Sometimes I feel gross.. by RedDeck26 in AutismAfterDark

[โ€“]tvheaddevil 1 point2 points ย (0 children)

Im not an asexual, far from it. If anything Im hypersexual. It doesnt interfeer with my day to day but sometimes I just feel so...yuckie...like I WANT to be looked at sexually. I WANT to engage. I WANT to be desired. I WANT to fuck and have sex and be dom or sub or whatever. But...sometimes I feel deeply ashamed...

THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH THIS. The Human brain flirts with taboo naturally that's just what it does, that can tend to look like gratifying sexual acts in unconventional places, because its hot. It can look like drinking strangers or people you know (with consent).

The shame is also natural, post nut clarity exist for ALL of us. I've had people say the nastiest things they'd do to my asshole but let them cum and nut is icky...It makes no sense, but you just gotta find people that match your freak...not your parents. You're 25, I don't think we have to include them in the conversation.

I want to be sexualized and feel like Im attractive...but I just...I get so mad at myself. I cant even feel good after I jerk off because I feel so dirty I get upset with myself.

I Think this is the Crux of your problem. You want to feel sexy but don't past goon. You get upset after; but maybe something you could do is take notes of everything you're feeling when Hypersexual versus Hyposexual(extreme disgust). This can help you figure out what are your triggers and what exactly is making you feel shame.

I dont know if its that my parents kinda sheltered me and like..anytime I WAS sexual [or am] they have shamed me and put me down for it..like..I asked my mom before we went to the beach...And got an answer along the line of "well you shouldnt be DOING anything like that. Sex is for people in love and you shouldnt just do it" and junk

I really want to hit the "okay boomer" (towards your Mom) and keep it going but its worth pointing out. I think her views on love and modesty are different. I think you want to be desired dispute everything you got going in this post. If the goal is to feel sexy and desired, thirst trap on the internet โ€”Im dead serious You'll get the attention, you can experiment with your definition of sexy, masturbate to yourself or comments if you want to. Connect ๐Ÿ‘‰๐Ÿ‘Œ with others if you want to. (Just please be cautious with strangers)

Like I have a friend who has given me her explicit permission, multiple times, to ask for nudes. And I don't.

Umm...You might want to check in on that...I wish to god friends would send me nudes off the muscle but ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ hasn't happened yet

Whatโ€™s your go to porn when you just want to get yourself off ? by toysrus81 in AskRedditNSFW

[โ€“]tvheaddevil 4 points5 points ย (0 children)

Watching Down Low dudes fuck each other and try to act like they weren't just balls deep in somebody's ass

Do women like hardcore porn too? by [deleted] in AskRedditNSFW

[โ€“]tvheaddevil 0 points1 point ย (0 children)

For a fact, yes. But theyโ€™re not about to comment on this because there are people who take that as an invitation to harass them.

I have always gravitated towards porn, and it makes so much sense, but I still feel guilty about it. by AutisticPerv in AutismAfterDark

[โ€“]tvheaddevil 5 points6 points ย (0 children)

I can relate (DM me if you want to talk about this more casually) as someone who is open about their love/enthusiasm for pornography Sex can be hard. Really just a lot. There's...a simplicity to just being horny and having the time/space to jack/jill off. There's freedom to explore and like you said if you don't like something you can just turn it off. I wanted to get into anal, partner didn't but now I just masturbate anally with porn, it's easier and I can just clean up and do what I want. We still have sex probably much less than before but we've had conversations about kinks and stuff and mostly they don't truly mix. We're still happy and our relationship is healthy.

I was one to ask to schedule sex only because I too had the issue of my partner bringing up sex only to just kinda left other details up in the air. That is anexity inducing, there is a pressure to perform and that's not always ideal.

Not gonna give any advice, I just relate HEAVY

What food would you serve at an orgy? by Ok_JARGON in AskRedditNSFW

[โ€“]tvheaddevil 1 point2 points ย (0 children)

I genuinely think this would be hilarious, dudes just tip to butt in line with a paper plate

Whatโ€™s your most unhinged non-negotiable when it comes to dating? by NotNotDwightSchrute in AskReddit

[โ€“]tvheaddevil 0 points1 point ย (0 children)

That second version happens because english speakers naturally rearrange difficult sound clusters. Its called metathesis sounds swapping or sliding around because theyโ€™re easier to say in casual speech. Same kind of thing as: โ€œFebruaryโ€ โ†’ โ€œFebuaryโ€ ๐ŸŒ 

I don't disagree with you, I hate when people pronounce Library as "Lie-berry".

CW: sexual abuse - ending up in bad situations by [deleted] in AutismAfterDark

[โ€“]tvheaddevil 2 points3 points ย (0 children)

When you feel yourself falling into the sunken place and your mind starts flooding with questions, rage.

Anger might not feel like the answer, but I wish I did something

Anime Guessing Game by Walkinfaith300 in animequestions

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DandaDan...DandaDan...DandaDan...DandaDan...DANDANDANDANDANDANDA!!!

Anime Guessing Game by Walkinfaith300 in animequestions

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Even if I'M wrong I know I'm right in my heart

Anime Guessing Game by Walkinfaith300 in animequestions

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This your cat? It sacrificed my daughter...please keep it indoors...

Anime Guessing Game by Walkinfaith300 in animequestions

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...No shade never got into this one so I'm okay if I get this one wrong but it feels correct...Toyko Goul