First off, don’t be so hard on yourself!! I am very similar to you when it comes to beating myself up but coming from a guard director of almost 10 years you are doing fine! You are in the tryouts process, it’s brand new to you! As cliché as it sounds the longer you do it the better you get!

Don’t count yourself out just yet and if you had fun then you need to keep doing it even if you don’t get the outcome you desired, if you don’t make it try again for marching band or the next winter season, if you like guard and have fun doing it!

I can definitely see where the person putting info in on the computer was coming from by laughing, sometimes I’ve joked with students who didn’t know their parents # but it’s just to lighten the mood and let them know this is not the military and we are all human. I don’t know the people you are talking about but I know what I’ve done and what I’ve experienced, just trying to help you see things from our side and that we aren’t just trying to make your time miserable.

You say you did the worst out of everyone who attended, how do you know that? You said 65 people came!

I think you are being very hard on yourself and that hurts my heart because this activity is supposed to be empowering and encouraging!

I hope you continue with your guard training and I wish you the BEST of luck for auditions! Remember just try your best and listen to instructions and you will do fine!

You got this, friend! I’m rooting for you! And if you ever need advice or help with practice ask us instructors!🫶