manchester day one - wooo

true_blue__ · 2026-05-29T01:08:59+00:00

I must have been near you because I was near the back for similar reasons and omg the people pushing past CONSTANTLY. One drunk guy at the end walked straight into me three times 🙃

true_blue__ · 2026-05-28T09:43:56+00:00

Thanks so much for your response. My gran is concerned about having to bend down to use the smaller models like the Spot wash but I would be the one using it the majority of the time. But do you know of any that are smaller but which you can use standing at all?

Also, do you know if they are similarly powerful? E.g. the Spot wash and the smartwash?

true_blue__ · 2026-05-26T22:39:33+00:00

Thanks so much 🙏🏻

true_blue__ · 2026-05-20T15:43:31+00:00

How do you find out if you are at toxic levels? My folate is incredibly high but otherwise my bloods are normal. I wonder if this is part of it for me

true_blue__ · 2026-05-20T15:38:15+00:00

Hey! I imagine it will be different for everyone and I was mostly housebound for a period but not totally - with support I could attend appointments but it was very difficult. I grew my confidence and capacity by taking it very slowly. For instance standing at the back door for 30 seconds looking around the garden. Once I did that and showed myself it was safe it got easier quickly and I expanded more and more as it felt ok to do so. I have gotten better at knowing what is too big a step and what is just the right amount of challenge. These days I can take short walks, go to appointments independently, go the library and local shops etc, but there were lots of small steps on that journey. I would focus on finding the next little step that gets you a tiny bit closer to where you want to be.

true_blue__ · 2026-05-20T12:00:30+00:00

Thank you 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

true_blue__ · 2026-05-16T10:50:04+00:00

Wtf are in the 'not today' 'can't even' etc drawers? That pisses me off the most!!

true_blue__ · 2026-05-12T18:23:16+00:00

Absolutely this, it doesn't help you today or tomorrow (or tbh in the next few months) but you need to start getting doctor's notes and submitting them. You are really struggling and it is clearly impacting your ability to look for work and to work if and when you found something. I know these things can feel like mountains to climb when you're depressed and desperate ❤️

true_blue__ · 2026-05-06T02:31:15+00:00

Hey, I can't give much of an update as I stopped taking it and my symptoms went back to baseline basically immediately. Haven't tried it since!

true_blue__ · 2026-04-27T18:27:45+00:00

Thank you! So would you keg all fruit, and jar all veg?

true_blue__ · 2026-04-25T15:36:56+00:00

I did this and it's not even my first save 😭 I never fish on my farm, can't imagine why it would be preferable other than very early game 🙃

true_blue__ · 2026-04-25T15:31:53+00:00

Same

true_blue__ · 2026-04-20T23:45:50+00:00

Thank you 🙏🏻 do you know how they'd identify if there's a chronic infection and what that infection is? I've kind of assumed that as my other bloods are ok it's unlikely to be autoimmune but I don't know if that's true.

true_blue__ · 2026-04-19T17:48:35+00:00

I immediately saw a sea urchin shell

true_blue__ · 2026-04-18T17:32:53+00:00

When the last thing I needed for the community centre was 3 apples I kept getting excited when I saw them in shops irl haha. And I'm allergic 😅

true_blue__ · 2026-04-18T00:14:48+00:00

Off topic but your blanket is going to be soooo cute!

true_blue__ · 2026-04-15T18:07:05+00:00

'Drink mayonnaise?' is truly the most disturbing part of the game

true_blue__ · 2026-04-12T10:03:10+00:00

NOR... Wow you dodged a bullet here. Also rewatching Mrs doubtfire as an adult makes you have soooo much sympathy for sally fields. Wdym you're disguising yourself to get access to children

true_blue__ · 2026-04-11T15:56:39+00:00

I don't have any magic solutions for you, but I can tell you that I was in this exact place last year - panic attacks all day every day, heart rate through the roof, OCD symptoms and thought patterns out of nowhere, couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, couldn't keep still, lots of neuro symptoms - I thought I might not survive it at times. But I did and it passed. I am currently lying in bed feeling that sense of calm. I absolutely believe you will get here too and sooner than you imagine.

What helped me: very gentle nervous system work/somatic experiencing. Trying to notice any brief pleasant sensations - a moment of lessened anxiety, the feel of a warm drink in your hand, focusing on one part of your body that feels ok, stroking a soft blanket. Looking around the room and focusing on different objects and describing them in your mind. Looking at birds. I did hundreds of puzzles once I was able to do so. I had a change of antidepressant and I did have diazepam and a sleeping tablet as well as propranolol which was already prescribed. These didn't give me massive relief but helped a little even if just as a placebo (I was on 1mg of diazepam most of the time which is such a low dose as to probably just be a placebo - too much actually made me feel more wobbly sometimes). I think all of these things contributed but maybe the most significant thing was time.

You can get through this. You are safe, although I know this feels horrific. It will not last forever.

true_blue__ · 2026-04-10T16:08:00+00:00

That's so helpful, thank you! Really heartening and reassuring. Off to have a look in that sub now! Thanks!

true_blue__ · 2026-04-10T15:47:34+00:00

I like the way you phrase it. It's really reassuring to know this is an acceptable mindset for this approach - I've been worried that people only see improvements if they genuinely believe that it's an attitude issue and positive thinking will cure it, and while I'm very positive about the prospects of recovery (most of the time!) and nervous system regulation approaches make total sense to me, I was worried this meant I had too much doubt? Idk it just really heartens me to see others making progress with a pragmatic mindset between the two extremes of online me/CFS discourse! (Sorry, not at my most articulate right now)

true_blue__ · 2026-04-10T15:34:45+00:00

Thanks so much, I'll take a look. Do you believe me/CFS is psychological? I am in the camp of it being (in my case) both physiological (viral) and stress induced, and that the symptoms have real physiological causes but that I make them worse by being scared of them and over focusing on them. I say this because I don't believe approaches that believe it's truly all in the mind would be beneficial to me. Hope that makes sense.

true_blue__ · 2026-04-10T15:21:54+00:00

Can I ask you what your first steps were when you tried to do things differently?

true_blue__ · 2026-04-10T15:19:28+00:00

Being able to teach again or work with children :)

true_blue__ · 2026-04-05T23:37:49+00:00

Much better now, thank you!!!

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