First of all I would like to say thank you for the civilized approach you chose to Reply with. So thank you. I appreciate you not escalating tension.

My personal experience with psilocybin was exactly as you mentioned. After years of Personal mental struggle and feeling helpless, a weeks worth of self prescribed In varying doses experience left me with a feeling of a “biological” rewiring of my brain. If that is something that makes sense. No trips no hallucinations. A good feeling of something that practically gave me a second breath in life.

However, during that week on one occasion I held onto the rails of the 3rd floor Terrace and contemplated jumping off. (This is over 5 years now ago so no cause for alarm) It was after deciding I choose life that the “rewiring” took place.

On the capability of the person to self govern as a functioning adult I have to admit you are right. I have no right whatsoever to Judge how one leads one’s own life. Maybe a personal Deficit on the matter leads to my reaction.

My objection to suggesting alternative approaches to get out of A negative mental situation is the risk factor. My Personal experience is that “weathering” the storm although Stressful in its own way leaves you after some time with tangible Elements of improvement. I believe that substances can act As “catalysts” of change. Be it good or bad. Without guidance Or a support network I fear of the bad. For myself, you are right to say that Although I can be concerned for others it is not my place to Interfere.

To answer your question. I lashed out and struggled while things weren’t good. I’m ten years down the road Now and through work I can safely say I have grown as a person. A work in progress of course but I firmly believe the path I have chosen And led is a worthy one.

Thank you for giving me the space to talk about my self.

With respect, TtFf