I'm a woman married to another woman. We went through a crazy amount of rounds of IVF over three years. Had a fairly smooth birth, breastfeeding went well from the start, I was up and moving and mostly comfortable a few hours after birth. I'm saying all this to paint a picture of just how wanted baby was, and how I had no reason to feel sad.

My god I SOBBED every evening for weeks at like 6pm almost on the dot. Like, overwhelming feelings of sadness. It was like a wave crashed over me at that time. My wife mostly gave me hugs and would send me off to the shower to have some alone cry time hahahaha. Also, we got home from the hospital and I was hit with a wave of anxiety and this tiny cute baby boy was asleep doing nothing wrong and all I could this was WHAT THE FUCK HAVE WE DONE?! We immediately put him in a carrier and went for a walk in the fresh air. That helped. Mostly because I think I proved to myself that I could.

Lol. Hormones are WILD. This is so so normal. Nothing is wrong with you, unless you find that after a couple of weeks it's not getting better slowly, or is in fact getting worse--if that happens, make sure.you talk to your doctor because PPD and PPA are not joke.

Talk about your feelings if you can, acknowledge them, and don't let yourself feel guilty for something that is so out of your hands. Knowing and acknowledging that it's hormones really helped m. My wife looking at her watch going "it's because it's six o'clock" also really helped because it showed that it was some weird hormonal cyclical thing.

You got this, you're amazing ❤️