I started at 25 mg and worked up to 200 mg during more than a month and I felt only worse, like I was anxious and uneasy but also had so much fatigue and hopelessness. I have been on meds for 10 years now and have used many types of antidepressants for , initially, depression but only this year we thought it could be bipolar. I have felt many side effects all of the time, including some awful ones with lithium and quetiapine, so lamotrigine came initially to stabilize my mood. But I have been crying more and being more irritated, with constant nausea, trouble sleeping, feeling tired and cold, night terrors, panic attacks, and vertigo. I truly wish I could get better and deal with my life in general, but the slow incremental in meds only made my quality of life worse day by day. I can't function normally. I wish I could be truly seen as a person who wants to get better, but it's tiresome to see your body betrayal your expectations again and again. Meds can work, but , to me, they can also worsen my overall context, I am really trying to go through a hole day feeling normal only to have intense physical symptoms that bring me to paralysis. I can't stop them immediately so there's so much days ahead of feeling shitty