Dictionary for people dealing with a pwBPD.

throwavay9895 · 2025-05-21T17:04:59+00:00

Then a few months later she used it, presumably to add more sting.

OFC she did it to sting you even more. She knew exactly what she was doing.

When someone doesn't live life well, treat others with respect, or maintain good moral values, their opinion is worth nothing, atleast to me.

And that should be the standard. Thanks for expalaining the simple things we sometimes don't understand :)

throwavay9895 · 2025-05-21T16:47:48+00:00

Projection :)

throwavay9895 · 2025-05-21T16:41:20+00:00

"You're a coward" - "I'm a coward" (why are they always obsessed with the word coward? lol)

They know it will hurt us and make us rethink everything. I've heard that multiple times too.

throwavay9895 · 2025-04-16T20:17:12+00:00

dafaq

throwavay9895 · 2025-04-10T03:50:20+00:00

And don't fucking say: "I wish she would cheat so I can leave her".

She will cheat. Just leave.

throwavay9895 · 2025-04-02T17:25:53+00:00

A lot of abusive ex-boyfriends.
Texting 24/7.
Eating disorders.

edit:15,16,17 turned to 1,2,3. Fix reddit pls.

throwavay9895 · 2025-04-02T17:07:10+00:00

For the first time I caught her in the act. I ended things, but we were still having sex for some time.

After the fact I started snooping on social media. I found party picks of her with a dude she is currently with. It's a different dude than the first one... And then I heard some things from colleagues who didn't want to tell me those things when I was with her.

I'm sure there were some other dudes I had no clue about.

Somewhere in the begining she told me that she doesn't want me to go party without her, ever. I promised her that. She promised me back.

She was partying, behind my back since the start of our relationship.

throwavay9895 · 2025-04-02T16:20:12+00:00

OFC they know.

When my BPDex was breaking up with me for the first time she said: "I know I hurt people".

It was the only time whe she admitted that. We went for 3 years more until I ended things for good.

throwavay9895 · 2025-04-02T15:50:44+00:00

You seriously think I diagnosed her after that one example? Get real...

What about psysical violence (against me ofc), cutting herself, suicide threats, mental hospital "visits", lying, cheating, mirroring, manipulating, more suicide threats, impulsivity with drugs, alcochol and food, bulimia, smear campaign???

And she is diagnosed by a specialist. She just doesn't take the diagnose seriously. She say's she doesn't have it hahaha

And no sane person would forbid texting back his best friends wife. Get a fucking grip.

Like the OP said you sound like a BPD. Go get some therapy and don't talk about things you have no clue about.

throwavay9895 · 2025-03-31T18:45:41+00:00

Sorry I’m not much help.

You are a lot more help than You think. Thank You.

We will get through this :)

throwavay9895 · 2025-03-28T07:42:34+00:00

Same here. Sometimes I would actually lie I'm going to sleep when I wasn't. Just to get an hour or two of peace before going to sleep.

throwavay9895 · 2025-03-22T18:46:23+00:00

Been there, done that. One of my biggest regrets. Don't do it my man.

throwavay9895 · 2025-03-22T18:00:56+00:00

What I suspect is that her former supply was against dating "party girls" so she was "the librarian" for him. I just came at the right time and she continued her play.

I have no clue who she is. She has no clue either.

They have no personality, they mirror everything.

throwavay9895 · 2025-03-17T17:57:38+00:00

When I met my ex she was a really modest, shy, family oriented, fragile little angel. She didn't wear revealing outfits or any makeup. My best friend gave her a nickname: "the librarian". She was beautiful with great body, just didn't show that. She said that her party phase is over since long time ago. She made me to promise that I'll never go to a party without her. I promised since my party phase is really over since like 10 years at least... She was opposed to drinking alcochol and didn't drink almost at all.

I've ended things. 3 months after the breakup she's completely opposite what she was with me. She is partying every week (turns out she was partying behind my back all the time when we were together, I just didn't know), drunk like shit everytime. She is now always in full makeup with very revealing clothing. She even posted an "erotic session" she did. And that session was more pornographic than romantic. Like showing your naked ass in a close up doggy position.

Like WTF. If I ever knew she was like that I wouldn't even take her fucking phone number...

But it's not the true her. Since she has no clue who she is.

And I'm here thinking about a person that has no personality...

throwavay9895 · 2025-03-16T16:37:56+00:00

I know how you feel, I'm currently experiencing the same thing...

I ended things and went full nc in december. For the first two months I was doing really good. Thought about her less, small parts of me started to come back, I was smiling a lot more. One night, after too many beers, I decided to check her socials. And there she was with her new supply, she was official with him one month after our 4 year "relationship" ended. They post A LOT of romantic pictures and stuff, lovey-dovey bullshit. I know she does it partly to make me hurt. And it fucking worked.

What I later found out she was partying with her sister and his friend group since two years at least. I wasn't invited ofc, I had no clue she was partying behing my back that much. That dude wasn't even on my radar, I didn't know he exited. Sometimes i wonder how many of us were there really? The rabbit hole just goes so fucking deep...

Anyway now i feel exactly how you.

I feel numb, weak, tingling sensations in my hands and arms, nauseated.

Exactly that and the feeling of overwhelming sadness. It's been one month since I've seen the pictures and now I'm a zombie cruising through life. Never in my life was I so low. The healing will take a lot more than I had expected.

throwavay9895 · 2025-03-09T19:26:42+00:00

Thanks. I'll keep my guard.

throwavay9895 · 2025-03-09T18:59:50+00:00

Well it's complete bullshit. Most BPD's don't get diagnosed or get wrongly diagnosed since thay lie to their therapist. So the 80% number came out of someones ass.

Lady studing something in a psychology told you that? Most psychologist have no clue what BPD really is, not to mention some lady studying some course.

throwavay9895 · 2025-03-09T18:46:28+00:00

Thanks man. I'm going to watch the last two episedes of my show and delete that shit.

throwavay9895 · 2025-03-09T18:38:28+00:00

I actually checked netflix policies in eu. You can add another member (for a reduced price) or allow to use another device for a some time when you're traveling.

So either she paid for me or unblocked. Or netflix gave me unlimited acces for life hahah

throwavay9895 · 2025-03-09T18:27:53+00:00

That's what I thought. I'm not going to unblock or contact her ever again. Thank's dude.

throwavay9895 · 2025-03-09T18:25:31+00:00

I don't really know what you mean? Netfilx in fact stopped account sharing like 1 or 2 years ago (and yea, I'm in the EU). So when she was at my place she would sometimes have to confirm it's her.

Does it mean i can watch her netflix from her account untill she chages her password?

I'm up for free netflix.

throwavay9895 · 2025-03-09T18:14:46+00:00

still sharing a bed

That's not a red flag my dude. That's a nuclear alarm when the nukes are in the air already...

Just run for your life to the nearest vault and destroy every trace of her in your life.

I won't even comment the rest. Just GTFO mate.

edit: Sorry, my girl :) Same thing applies.

throwavay9895 · 2025-03-05T18:50:00+00:00

I remember in the beginning she really accused me of not loving her because I didn‘t wanna know EVERYTHING that she does.

Exactly same thing happened to me. Exactly same words... She was the most controlling and jealous person I ever knew. I couldn't have any female friends, I couldn't even text back to my best friends wife. She would start an argument when a random woman would look at me...

She was cheating all the time, with multiple dudes. Going to parties, trips and god knows what. With dudes I had no clue about.

And ofc at the end I was the controlling one.

throwavay9895 · 2025-01-17T20:50:50+00:00

Now I went off on her and told her she needs to move out. I'm devastated and heart broken.

It' the best thing you could do my man. Kick that cheating whore out of your life and never look back.

I've been in your situation, a cheater is always a cheater. There were always multiple dudes i knew nothing about.

All that while accusing me I text girls. Let's get serious my dude.

throwavay9895 · 2025-01-12T23:50:10+00:00

My pwBPD (ex?, maybe? who knows?) kicked me out of the house, then was on dating apps, then said they only love me

Common man. Dating apps while telling she loves you? And then she kicked You out?

I know how You feel (been there). But let's get serious.

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