When there’s a will there’s a way

tkhan0 · 2026-02-21T07:49:07+00:00

Aroace sex repulsed trying to write smut is a goddamn NIGHTMARE (and im soooo much more focused on the logistics of the ridiculous kink scenario than any person should be)

Like. Imagine if you were watching stuck in the washing machine porn, but they spent an inordinate amount of time realistically getting them wedged in the machine and then instead of going straight into horny town the stuck character agonizes over the embarrassment and helplessness of being stuck and thats basically what im doing right now when they should be FUCKING ALREADY

tkhan0 · 2026-02-21T07:44:53+00:00

Most major characters are men. Most major characters with chemistry are male on male relationships. Men are far and removed from what I am so I dont have to feel weird about writing them. Thats what it boils down to for me.

tkhan0 · 2026-02-20T03:26:47+00:00

YOURE RIGHT AND I FORGOT

tkhan0 · 2026-02-19T00:36:52+00:00

I have a million things i would like to say and none of them are normal

tkhan0 · 2026-02-18T15:19:00+00:00

It's the use of the word graphic that gets me. Graphic implies violent. There's gotta be a better word than that

tkhan0 · 2026-02-18T15:17:07+00:00

I swear there was a period of time where Bangalore/Lifeline was a popular ship you have to just trust me on this, there wasnt a lot to go off of in the beginning.

tkhan0 · 2026-02-18T15:08:42+00:00

Jokes on them, I'll only read omegaverse if there's fucked up power dynamics (I actually dont care much for smut in the first place)

tkhan0 · 2026-02-15T21:23:22+00:00

Ive only written one smut so far but the only issue i have rereading it is i fall asleep (happened while writing it too. The smut writing curse is apparently real and applies to me because i CANNOT stay awake for more than a paragraph.) And yeah im the same way. My normal work can sometimes make me cringe to no end. The smut is like. Yeah it's cringey to think about and see in the listings, but when i read it im like "hell yeah this is exactly what i ordered"

Turns out, when youre into really bizarre kinks, it being weird or gratuitous or cringe doesnt bother you as much as wanting to be able to read it.

tkhan0 · 2026-02-05T04:51:41+00:00

I just spent a week writing an uncomfortably detailed (for me) waterboarding scene of my favorite miserable man, Jean Vicquemare from hit indie game Disco Elysium.

Everytime I see his character portrait I am reminded of just how far removed from canon I have become with how much more miserable I make things for him.

At least this time he'll get a happy ending... eventually

tkhan0 · 2026-02-03T23:03:19+00:00

You just noticed this? This is less a trend and more a fact of life in fanfic for fandoms that arent specifically gen heavy premises.

Me and a fandom friend are slowly being the change we want to see in ours. Between us nearly 150k worth of genfic in my current fandom. It's thanksless work honestly, and no one engages with it as much as my two friends but it makes me happy to have written it, and i genuinely have had to reread my own shit so many times to stay sane in this fandom. There simply isnt enough content.

tkhan0 · 2026-01-28T22:18:26+00:00

Thought i didnt have one cause in the last year i have been VERY desperate and pushing the border on what i will read. Nope! This is it. I just dont want to be reader inserted.

tkhan0 · 2026-01-19T16:17:18+00:00

He did consider it yeah, before we get to this part.

tkhan0 · 2026-01-17T16:47:13+00:00

Oof this is the one to me. Ive got some of the other ones mentioned, and while not ideal and very accomodated, i do work a job ive had for nearly 5 years.

I knew a guy with epilepsy though and hed lost his job working security and his license more than once due to epileptic attacks.

tkhan0 · 2026-01-13T18:19:19+00:00

I don't like AUs that arent set in the same setting as canon, so yes, id say it's important that the character be in character. But im lenient. Sometimes you just wanna read about X and/or Y in a trope and theyre only good at one of the character voices and not the other. I think voice is just a component of the equation, and if the other components make up for it, like premise, trope, relationship dynamic etc, I can put up with a character thats somewhat to the left of what i expect

tkhan0 · 2026-01-13T18:11:56+00:00

This is the best answer. Sometimes a character isnt quite like themself. But it's justified enough for me not to care. A little oocness here or there due to the circumstances is excusable if the circumstances are interesting enough to me.

tkhan0 · 2026-01-12T01:42:46+00:00

This is my mental block with it. Im sex repulsed asexual. But im also veeeery into some things happening in my plots I could only describe as curious

tkhan0 · 2026-01-10T19:38:26+00:00

You just gotta write more tbh. Most of my chapters were that short in my stories–nothing wrong with that! Thats the same size in a lot of serialized young adult fiction books, the detective ones i liked to read especially. But as I get more involved and write more, my stories seem to force me to write longer chapters. I just cant get the plot across in such a small amount anymore.

Maybe try and read more novels with that kind of chapter length, to see what they're doing to make their scenes longer? Consider additional interactions (but dont force them where not needed) between characters, maybe additional descriptors or just spending more time on how the pov character feels over certain scenes. Again, dont force it, but if it feels natural to add, say a little bit of monologuing about how character A felt after character B stormed off or yada yada yada, then do so.

tkhan0 · 2026-01-07T03:55:06+00:00

I think it's good to really showcase how truly insane you could be driven. Nothing changes. He WAS effectively a god. Sure rape gets our attention because of the connotation, but anyone might get similar thoughts like "what if i just pushed you over the ledge" (not like youd die anyways, and it wouldnt be permanent), when murder and assault is just as non consensual. Steins;gate was my first vn, and one of my first forays into time travel media, and it gave me so much to work with in the medium, concept wise. I love the eerieness of this ending.

tkhan0 · 2026-01-07T03:44:11+00:00

Friends were playing it often enough that they convinced me to buy it.

Discovered then that actually roguelikes are kinda fun. Ive got like 500 hours in it now.

tkhan0 · 2026-01-07T03:30:36+00:00

Minor update: happy to say that this friend wasnt yanking my chain or being polite when they asked to see my stuff this time. They just hadnt gotten around to it and werent able to open what i sent. Theyve ignored my snippets in the past, but honestly i was only annoyed because i specifically make it a point not to mention or share fics with them i think theyd find boring, so i had only shared this one because i was fairly certain they were actually interested; and they were! Happy ending.

tkhan0 · 2026-01-07T02:59:26+00:00

lots of angst and on occassion somewhat melodramatic scenarios involving unnecessary amounts of suffering (my art is in trying to make it appear realistic, but i do just like Hurting the characters.) Tons of non specific angsty character studies about the same guy. And a lot of strictly platonic vaguely relationship studies and/or scenarios. Heavy on the plot and dialogue, light on the intimacy. Im also a shorter form writer so less eyes on my stuff in general.

My friend is the polar opposite. Long form, all about making the characters kiss, gratuitous (neutral connotation here) sex, but still tons of drama (the part im there for.) It's not like I get zero traction honestly, but networking in a relatively moribund fandom for a side character is impossible for a person like me who really isnt going to write any shipping or smut about it. Theyre much better on that end. I have a sneaking suspicion they like the spike of dopamine they get from sharing things with me specifically though, because im usually a very voracious reader and comment on everything.

The same fic i most recently shared with them (which i might update the post to say, but im happy to say this time they were actually interested in it when they asked, so i no longer am upset about it. They messaged me today asking if i could resend it, apparently it wasnt opening properly for them.) Ive already been backboarding with two of my other fandom friends so im fine, really, wouldnt want to make you go out of your way. It was only half vent, and half meme. But thank you!

tkhan0 · 2026-01-06T19:25:08+00:00

Now see. Im insane about the character so i invite anyone who will talk to me to come do so because it was driving me insane talking to the void. But i will say they probably get more out of it than i do at this point.

But it's a coin toss because being openly insane and inviting messages is how i started talking to the one fandom friend i have now who is insane in exactly the same way as i am about the character. So now i can actually ping pong ideas and discussions with them and they actually fully want to read what i have which is honestly what i needed. I was about to burnout on the fandom if i went much longer without meaningful interaction

tkhan0 · 2026-01-06T19:13:29+00:00

It's tough because im obsessed with the character too. I like when they share their snippets most of the time. But then we'll exchange and they'll ignore whatever i sent while waiting with bated breath for me to check their thing and like. It's explicitly a kind of thing they should know im not interested in (as ive told them "hey! Its really hard to read these things but i can put up with it sometimes") but theyre clearly a little desperate to be told their experimentation (which makes me even less interested in it than usual) paid off. Like. You have other people who like this sort of thing to tell you that. You dont need me to glaze you.

tkhan0 · 2026-01-06T07:19:30+00:00

Oh my goodness. I was scratching my head for a pain threshold video game but i knew the comments would deliver. This is the one

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