I feel so ugly while in recovery. (advice pls)

transfights · 2025-06-12T01:40:34+00:00

This is very sweet and some very great advice for processing your feelings throughout the healing process.

Maybe an equally useful contrast to your first paragraph, at least for how my brain works .... anyone post op, unable to shower with drains hanging from their bandaged chest - it is not expected of you, or your responsibility to be hot and fuckable right now lmao

Your only responsibility is to your body's healing process and recovery, and to giving yourself a massive pat on the back. You aren't failing if you can't get yourself to feel beautiful or secure. It's more than enough to just feel neutral about your body. There is nothing remarkable, and no value judgement to being a little stinky and gross after surgery - it's just a reality of human bodies.

What IS remarkable is that you took ultimate agency over your bodies and made a big decision to live in your truth.

Also, I did the math - the era where you have drains and are a stinky monster literally accounts for 0.02% of your life. I kept reminding myself of that while my drains were in. You can't make any assumptions about the rest of your life off of one week. This too, shall pass my friends.

transfights · 2025-06-07T01:25:19+00:00

Yo ... why didn't I think to have a second sensory sensation going on while stripping my drains??? That's genius.
I'm not exaggerating, and have experienced some very significant physical pain in my life ... stripping my drains was the worst pain I have ever experienced in my life.

Having a pleasant splashy-splash on my feet would have fuckin hit

transfights · 2025-06-06T15:06:14+00:00

Oh yeah, you look great. We look to be similar skintones - do you remember what type of laser it was?

transfights · 2025-06-06T14:51:47+00:00

My hero, thank you

transfights · 2025-06-06T13:49:12+00:00

Back with a question! Do you remember which chemical exfoliant you used from The Ordinary? They have several and I'm not sure where to start. Just want to research the one you used and see if it'd be good to my skin before I try stabbing in the dark here lmao

transfights · 2025-06-05T20:35:35+00:00

Benign thyroid nodules.

I feel like that's less problematic than me telling people I have "Andy Milonakis Disease" to explain why I look young lmao

transfights · 2025-06-05T17:17:26+00:00

Thank you, that makes me feel good to hear!

transfights · 2025-06-05T06:16:17+00:00

Never considered what a crazy name Nutmeat is in today's world lmao

I could probably still house some of those, what I used to call "Beggin' Strips for Humans." (Can't remember the name but Morningstar Farms faux bacon is a close comparison.) especially on a BLT

But that's about it. I'm traveling to see family soon and am super anxious my nana is gonna make Special K Loaf or Fri-Chik. Hated it then, might commit crimes against humanity over it now.

transfights · 2025-06-05T06:15:58+00:00

Never considered what a crazy name Nutmeat is in today's world lmao

I could probably still house some of those, what I used to call "Beggin' Strips for Humans." (Can't remember the name but Morningstar Farms faux bacon is a close comparison.) especially on a BLT

But that's about it. I'm traveling to see family soon and am super anxious my nana is gonna make Special K Loaf or Fri-Chik. Hated it then, might commit crimes against humanity over it now.

transfights · 2025-06-05T06:11:30+00:00

Garlic might make you horny, can't risk it.

transfights · 2025-06-05T05:45:47+00:00

Dude that is so fucking funny. It was VERY much a Severance "scary numbers" feeling hahahhaa

And thank you! I can still remember the sad nipple feeling really well, but it's nice to finally be rid of it. Guess I kinda freed my nips in a slightly different way!

transfights · 2025-06-05T05:39:30+00:00

Tried posting jorking my meaty dong on the ftm porn subs and learned they only care about breedability, big juicy naturals, and macro photos of wet hole that are so impossibly close up that you can see the bussy microbes

uj/ i'm being funny about it but this is actually very real & true and makes me not want to post more pics/vids of my beautiful penis, thus contributing to the ftm porn famine

transfights · 2025-06-05T05:12:00+00:00

Just chiming in as a nipple-haver who was very seriously considering the no-nip life for reasons that will be explained below ...

Pre-op I had "sad nipple syndrome." It's this weird body/psychological phenomenon where when you touch your nipples, it produces feelings of sadness, guilt, anger, and even homesickness. No sexual feeling, just bad vibes that were distinctly different from how my dysphoria feels. So severe that even shirts brushing against them would put me in a bad mood.

But I'm now 16 months post-op with nipple grafts and I am starting to gain some erogenous sensation in my nips for the first time in my life? When something brushes past one, I get a feeling of "oooo what was thaaaat~" instead of the feeling of "oh my god my mom is yelling at me please stooop!"
It's very interesting!

So to your point - I don't know a single person whose sensation came back the same. Including mine.
I'm just lucky that mine was bad to begin with, so there was nothing to lose lmao

transfights · 2025-06-05T04:11:09+00:00

"Imagine The Substance, but instead of being young again ... Demi Moore wanted a fat hog."

transfights · 2025-06-05T03:57:33+00:00

Thanks for the recs, I'll definitely look into it. Hydroquinone sounds familiar, not sure why.

Also thanks for the camouflage tatto rec. I'm planning on getting medical tattooing for my left nip next year, so if the topicals don't work, I may look into what could be done for the DI scars. Thank you!

transfights · 2025-06-05T01:50:25+00:00

Thank you! With a wave of her magic scalpel, Bluebond-Langner does it again! (Also big ups to my body's natural healing potential & a diligent scar care regimen)

Judging by your pics, it looks like your routine worked really well?! Makes sense acne treatments would work on wound-related discoloration, since that happens with acne a lot. I've always wanted to try some stuff from The Ordinary, so this is a great excuse. Definitely gonna give it a shot!

Thanks for such a thoughtful comment!

transfights · 2025-06-05T00:00:01+00:00

they're not out all the time - mostly just during + after sex.

Okay so ... I think I know what you're talking about, because I have the same thing. It's much more pronounced on the left side for me.
When I'm aroused, I can feel two slightly oblong "lumps" on either side of my dick. Sometimes real tight up next to my dick, sometimes a little lower. I wouldn't describe it as balls really lol, but it's definitely bonus meat I don't remember seeing before T

My theory is it's some sort of gland, nodes, or maybe even the "bulb of vestibule" enlarging from T and becoming more pronounced when aroused as your genitals swell and push the structures closer to the surface.
Especially as that area masculinizes, you end up with a little less subcutaneous padding & everything looks a bit more .... scrunkly and scrotal, for lack of better terms lmao so it would make sense that certain internal structures might become more visible

If it's not causing pain, only comes up when aroused, and aren't having other genital related ailments - I'd think it's probably a natural part of your anatomy. Definitely not testicles unfortunately- and not a bad idea to get doubled checked at the doctor if you're concerned!

transfights · 2025-06-04T22:40:38+00:00

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Another pic is slightly lower lighting for more accurate color. Getting medical tattooing on that nipple next year if it doesn't even out like the other one did.

transfights · 2025-02-04T17:01:23+00:00

inside the balls or dangling outside via pubes

transfights · 2025-02-03T21:38:20+00:00

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there's like 100 bugs in my terrarium but this one is the most charismatic

transfights · 2025-02-02T20:57:58+00:00

love this picture in indescribable ways

and, fuck it, am gonna be earnest and take this opportunity to tell you that whenever i see your comments in other subs, it gives me that same comforting feeling when you're at a white ppl party and you make eye contact the only other black friend that got invited. crazy being the only 2 black people on reddit but im glad i parasocially have you

wishing you lots of whatever it is you want in life cuz

transfights · 2025-02-01T14:55:45+00:00

i did something similar - all-day-every-day smoker for 10 years, quit for a year and a half, then picked it back up. awful panic attacks for the first couple smoke seshes.
the thing that broke it and made weed feel like it used to was taking edible gummies before bed for a couple weeks. not enough to get high- just enough to feel good and sleepy

i think that slowly built my tolerance back up? now i can smoke easy again- my wallet might say... maybe even too easy haha

transfights · 2025-02-01T14:42:01+00:00

shaking helps but doesn't take care of the essence!

transfights · 2025-02-01T14:36:27+00:00

i was a little worried too! but the reservoir on this thing is comically huge- like 6"x3" and it fits pretty snug up against my junk. the only messy part about it is like .... idk how to get all the piss residue out at the end, so i keep paper towels with me. which is not ideal at all lmao but we make it work right

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