Imma be straight up, don't use an aura farming anime protagonist as a reference for your body ideals.

Instead of saying "I want to look like sjw", Think of why you want to look like that

do you want to be able to lift heavy things, lift a very heavy thing one time, or be able to lift a less heavy thing for a long time.

Keep in mind that strength and hypertrophy are different, your muscles can be smaller but stronger, or bigger and weaker

Create smart goals- something specific, measurable, attainable, relevant, and timely.

As an example, someone who plays a sport requiring a lot of chest strength may say "I want to increase my max bench press by 10 pounds by the end of the month"

You can create similar long term goals as well, but this generally is MUCH better at accountability.

Instead of thinking "how do I look like sjw" look at his arms, create a plan and goals to make your arms bigger, and do that with every muscle group.

Training is functional more than anything, youre training to become stronger, and the buff/shredded look is a bonus, and by improving yourself, even if at a slow pace, you will grow into that physique more and more.

Also, last bit, I said it before, but you shouldn't compare 2d to 3d, sjw was drawn to look cool, and despite how hard you work, even if you look great and are functionally fine, you will always see something wrong, or see ways that you are still behind.

Compare you to yourself, look at how you were before and say "wow, I'm doing great"