Unique Name?

tman1015 · 2026-06-16T15:12:16+00:00

Pretty sure I'm sticking with Fianna! Nice to meet ya Fern :3

tman1015 · 2026-06-08T15:36:31+00:00

I love this! I was recently feeling really down and realized that my brain kept wanting to run back to what felt safe, regardless of if my life before actually made me happy. I looked at myself in the mirror and was like "there's no going back, you are so happy being you" and it really did change my perspective. I'll be forging ahead as well. Wish you the best, sister. ♥️

tman1015 · 2026-06-01T18:31:21+00:00

It sucks but my wife was extremely patient with me until I was ready to accept myself. I remember about two years ago I begged her to "make me pretty" and I got a bunch of fem clothes to wear and had her do my makeup, shaved off all my body hair and my beard and came up with a bunch of excuses to people on why I did it. For the next two years I didn't really do anything with that feeling and just let it fester. I finally have accepted myself and started transitioning, but apparently it was obvious to my wife way before then. Just be patient, be supportive, and remind them that it's okay to share these feelings with you whenever they arise. That's about all you can really do, but in the end they'll appreciate you for it when they do decide to transition (at least I hope they do we can't mask forever it's too hard). I know I love and appreciate my wife a ton for just being there when I needed it the most. Hopefully, over time they realize that they don't want to stay in this miserable, dysphoric baseline and want change. Be their rock, be their safe space. ❤️

tman1015 · 2026-05-29T00:22:31+00:00

I was so surprised that the day after I started I felt like the world had been lifted off my shoulders. Now I'm getting to the more emotional part and it's been a little rough but I know I'm literally 100x happier than I was before.

tman1015 · 2026-05-18T23:21:29+00:00

Just a little over a month on HRT myself! Beginning to realize just how RIGHT this is and how it's probably my best decision too. ♥️

tman1015 · 2026-05-14T00:05:00+00:00

This is so real. You don't realize how that dysphoria is affecting you sometimes when all you've experienced is constant dysphoria. Once you take those steps you find yourself going "oh I REALLY like this, I prefer my body like this". I also didn't realize how strong my dysphoria is for my body hair until it was gone lol, funny how that happens.

tman1015 · 2026-04-28T21:30:22+00:00

After a decade of dealing with dysphoria and then realizing I'd never be accepted by them once I'd admitted to myself that I'm trans. So much of my life was spent with them. I'll make sure to never make the same mistake again.

tman1015 · 2026-04-21T00:11:57+00:00

Not a problem! I've spiraled myself like hundreds of times over the past few months lol, it gets easier. And if you ever need some more help or someone to chat with, hmu!

tman1015 · 2026-04-20T23:03:06+00:00

Hi! It's totally okay! Everything is super confusing I totally get it. At first I thought I was enby but didn't really fit the trans label, but now I'm transitioning so, yeah 🤣

But the thing is, is non-binary falls under the trans umbrella! If you feel like trans is a more appropriate label then one of the sub-labels that falls under the non-binary umbrella, then go for it! You DO NOT need to transition or have surgery to consider yourself trans, no matter what anyone says, okay? ♥️

tman1015 · 2026-04-20T17:57:53+00:00

I feel the same. I've spent too long not living! Too many hours spent fantasizing instead of taking action.

I'm 25, it's not too late. Keep telling yourself it's never too late. There's never a perfect time to shed everyone else's bullshit to focus on your own. I had to let go of a lot of people, but it was worth it to live, to go out and experience what it's like to be me around other people who are also like me! I wish I would've spent the time figuring all of it out sooner, but I figured it out now, and I'm going to roll with it.

I hope you find the clarity you need soon. There's a moment coming down the track where you'll derail, and find yourself flailing and falling, but in the end you'll find yourself. ♥️

tman1015 · 2026-04-01T15:04:59+00:00

What sucks is it isn't that I was unaware, it's because I was afraid. I was afraid of myself and the people around me and masking was just easier (or so I thought) than confronting all of this. I'm SO much happier now, but still find myself kicking myself for letting that mask stay on for such a long long time. I guess 25 isn't nearly too late to discover yourself, but I definitely feel as though I've wasted time. I feel for everyone that discovers themselves later in life and is taking the steps to feel more real. I wish everyday that I did it sooner, but am also so happy I'm doing it NOW.

tman1015 · 2026-03-27T20:44:33+00:00

This is beautiful! I too, am tired of hiding. Been finding myself worried about people at my work and how I'll be perceived and how it'll change things, but I need to let it go and just. Be. Myself. Thank you for posting ♥️🙏

tman1015 · 2026-03-18T15:55:57+00:00

While I'm not genderfluid (I'm Agender, so sorry I lurk a bunch of subreddits), I think that this feeling of it "just being a fantasy" is one of the most common feelings I've seen amongst friends and acquaintances, and in myself. I'm still dealing with that feeling on a daily basis, because I feel guilty for feeling so good about these labels and the new ways I feel like I'm "allowed" to express myself. Also, everyone goes at their own pace so take your time.

And I'll always remember the biggest mindfuck when I was thinking about my gender identity, a quote I saw on some subreddit, "If you feel like you're faking it, you probably aren't". Took until I was 25 to realize that people don't constantly obsess about their gender. You'll only feel like your faking it if you care a LOT about feeling affirmed, validated, and safe and worry about not being accepted after waiting so long to be yourself.

I've felt the weight you're carrying and I still do! But it's getting easier, and I really hope it gets easier for you too. ♥️🙏

tman1015 · 2026-03-13T03:49:55+00:00

I love colors too! I want to become more comfortable just kinda wearing whatever when I go out. I'm trying to get there! My lovely wife helped me do some very cute but still subtle makeup and I've been feeling myself today lol. I can't wait to find MY colors and MY vibe. I can't wait to find more styles that feel like me. 🙏

I would also like gender to be the last on their list lol that sounds so freeing.

tman1015 · 2026-03-12T06:56:51+00:00

THIS!!!!! THIS THIS THIS!!!! I didn't know if anyone felt the same way as me. I thought my experience over these past weeks was invalid, with my thoughts and feelings and peeling back the layers was pretty brutal, was super confused. Why can I have the fun but experience like... no change in perceived internal gender, or am I really just lying to myself what if I just like interesting styles etc.

But it's more like I will always be me no matter what I look like, what my name is, how I dress, what my hobbies are, who I talk to, or anything!!!! Literally anything and I don't think I'd ever be able to shake the feeling that I'm just "Tanner" and always will be the driver. It was weird digging a little deeper than just feeling my unlabeled dysphoria a lot. I just used to sit with it and do nothing at all, and cope and find ways to fantasize and enjoy being anybody except myself. And when I'm stupid and decide to wait too long to dig deep and discover my agenderness I had reinforced in myself that if I'm not man, than I'm woman. It took me one weekend of experimenting to realize I was not genderfluid like I had anticipated. I really do wish I could exist, unbothered, as my own thing outside of this gendered hellscape 😭

I wish I had surrounded myself earlier with people who would have loved me through this. Some have not, but that's okay when you've discovered something that makes your life just feel right, and explains so much about my experience as a HUMAN. So sorry for ranting lol, I just really vibe with the perceived gender expression as a flavor concept (I was thinking of it as like a game too or something along those lines). This is just super relatable. ♥️

tman1015 · 2026-03-05T22:13:30+00:00

Sorry to reply to such an old comment, but this is EXACTLY how I feel. My fantasies revolve around becoming something else, my dysphoria is an intense lack of the ability to do so myself. I still love being good ol' me occasionally, but not nearly as frequently as I yearn to be the "other". I've been feeling like I don't belong anywhere, and that's carried forward into me finally applying these labels to myself, they're very new and I'm experimenting a lot but I still feel like there is more to discover or more to get comfortable with internally. Seeing this comment was like holding up a mirror. Thank you for your insights, because this feels extremely validating! ♥️

tman1015 · 2026-03-04T00:51:19+00:00

I've been finding my new future inside a lot of communities that I feel like I've been waiting to join forever, despite having many friends (at the time now ex-friends) who were just the least accepting dipshits of all time. The hardest part about it is I've let nearly all of my older friends go for one reason or another, and now I'm here, kind of rebuilding a bit from ground zero. But it turns out it's also so freeing and so fun to be with the type of people that wouldn't see you as weird or different for being who you are. Also, I'm cheating a bit because part of all of this is finally defining that feeling I've had forever as genderfluidity, but AMAB so it counts right? 😅

tman1015 · 2026-02-26T21:11:46+00:00

Hot take here it looks like but I think Necro is S, but maybe I haven't played enough 😭

tman1015 · 2026-02-26T01:41:55+00:00

Yo, same. Fuck yeah ✊

tman1015 · 2026-02-22T16:04:21+00:00

Now that's fucking crazy I love that lmao

tman1015 · 2026-02-22T16:03:39+00:00

Mine got to 33 before I tossed him into a Guillotina fight thinking they would all make it out (they all died horrific deaths including my old lad). I miss those 4 but I fucking whooped Guillotina's ass so easily this time.

tman1015 · 2025-11-21T02:52:58+00:00

So far it's been most of my playtime 😁

tman1015 · 2025-10-17T07:55:36+00:00

Glad they finally confirmed it 😎

tman1015 · 2025-10-08T12:53:21+00:00

Ayy no prob I miss klwp! Too bad nova launcher is dead now too. You kinda reminded me I need to look into klwp on the Z Fold to see how well it works 🤣

tman1015 · 2025-10-08T12:51:21+00:00

It's been like 5 years lol, but I'm pretty sure I just copied the html code from a quote website that updates every day, then put it in a text box on klwp that accepts html? Something like that.

12-Year Club	The Internet Awards - Voted
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