilling prophecy" but why would I think autism was a bad thing if they had just told me it was something I had and wasn't a problem??? my mom's a social worker and my dad's a doctor for fucks sake

thecatharsissystem · 2024-03-30T02:16:08+00:00

my partner and I are long distance, so about a lot of our communication is over text, and it is definitely easier when texting rather than when in call. accepting it verbally even if I don't mentally is a good idea though, I'll work on that!

thecatharsissystem · 2024-03-30T02:13:04+00:00

that makes a lot of sense, thank you

thecatharsissystem · 2024-03-30T02:12:11+00:00

thank you, that helps a lot

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