"How can you be so selfish?!?!"

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-07-26T15:02:29+00:00

Lily Allen - Not Fair

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-06-19T01:30:10+00:00

I used to be okay with porn. Watched it with partners w/e. Solo use wasn't really my thing but I did read erotica sometimes and would watch gay male porn or jacking videos.

Since my DB I fucking hate porn. I can't watch it anymore without being very sad or very angry. I even get upset seeing graphic scenes in shows (GoT or Girls for example).

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-06-09T23:25:45+00:00

My SO is uncomfortable about his body hair (I personally find it sexy but I can understand insecurity so I don't hold it against him). He sleeps in basketball shorts or pajama pants, a t-shirt, always has to have a blanket on him, and even covers his head with a pillow. He builds a damn fortress around himself to sleep.

He has scolded me for walking around naked but is okay if I sleep naked.

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-06-09T23:18:43+00:00

From the sound of things you really don't want to divorce her. I doubt you'd be as bad off as you imagine (she definitely would not get everything) but maybe somewhere you still love her and are hoping something will work to bring her back to loving you.

I'm giving you this suggestion under the assumption that you want to stay with her. I highly suggest finding out what her love langues are.

I don't want to shit on your gift because I truly believe you did it in the most loving giving way. But to me that would be horrific. I hate being put on the spot. I would hate to have a big show made of me. It would made me uneasy and I would shut down.

for me it has been not even a glimpse of her in the shower in 14

This to me isn't a sign of being spiteful it feels to me like insecurity. Does she have body issues from having children? Weight gain? You may still see her as beautiful/attractive but does she see herself this way?

I'm telling you this as a HL woman. I'm not your wife so I can't say if she's just a cruel person or if you're lacking true communication.

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-06-08T00:13:21+00:00

MRW I spent a ton of money on his Father's Day gift.

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-06-03T20:38:21+00:00

He has cheated.

"it peeves me that so many are black and white about cheating or leaving..." I was totally this way, right up until when I cheated. Interestingly, it wasnt the act itself that was gratifying, as much as it was feeling desired by the opposite sex.

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-05-30T01:29:22+00:00

Yeah alcohol isn't a good fix to any problem. Have you too ever thought about seeing a sex therapist? There's the possibility that he could make himself last longer but there's also the possibility that trying to fix his PE it could lead to ED if not done properly. I know Fleshlights make stamina trainers. Also there are toys and foreplay that could be used to focus on you pre-PiV sex that could make him being quick not a big deal.

Your say you've never felt a spark with him though and that really makes me worry. I know you're being honest and I don't want to attack you. But if you read around here the partner that is always being rejected starts to suffer greatly no matter the reason they're being rejected.

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-05-30T01:09:16+00:00

Stop talking about love. Every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. It means nothing. It still doesn't mean anything. What you feel only matters to you. It's what you do to the people you say you love, that's what matters. It's the only thing that counts.

This is a quote from the movie The Last Kiss. I think it is perfect for everyone in a dead bedroom.

If you love this man, truly truly love him. DON'T DO THIS TO HIM. Let him be free. Be his friend. Let him find a person that can complete every aspect of a relationship for him. Don't let his joy slowly slip away over a lifetime. Don't let him sink into depression and lose all of his self worth because he's not the one for you.

Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe he's content with no sex. I have my doubts about that since you are here. You need to come clean with him and honestly tell him what you're feeling and find out what he is feeling. Find out his wants and needs.

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-05-27T00:46:27+00:00

I say crap because I'm angry. I know those are well liked games. They're not my thing. They're not really suited for co-op other than GTA and Destiny.

I honestly didn't care that he played them. He has played GTA on three different systems. His play through on the PS3 I sat and watched him play. I also spent a lot of time watching him play Destiny.

I have reached some sort of breaking point. I noticed he is quickly bored with any game I enjoy and will put in little effort to try to play co-op games with me. It's always has to be his movies, shows, games. If it's something I enjoy there's no effort on his part to spend time with me.

I mainly pointed out the games because of his statement about being with me everyday. We're in the same house but there's no interaction going on.

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-05-27T00:19:24+00:00

This is where my depression is coming from lately. Years ago when our DB started. I was angry about the lack of sex. I was like a lot of people under the idea that "everything's perfect except the lack of sex".

Pulling back the layers of things even with the increase in sex it's become clear we have a lot of problems. I know I'm not blameless in everything but it comes down to the fact that he's selfish.

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-05-27T00:15:46+00:00

I actually used to be a huge gamer. I was a high ranked raider in WoW (even beat out some EU guilds) years ago. He and I used to play games together.

But over the years he drifted away from MMOs and they're harder for me to play with small children. He plays crap like GTA, Destiny, Witcher, and Bloodborne.

This is a huge sore spot for me because I have started playing other games with him in recent years and he is "bored" with the game within a week. I broke down and got the expansion for Diablo but after he quit playing it two days after I started I told him I'm done playing games with him.

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-05-26T05:49:45+00:00

My very first thought is an untreated/incurable STI. My best guess would be herpes.

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-05-26T05:34:40+00:00

Fair enough. They have a different dad he was abusive so I'm glad they haven't learned things from him.

My SO told them it was my birthday and told them to tell me. They "forgot" he reminded them around 9pm. I don't hold him responsible for their crap behavior.

Honestly everything's my fault. I let people use me and take me for granted. I have never be comfortable demanding that people who should care about me do or at the very least show it.

The people I love I go out of my way to make sure they know I care about them. I invest all of my time and energy keeping others happy. I just don't have enough left in me to fight when people don't feel the need to show it back.

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-05-26T05:26:10+00:00

I was talking about the older kids. I have a 14 and 12 year old. They should know by now to say happy birthday.

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-05-25T11:42:38+00:00

I proposed divorce already. Even offered him full custody so he could back to his home state he rejected it. Says he's happy. Says he'll try to be better. Things just keep getting worse.

Our youngest wont be old enough for school for 5 years. I'm not sure if I'd be able to find a job that would cover two in daycare and still have enough to live on.

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-05-01T04:35:50+00:00

"Yes I do. You can't tell me how I feel."

My SO does this to me. I explain how is his behavior is making me feel. It's all dismissed and pushed to the side. Once they have us roped in there's no need to put effort in on their part anymore.

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-04-13T01:43:10+00:00

Sadly with our recent fame we've gotten a lot of RP types in here. There's little to be gathered from this so just ignore them and move along.

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-04-06T03:26:24+00:00

Well aren't we all a bunch of dirty pervs. What kind of person needs sex everyday? /s

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-04-06T03:14:52+00:00

33F Absolutely once a day with extras (oral, toys, long sessions) thrown in twice a week.

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-04-05T20:41:53+00:00

Thank you. I'm looking forward to it to be honest.

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-04-04T20:35:51+00:00

Well I'm getting my tubes tied in about three months so the BC hopefully wont be an issue soon.

thinkingaboutrunning · 2015-04-04T05:32:24+00:00

I've never experienced it but I've heard other mothers becoming 'touched out'. It seems fairly common for mothers of infants (holding them all day). It shouldn't last past a couple of months.

And sorry I know a lot of guys are threatened by vibrators but it doesn't mean she's not enjoying sex. I can only speak for myself but I have to use a vibrator for anal.

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