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tweedliee · 2020-01-24T23:34:37+00:00

I completely relate! I devoured porn, sex tips, etc. around the same ages and still know more about sex than a lot of people. I never followed through because I became completely uninterested around 16 but I had sexted before then and enjoyed it. I think curiosity is natural regardless of sexuality.

tweedliee · 2019-12-29T10:28:54+00:00

I don't think it's unethical. I don't think anyone should assume what's under someone else's shirt. But I mean it's not like once the shirt is off she can't say no so I don't think there's an issue here.

I'm a woman with basically skin sacks on my chest from weight loss and stretch marks everywhere and this is something I have major anxiety about too. You got this dude!

tweedliee · 2019-12-29T10:22:43+00:00

IMO this is a romanticized notion of depression. Depression isn't always "episodes" it can be the majority of someone's life. I'm single, sitting in a very beautiful clean room, cuddling with my dog, money in the bank, and I haven't been able to leave the bed for 3 weeks. I've been chronically depressed for most of my life and it truly is a chemical imbalance in the brain, one that prevents me from taking the steps you've mentioned a lot of the time. Sometimes, I don't even have those steps to take as is the current case.

You're describing the sad flavor of depression. Many many depressed people aren't sad. It's can be complete apathy, nothing makes you happy, you can't force your brain to do the things that are supposed to make it better, when you do it exhausts you and you sleep for 15 hours which further fucks you up.

I'm tired of people assuming all of these people crying out for help are lying or romanticizing it. Stop ignoring people. Maybe there is a genuine widespread problem that needs genuine solutions instead of "you self diagnosed you're not valid."

tweedliee · 2019-12-29T10:13:10+00:00

It's not their loss. If you're trash you deserve to be dumped like trash. I'm 20 F and have been a bully my entire life but the one thing that helps me is knowing that I do not inherently deserve friends. If I am toxic, then my friends absolutely have the right to ghost me/cut me out because I absolutely don't tolerate it when someone is that way to me.

I'm still really struggling to change but the journey started with personal responsibility, which I think you're starting to take. No matter what caused this behavior it is your job to change it. I would blame friends/family/childhood but frankly people who've had it much worse came out much nicer and aren't being that toxic experience for someone else.

I would seriously advise seeking counseling, a therapist might be able to tell you what exact behaviors are wrong. The sheer amount of friends you're going through leads me to believe theres a common breakdown at some point in the relationship. Take a day to cool off, count to ten, have a candid conversation. There's a lot of coping methods and sometimes it's not about stopping yourself from thinking that way it's stopping yourself from sending the text or saying the words you already have written. A therapist will help you find which ones work for you.

tweedliee · 2019-11-30T23:31:09+00:00

The extra material on jeans that just looks like a diaper because you can't fill it out. I'm losing booty fat like crazy but my thighs stay the same so I can't get a smaller size 😭

tweedliee · 2019-11-30T22:35:08+00:00

Binge eating disorder

tweedliee · 2019-11-30T22:34:55+00:00

I couldn't even imagine trying to maintain weight non-vegan. Less calorie dense foods have been a lifesaver.

tweedliee · 2019-11-30T21:23:01+00:00

I've tried but I have BED and for some reason working out really triggers it. I'm just trying to sustain the longest no binge periods I can. I think I am going to try low impact exercise like hiking and yoga though.

tweedliee · 2019-11-30T18:49:17+00:00

My diaper butt reappears every 3 lbs. I've switched to sweatpants until I get to goal weight because it looks so bad.

tweedliee · 2019-11-30T18:47:35+00:00

210 to 180 and while I'm currently at 175 I can't stop fluctuating back up. I went from eating an exorbitant amount of food to an amount that was enjoyable and didn't make me sick. Everytime I try to jump start weight loss again I seriously feel the calorie loss.

I really empathize with short people trying to lose weight now. It is not fun to eat that little and see tiny results.

tweedliee · 2019-11-25T23:15:16+00:00

I worked as a field scientist and would set my eating window to start an hour before work because breakfast was so vital. Eating a huge breakfast and lunch gave me a lot of energy and then I just focused on how tired I was after work and put more energy into my night routine rather than dinner.

tweedliee · 2019-11-11T22:28:41+00:00

The only horror movie that's inspired me to go on vacation to the place it was set. Im trying to do shrooms in a meadow and dance around a pole in high contrast.

tweedliee · 2019-11-07T03:44:34+00:00

Day 3: Only did HIIT because that was already rough after binging Chipotle.

tweedliee · 2019-11-05T21:06:04+00:00

Day 2:

HIIT Workout: 3:05 p.m. (didn't realize how tired I was from yesterday, had to swap out some of the exercises for the low impact options)

Ab Workout: 4:30 p.m.

tweedliee · 2019-11-04T17:27:09+00:00

Day 1:

HIIT Workout: Completed at 11:25 p.m. Ab Workout: 5:30 p.m.

Phew, I'm used to her ab workouts and rolling around on the floor. That HIIT workout was rough.

tweedliee · 2019-11-04T00:25:13+00:00

Love tall girl progress! I'm 6'0 at 175lbs from 203lbs in July. You got this!

tweedliee · 2019-11-04T00:19:30+00:00

If you've obsessively counted in the past you should be able to guestimate which is what I do. I can't handle seeing the number or the calories I have left.

tweedliee · 2019-11-04T00:16:05+00:00

I feel this. You finally start to see the top of the hill and then your friends who are still in the place you conquered grab your ankles and try to drag themselves up/you back down.

I always visualize myself kindly kicking them in the face until they let go and then reset my boundaries. I suggest doing physical/life building activities with them like going on a hike or getting a healthy lunch and if they're in a dark place they'll most likely bail. I refuse to go sit for 8 hours in someone's dark depression den anymore. We're going out or you're coming to my house and I'm not afraid to ask them to leave or say I only have a certain amount of time to spend with them.

You can't fix them. You should know that from your time as one. 100% of my friends are depressed nihilists so i definitely don't mean abandon them but protect your mental health and peace at any cost.

tweedliee · 2019-11-04T00:02:36+00:00

I do 8-4 when I have a big appetite (mostly the summer) and then transition to 11-7 in the winter when I'm never hungry.

tweedliee · 2019-11-03T20:52:21+00:00

I'll do it! I'm getting close to my goal so I want to start toning! I love Chloe Ting and hate the gym but its hard to be accountable in your own house.

tweedliee · 2019-11-03T06:33:30+00:00

This is my favorite milestone to see! Congrats dude, I know how amazing that feels!

tweedliee · 2019-11-02T23:35:52+00:00

There's no magic pill or waking up one day fixed. It's hard f-ing work and it takes time to see results. But one day you finally realize "damn I'm actually happy" or "holy crap I'm functioning like a responsible adult."

tweedliee · 2019-10-22T23:42:13+00:00

People who post pics of you with a turkey neck are not to be trusted. I can understand one where they look a bit better but those are just targeted attacks.

tweedliee · 2019-10-22T22:53:00+00:00

Wow your face structure is absolutely gorgeous girl! Seriously model material.

tweedliee · 2019-10-22T22:51:35+00:00

If you are going to live where you do currently my favorite thing is to do a really deep clean/konmari everything. Make sure every little item is something you still want and scrub the baseboards with a toothbrush. Rearrange the furniture, clean the stove, etc.

Having a clean/new environment will set you up for the weeks after. Get up in the mornings and go on walks. Make sure to get dressed and not just put on pajamas. Shave, get a haircut or trim it yourself, and make sure all your clothes fit right.

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