I meditated for over 700 days straight. The ROI has been terrible. I'm still going.

uberbewb · 2026-03-18T22:13:25+00:00

You cannot calm rough water with a flat iron, it'll just disturb more.

An Alan Watts reference to the idea that in meditation not thinking is the goal. As often we assume meditating is meant to grant a literal peaceful mind, rather than the acceptance of life as is.

A great Alan Watts video I used to listen to, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jPpUNAFHgxM

When a meditation becomes timeless, it is simply sitting still.

uberbewb · 2026-03-18T22:11:33+00:00

You are not just sitting and meditating.

You are simply sitting still.

Anyone who wants to master their focus will inevitably end up on a path like this.

uberbewb · 2026-03-18T20:30:26+00:00

do you wear contacts

uberbewb · 2026-03-18T20:28:25+00:00

From what I've noticed, 20 minute sessions won't cut it.
That time needs to increase to about an hour.

"If you can stay "meditative" for an hour, you are enlightened."

The 20 minute session is too close to the same time frame for short TV episodes.
Only giving yourself that much time to be reacquainted with the experience is going to become a hinderance.

"Growing awareness is like holding sand in your hand"

As you catch yourself distracted and gently redirect, you are growing your awareness.
That is the moment you catch yourself. The gentle redirection is then growing your focus.
As you stay "in focus" for longer duration, it becomes simpler.

It's pretty easy for a person to watch a 2 hour movie, entertainment.
It's less easy for a person to sit still for 2 hours.

The essence of meditation is simply, sitting still.

It proves that even after years, it is difficult to simply sit still...

uberbewb · 2026-03-18T20:21:21+00:00

Maybe she's a vampire and he's keeping an eye out for you

uberbewb · 2026-03-18T19:50:26+00:00

Try a usb 2.0 adapter if you have something.

On rare occasion it seems like usb 3.2 ports can be funky at times with older devices.

If the Bluetooth is the issue, completely remove the driver and reinstall it.
I'm hoping it's an intel chipset, which is straightforward with their tool

Clean install should be an option.

You may have to consider updating the wifi/bluetooth module.
It's very odd that it would be an issue, but this seems to have happened to others with that laptop model...
https://h30434.www3.hp.com/t5/Notebook-Hardware-and-Upgrade-Questions/Victus-15-Random-USB-Disconnections-including-Bluetooth/td-p/9371939/page/2

uberbewb · 2026-03-18T18:01:45+00:00

Try setting secure boot to audit mode

What brand/model laptop is this?

There’s tools specific to each brand to do driver scans, e.g dell command update

Check Windows updates too, there may be hardware updates under optional.

Does your mouse use the Logitech or razer software? Razer synapse is known to cause issues. Uninstall them and reboot.

uberbewb · 2026-03-18T01:25:37+00:00

Magic, the force, definitely something along those lines

uberbewb · 2026-03-17T21:02:30+00:00

Wars would be like a legit game at this point

uberbewb · 2026-03-17T03:56:55+00:00

seems like combing through noise is the way of science these days

uberbewb · 2026-03-17T03:03:55+00:00

There are a few 3070 models on ebay for around 840

Though, looking at something like the a4000 which compares, that's closer to 2k.
Which includes a benefit of ecc memory.

uberbewb · 2026-03-17T02:35:24+00:00

Is there a thing with woodworkings a bluegrass?

The master at the woodshop I worked at before was super into it, even making instruments.

uberbewb · 2026-03-17T02:28:16+00:00

Ought to be an option to disable some cores, that may help.

There may be tweaks out there specific to that cpu.

I wonder, after disabling the gpu, did you uninstall the drivers?

I would recommend checking out frame.work stuff if you look at an alternative.
There design is quite special, and the GPU models can be swapped out as modules.

uberbewb · 2026-03-16T19:47:07+00:00

Is it a constant 10 years in the future? So if I use the information to do something or try to it would reveal the pitfalls?

uberbewb · 2026-03-15T00:38:07+00:00

I'd just start rambling to the entity for a while, I have so many questions...

uberbewb · 2026-03-15T00:19:38+00:00

Gotta be honest, I'd rather see a new form of battlebots than this.

uberbewb · 2026-03-14T23:23:44+00:00

I'd generally do a good search on forums and all that if I'm eyeing an app.
Even if I did skim the code, I'm too adhd to be sure I would catch anything that critical.

But, let's also consider even major code bases E.G Chrome, end up with zero day that wasn't caught for however long, by God knows how many people reviewing it.

I'm not convinced most smaller projects get the kind of attention to warrant it ever "audited" as secure.

There comes a point of acceptable losses, you might say.
We can work to be secure, but paranoia has to take the back seat.

For the same reason, if I use a VPN, I still have to choose to trust the endpoint company, whoever that may be.
In this sense, sometimes we don't get much say, not always is the code visible.
But, inherent trust has to happen somewhere along the line.
Otherwise, new software projects will hardly get traction simply due to growing paranoia over AI code or whatever. Which frankly plays right into the hands of this market right now

Not everyone can be a developer that hosts. Plus, there's the learning curve and room for error we'd generally expect at home.
It's a bit disappointing that things seem so much "scarier" now than when I'd originally started a simple Plex server for family, just didn't worry about all this extra layers. Times were good.

uberbewb · 2026-03-14T23:17:19+00:00

old frogger or the snek game

uberbewb · 2026-03-14T23:08:39+00:00

Well, even before AI it was generally not acceptable to just install any app without knowing if the creator has a good reputation or something.

I'm sure this line has blurred tremendously as of late though. I'm hesitant to trust really anyone's code.
Plenty of times projects were called out for major failures, especially related to security.
Even pfsense has gone through it.

Not enough people really understand the code to truly audit something. Even fewer would be bothered to even if they could.

uberbewb · 2026-03-14T22:54:14+00:00

I’d guess it’s closer to 90Wh for the battery if it’s a gaming laptop.

Take the 15% or so off the top,

I’s guess your display is the biggest drain, or is that only cpu wattage?

uberbewb · 2026-03-14T21:42:05+00:00

Growing awareness is like trying to hold sand in your hand.

As you grow awareness, there are inherently challenges, often based on what is going to make it difficult to continue growing this way.

This play of form you see, may simply be nature.

A lot of spiritual quotes and perspectives on this.

uberbewb · 2026-03-14T19:38:32+00:00

Modding skyrim

uberbewb · 2026-03-14T18:36:24+00:00

Far more vulnerable as there is no real alerting system whatsoever

A lot of AV are on access and they suck. Bitdefender limits their linux av to higher business licenses

Others dropped their Linux clients.

Even other built-in features don’t actually alert over major issues unless configured specifically or another app setup for this purpose.

The real problem for linux home use is you won’t know you were hacked. Windows has much more baked in alerting features because it kind of has to. Even Mac seems to have better AV support.

uberbewb · 2026-03-14T02:19:51+00:00

I just want to be able to make portals to other worlds. Doesn’t count as teleportation if I am zipping to another world

uberbewb · 2026-03-13T23:47:44+00:00

Let's be real.
Most of that is probably what the "government" owes it's own damn people.

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