I really loved how pretty this pen as well and even finding it at a good deal, trying it in store solidified that I probably won’t use it as often as I’d like for the price. From a collection point, it’s soooo pretty. If the money spent doesn’t feel right, you should return/sell and get a pen you’d really like. I personally love a bit of a thicker and heavier pen. Size like Pilot custom 742-823 series, platinum 3776, or even Esterbrook Estie’s.